It`s been almost 10 months since John died.Although most of these months have been a blur- i truly thought I was going well. I ate well, rested,did things that we used to do together by myself.The problem is now that everything is done, I`m left with nothing to do but miss him intensely. It started last week when i woke up with a bad headache.Nothing unusual, had migraines my whole life.But after the headache went away, i just felt the urge to stay in bed.Five days later and I was still in bed.What is the sense of getting up? Everything is done.Today I am literally forcing myself to be positive,get back on track with my classes but I really feel-what`s the point? I`m only 47 but feel so lost and alone.Family and friends are scattered all over so it`s just me.How do you start a new life when the life you had was just fine?