I am "new" on here... I have nowhere else to go. Today is Easter... also it is my late husband/best friend/only family/protector/soulmate/life's birthday today. We were together for thirteen years. In a world where everyone refers to me as "crazy", he understood. He was the only one. He died almost 3 years ago. Each day it gets worse. With each day I give up a bit of the fight to "move forward". Why? Why do I need to move forward. I see nothing for me up ahead. I just want it over already. I do not no what do do any longer. I have reached out eberywhere else I can think of. PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME
Jennifer, you have come to the right place. Everyone here has gone through or is going through what you are going through. This site helped me deal with losing my Rose in 2010 better than anywhere else I went to or anyone else I talked to. Those two cuties in the picture with him I am assuming are your children. They need their mother. They are grieving as well. Anniversaries, birthdays and holidays are the hardest and when they fall on the same day it makes it that much harder. Everyone here is supportive and accepting of everyone else. You do not NEED to move forward but I still encourage you to do so. Grief does get easier with time but never fully goes away. Even though I am in a new loving relationship I still miss my Rose every day. Come here often for support. You may even find yourself giving support. I am sending you a big virtual bear hug. I hope it helps. Be as well as you can.
Jennifer -- I don't know if I can help you, dear friend! I can barely help myself. I lost my husband and dearest love of my life 2 years ago. We were together for 20 years -- the best 20 years of my life -- and, the last two years have been the worst. I know what it feels like to want it to end -- I know what it means to look into the future and find it empty, without purpose. I know how it feels to be high-jacked by grief, just as I begin to think I am getting better. You know how all this feels, too. You want answers and I don't have them. I go on because I don't have the courage to stop -- and I stop because I don't have the courage to go on. At some point, I believe I will decide what I want the rest of my life to be -- and, then I will have a purpose. I just know that I want that chance -- and, I want you to have that chance, too. So, we keep on -- we put one foot in front of the other for as long as we can -- then we rest -- we give ourselves permission to cry, to rant, to shake our fist at God and the world -- then we begin again, putting one foot in front of the other. Grieving a spouse, I have learned, is not something we 'get over' -- we 'get through it' by going through it -- experiencing it, to the very depths of our souls. On the other side of grief, I believe, is wisdom, compassion, spirituality -- an emptiness and a fullness -- our profound loss and the totality of the human experience. Those who never love, never grieve.
I will keep you in my prayers, Jennifer.
Welcome Please hang on It does get a bit easier as time goes by. Life is precious , try to get out as much as possible. Possibly volunteer..take a class, join a group, mentor a student. We are all on this difficult journey But do NOT give up. Talk to friends and family. We are here to help .