Maureen, It is so hard to put one foot in front of the other. Right now your grief is young, raw and so hard to comprehend and you are trying to find a new normal and an explanation to who you are and what will become of you and all of this. As time passes, there will be 2 sides to your grief, the one that goes out in public and the one that stays behind closed doors. But somehow tomorrow always comes and we find a way to move forward. You are right, it is something we need to get through and not something we get over.
I was married for 23 years and my husband passed at the age of 59 from lung cancer. I took care of him for 17 months and I don't regret one day of doing it. And trust me, that road was a hard one too. So here I am 17 months later trying to find me and who I am one small baby step at a time.
Hugs, jane P.