You're right about that word "widow". The first time I went to my cardiologist after Jim died, they wanted me to update my information. When I saw that word I almost passed out, literally. I got dizzy, lightheaded, then everything sort of went black. The woman at the desk thought I was going to fall, but I got myself together somehow. I marked "married". That was only about two months after Jim died. Of course in the examining room I cried, but better than passing out. I am now at 6 months and two weeks and going through a terrible time. I feel like I'm going backwards instead of forward. Someone said you go through bad times about every three months. Has anyone else heard of this?
Widow..as bad as being told that now you are single. Oh for tax purposes as my financial planner said. I think it was a reality check for him to see what that word did to me. What reality checks. For me I lost Dane, Dec 3, 2008. It's been quite a ride, so far, and I'm still learning to balance. One day at a time, but I've learned to accept things as they are. Nothing will change how he made me feel. I take that around with me always.