Bereaved Spouses

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My love is gone...

Started by Chris Sky. Last reply by Sara Murphy May 15. 9 Replies

Struggling with reality

Started by Corey. Last reply by Brad Block Apr 30. 6 Replies

Nine days and a whirlwind of emotions.

Started by Tiffany Phillips. Last reply by Sara Murphy Jan 27. 12 Replies

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Comment by Charles E. Nelson on May 3, 2017 at 2:38pm

Dear Tiffany,

I wish to concur with Sara's opinion regarding the fact that your grief is much too raw and fresh to feel comfortable allowing anyone, no matter how well meaning, to rush you toward anything for which you are not ready. We all here realize from our sharing with one another that unless a person has experienced for themselves the devastation of losing their most most beloved soulmate, they cannot fathom the vulnerable state in which we exist.

A true friend will try to understand and allow you as much time and space as you need to get through this early period of guilt, sadness, and confusion after your terrible loss. It is probably good that he is honest in expressing his growing attachment, but it is even better that you let him know you are dealing with all you can handle right now.

A favorite phrase I picked up somewhere has been my response countless times over the past two years whenever someone asks when I will be ready for "fill-in-the-blank". I look into their eyes and quietly say "I'm dancing as fast as I can." Often this is met with a confused silence and quick glances toward the door, but some intuitive friends simply get it and say "OK - I don't mean to pressure you - I'm sorry."

I know you will have mixed feelings about relationships, love, and guilt and also know that you will get through this...just give yourself what you are asking of your friend - time.

Wishing you a peaceful day and week,

Love, Chuck 

Comment by Tiffany Phillips on May 3, 2017 at 1:09pm

And that's what I said, I'm not ready for anything.  I guess what's just making me freak out are all of these emotions at once.  Grief is a bitch.

Comment by Sara Murphy on May 3, 2017 at 12:05pm

Tiffany.....My own opinion is that it's WAY too soon to get into another relationship.  As you said, you didn't break up because this relationship wasn't working, he died and if not for that you and he would still be together.  You're still in the early stages, the fog and until that lifts, you really don't need any additional outside pressures.    Yes, someday you'll want someone by your side but now's not that time.  I totally understand the guilt as I can't even think about ever dating again without feeling guilty about leaving Ken behind.  My husband's been gone for almost 16 months and it's still too soon for me so 4 months is beyond comprehension (in my opinion only).  If this person is pressuring you, you may have to tell him outright that you have nothing to give right now and let him go.  If he's still around a year from now, then maybe it was meant to be.

Comment by Tiffany Phillips on May 3, 2017 at 11:42am

I guess to make it make more sense, I received a text last night that said "I'm getting attached." and my reply was "It's not like him and I broke up, he died.  I still wear my promise ring, I still think about how tomorrow and next year could be, I still cry when I get in the closet.  It's all complicated."  And that's how I feel, confused and complicated and I just cried myself to sleep, almost blaming ML because if he wouldn't have died and left me I wouldn't be feeling like this and feeling confused and crying.  And I just don't know what to do or how to feel or how not to just randomly cry.

Comment by Tiffany Phillips on May 3, 2017 at 9:51am

Sorry I haven't been around much, but I am thinking of everyone here.  After losing my boyfriend in January, we found out my dad has prostate cancer and to be honest it just seems like the one's around me can't catch a break and it breaks my heart.
But that's not really why I'm messaging today.  I'm beyond confused and to be honest, you guys are the only one's that I don't think will assume I'm crazy lol.
It's only been 4 months and I still get sad, I'm still grieving, etc.  I know I'll be doing that a lot.  I know it's part of the healing process and I've accepted that.

A friend and I have been texting, just the normal "How's your day" "whatcha doing" "what movie you watching" texts throughout the day.  Nothing that would insinuate anything wrong, although I know he cares about me as more than a friend.. unfortunately the only emotion I can feel is guilt.  I've explained to him that it's too soon and he completely respects that.

Logically I know that he has passed and is not coming back.  Logically I know that eventually I will hopefully find someone and logically I know that I don't want to be alone and be that crazy cat lady down the street.  But the only emotion I can feel is guilt.  And I have enough guilt over his passing. I don't need more guilt when I know that I'm not doing anything wrong.  So how do I move past that feeling.  How do I know what to do.  How do I live.  I've never lost anyone that was close to me, and I just feel torn in two some days.  I'm lucky that I have an amazing job that I love and that keeps me busy.  Because then I can focus on that and my mind doesn't wander as much, but at night.. well let's just say thank goodness for prescriptions or I wouldn't be getting much sleep.
I know this is probably rambling and might not make sense, but a million different thoughts are running through my head and I just wanted to get some of it out and see what people who understand losing someone have to think about it.
Sorry, for the length.

Comment by Gretchen G on May 3, 2017 at 7:12am
Thinking of everyone here its national widows day....
Been having a hard time seeing the posts on my phone, and haven't had time to go online to really catch-up. Hope everyone is doing their best.
Hugs to you all!
Comment by Marsha H on May 3, 2017 at 4:44am

Sara ...  Hope you are feeling a bit better.  What a nice thought Ken and Steve will be in heaven together.  Sara is very lucky to have you and you both have something in common now and eventually she'll share her feelings. 

Of course we are always here for you and others as we're family!



Comment by Sara Murphy on May 2, 2017 at 11:28am

Thank you Chuck and Marsha for your kind words.   My Legacy family is always by my side with an understanding like no other.   I hope to be able to help Sara in a way that no one outside of Legacy could help me.  With the personal first hand experience comes the knowledge of what to say/not say or do/not do.  One thing I hope will ease her pain is knowing that Ken and Steve went WAY back to long before Sara met him so Steve already has one friend to hang with in heaven.

Chuck......I'm going to have to add that movie to my list of movies to watch.  I think it's nice to see grief played out with such reality to it.  I look at it as a "teachable moment".



Comment by Marsha H on May 2, 2017 at 4:01am

My Dear Sara ...   am so very sorry to hear of your friend Steve and yes, I understand it must bring back memories of your Ken and not an easy task to go through.  I am so proud of you for putting your own grief aside and be by your friend Sara's side and take this difficult journey with her.  You are wonderful friend to have and anyone of us here will attest to that.  I am sure you were strong for her, but saddened inside.

Three weeks after Ernie passed away my neighbor had a friend pass away and just couldn't go alone and asked me to go.  I was still in shock at that time, but I went and I can remember the wave of heartbreak wash over me being at the Celebration of Life, but I managed and as if by some miracle I saw a woman standing alone by the doorway and I went over to talk to her and she had just had her husband pass away. 

I can't answer why God decides to take the young.  All I know is death knows no age.  I am fighting my own faith over this one and trying to understand why.  I don't think we will ever get an answer until we pass ourselves. 

Many hugs to you hon and we're here for you.


Comment by Charles E. Nelson on May 1, 2017 at 6:17pm

Dear Sara,

I'm very sorry about your loss of your friend's Steve. Tonight will certainly be quite difficult emotionally, and you will be a great comfort to your friend Sara. Indeed those questions surrounding such losses can challenge our resolve and our faith - I think that is natural even for the most steadfast of us. Last night, while Steve slept in a chair, I watched a movie on TV called "Moonlight and Valentino". It was about a young wife losing her husband suddenly in a tragic accident, and how her family and friends gathered to try helping her through the first week, then the ensuing months. There was much honesty in the writing, especially in the way the woman said small comments or did certain things that convinced me the writer must have experienced loss and grief to get it so right. I had a few truly rough moments during commercial breaks when I had to walk around quietly and try to keep from going to pieces. There were no easy answers to why this happened, but near the end she said something to the effect that this thing changed her and was permanently part of her life now, but now she believed could survive and move toward new and different things as a new and different version of herself.

I will be thinking of you tonight, and send my prayers to you and your friend. Dear friend, your sensitivity and compassion will be a great gift to her in the times ahead.




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