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Comment by Steve on November 9, 2017 at 2:01pm

Moving Part 1

One year ago this very month I left Dallas, TX heading north for Bloomsbury, NJ, I had spent the entire month of October packing and saying my goodbyes to all my friends at work and at church, I was finally retiring from work.  Everyone thought I was a little crazy when I told them where I was retiring too, I could tell this from the way they would ask me “why New Jersey”.  A few very close friends knew exactly why and were not at all surprised by my sudden decision to leave work, pack up my apartment and head north.


Three years ago this very month I lost my partner of 25 years to a neurological disorder that caused him to have seizures, his symptoms were very similar to Parkinson’s Disease.  Mark knew that his disorder was a hereditary defect affecting only the males from his family history.  Mark and I had 25 years just like any other couple, we had our share of joy and disappointments, but through it all we persevered and we loved each other very much.  All those years together we seldom argued, oh we had our differences, we just decided early on that life was too short to let everyday ups and downs to take over.  Mark was the one that taught me to relish each day, to be happy and not to regret  anything; this was the basis of our success, just one simple rule, to love each other as if it were our last day together.  I was the one that found this more difficult as if it was something foreign to me, but Mark would pull me around to his way of looking at life and it is because of him that I can move forward through life now without him by my side.


Mark’s past and family history was much different than my own, and yet we both shared one common factor, our families labeled and to some degree judged us for who we were not.  Biological families have a tendency to view us by the standards to which they have lived their lives instead of just accepting each other as the same person we have always been, such as cousins, brothers, sisters and so on.  As we all grew up together we each had to find our own way through this life by making the decision to be the best person we could be, not by choosing our life based on those around us but by examining ourselves, understanding ourselves and then moving forward to be the person that we were and not the person everyone expected us to be.

Mark came from a very wealthy family, his mother was an accomplished British archaeologist and his father was a member of the US Ambassador team servicing various parts of Europe and Africa.  Mark had an older brother and the two of them, along with their family, traveled and moved from one country to another.  Mark’s stories of his childhood were fascinating and yet shrouded in underlying currents of sadness and happiness associated with growing up always on the move.

Comment by deborah peck on November 9, 2017 at 10:55am

I don't think I realized how much Gregs passing had an affect on extended family until I went to  dinner with my sister last night and we were discussing a candlelight ceremony that the funeral home is having for my husband and others this month, and how we always go to a ceremony for her baby who passed from sids 17 yrs ago, every year we have gone to this and she tells me she doesn't know if she wants to go this year and I ask why, she tells me that in all these years Greg was at every one of these and starts crying and says she doesn't know if she can do it knowing he is not here, truly touched my heart and we both cried a little sitting in the restaurant , its funny how you get so wrapped up in your own pain that you don't notice others are hurting too

Comment by Mary. Jane on November 8, 2017 at 10:13pm
Ok this post is for Chuck and Steve and anyone else who believes that FEATHERS can be a sign from our loved ones.
Melinda and I were in Virginia Beach VA, it was our last full day, and we were determined we were going to wade in the Atlantic we,d walked down the few steps to the sand, and I hesitated for a moment at the base of the small stairs, stepped onto the sand, and a FEATHER (a rather large one) floated down from the sky, and landed right near mt bare feet. I hesitated a moment, then picked it up, and put it into my small purse..and continued on to the water to walk in the waves of the Atlantic Ocean which I had never been in. Melinda (daughter) wAs rather horrified that I kept it wasn,t pretty, a bit ragity, but It had floated down from the air and landed an inch from my bare feet. I told her it was from her dad...and took it home with me. Was it from Bob?
Comment by Mary. Jane on November 8, 2017 at 5:07pm
Oh Deb P. THankyou so much! You can,t imagine how much better your reply made me feel.
Comment by deborah peck on November 8, 2017 at 3:42pm

Mary Jane, I do the same thing on here and its always at night when I too am lonely, Thank God we have someplace to talk even in the middle of the night so blather away anytime

Comment by Mary. Jane on November 8, 2017 at 12:05pm
To DEB P. I am so sorry to hear about your cancer..but in a sense, it is fortunate it is a cancer that isn,t hidden somewhere inside your body, where it can grow for years without you knowing anything about it, until it is too late. I know you will have to go through a lot, but you will b ok, and all of us here will b praying for you.
Comment by Mary. Jane on November 8, 2017 at 11:19am
Sorry about blathering away last nite. Sometimes I get tired of sitting here alone so I come here and write about nothing incessantly, because I can,t scream at God “what happened to my life?” What is the point now?
Comment by Mary. Jane on November 7, 2017 at 9:41pm
Ok, here is a better post..the set up: I am 71, 4’9” and weigh 120. So, I have found a lot of clothes at a store called RUE 21. It is really meant for younger people, but I after I lost weight, and my life changed forever, I began to shop there.
So, today I went in just to return something I,d bought online, and was talking to the clerks, and told them my age...(yes,I know they were probably BS-ing me,) but they DIDN,t believe me, and asked to see my ID!kinda made my day! LOL
Ok, this is really self centered, but my daughter made some videos of our Outer Banks trip like she did for Mother’s Day, and if anyone is interested..I would like to share one or 2 of them, when she is done with uploading them. It won,t b for awhile, as she isn,t done with them.
The trip we went on was weirdly rained every day, and her home in CA missed being burned to the ground by 10 miles and the grace of God that the wind blew east instead of west.
4 of her co-workers lost EVERYTHING...and another person was one of two people who’s homes were left untouched, while every other house burned to the ground. Yes she was lucky, but the GUILT she has being the “lucky one” is horrific.
Ok kids, thanks for letting me ramble on, and no, I have NOT PUI-ing. LOL
Comment by Mary. Jane on November 7, 2017 at 9:24pm

Hi kids. Sorry I haven,t responded to anyone’s posts..
I was watching This is Us tonight and a background songs lyrics kinda jumped out at I wanted to share it. U might have to listen till the 2nd or 3rd verse to see why it hit me.
I have been in a strange mood today, and it is cuz of this site. I know someone who’s friends spouse died about two years ago..and they aren,t doing very well, and I told them I would send my friend the link to Legacy..and I have been thinking about what to SAY in the email I want to send...and I found myself frozen.
I want to shout to the world what a wonderful place this is, and I want so badly to refer ANYONE here...and then I started thinking about BOb, and how I can,t tell anyone that it gets better, because it doesn, just gets different...and I want to thank all of you for being here...and now I,ve put myself into that weird place...I have managed to stay out of..and yes, I am better physically, thank u all for your kind words...ok, a happy post is coming next...
Comment by deborah peck on November 7, 2017 at 10:37am

Dear Marsha and Sara, my family does know about my health issue, I told them as soon as I found out, I meant that I don't want to discuss it with them as I don't want to upset them or scare them so I just kinda blow it off as its nothing when I'm around them,  And I do know this will all be fine in the end, just don't want to deal with this again or having surgery on my neck, thanks for all your support  Debbie 


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