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This might be a rough time for many of you. Do what you feel you need to do to get through it. Remember, someone is here almost all the time to talk to you.
Started by Legacy.com Dec 28, 2017.
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Deborah ... HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I hope you can manage to have a good birthday and spend it with family or friends or better yet, both!
I am sure you have heard all the cliches that are supposed to make us feel better. Grief is not easy, it's not fair and there is no miracle cure. It has been two years since I lost Melanie. I can look back now and see how much I have changed but one thing remains the same. I still love her and miss her. I talk to her almost daily. I have no idea how many times I have been driving and have to pull over because I started crying. Just know you are among friends here.
Ok went to therapy yesterday. The therapist was an older man, very nice. Told him about my history and that my husband just passed. He said that I have been thru a lot and that my grief is raw. Ok..knew that. So then we got into a discussion about suicide. Since I know something about it because of my brother I wanted to know why so many people think it is wrong. Aren't we supposed to be the best person we can be and aren't we supposed to appreciate God's world that he put us on? I was taught that God wants us to be happy. So.....if we hurt so bad, find no joy in life, no reason to wake up in the morning, why can't we just die? I know that Jesus suffered for us. I can't believe that he wants this. There is so much suffering in the world and since he gave us free will, can't we end our own suffering? He wants to see me in two weeks. He doesn't feel that I'm ready to give up yet. I can not and will not go years like this!! He also thinks that my weight loss...36 lbs since Aug. 25....and not taking my :-P pills the way I should and not wanting to have the lump in my breast checked that I'm trying to die. I never thought that...maybe he's right. It's not unheard of . I cannot look to tomorrow let alone months from now. I told him my insurance won't pay till March. He said if I really wanted to die I wouldn't care. No. I don't want anyone to have to pay for my cremation or lot rent or utility bills till things are settled. My one step daughter is struggling and I want her to have my place. Yesterday err today I stopped at her place for a bit but on the way home I started to have a panic attack. Yep, while driving. I made it home but was shaking really bad for a good hour. So...if I want to die why not in a car crash? That doesn't always work. Between my :-P meds and the nine fentanyl patches I have left and intend to keep as they don't expire till 10/18. I'm 66 I have nothing left to live for. Time heals,time changes,grief subsides. Crap
Hello dear family.....I've been going through withdrawals the last few days. I've been without a computer (hard drive crash) for nearly a week and haven't been able to log in. I'm going to catch up over the next couple days but want you to know you've been in my thoughts.
Dear Christine, I think most of us have been thru the feelings you are going thru. when my 1st husband passed I too would think of ways to join him and the only thing that stopped me was my 3 little girls I needed to raise, , now with Greg I would sit on my deck and look at the lake and wonder how long it would take me to drown myself our if our natural instinct for survival would kick in and not allow me to drown, have even thought of jumping off a bridge but knowing my luck I would just end up having to have someone care for my till I eventually died when its my actual time to go. So as you can see I'm still here and still doing this day by day. I knw you think no one else can possibly know your pain and you think no one else could possibly have loved like the 2 of you did so how could anyone possibly be able to relate to you, I know this because those are my thoughts too , I wont say it will get better because after losing my 1st husband 35 years later I would still cry for him and wonder what could of been even though I had remarried , thye are always in our hearts, nut I do know both of my husbands would be so mad if I ever gave up because they know that someday we will be together, not sure how it will work with the three of us together(lol) but I know we are where we are supposed to be and they are where they are supposed to be and its impossible to understand why. but you take good care of yourself , sounds like you have plenty of family to help you, let them. debby
tomorrow is my birthday, a day my Greg always made a big deal out of, we were so looking forward to this one because I will turn 62 (gulp) which would mean retiring and the beginning of us spending our time together traveling to see all the national parks in the U.S. which might sound corny but we loved nature and taking roadtrips just the two of us.So now that dream is gone and I try not to think of what should be and try to think of how to rebuild my future now. This Thanksgiving and Christmas will be so hard to get thru but I know I will. I'm still having my entire extended family over for the holidays as we always did but now my sister will be helping me get it ready instead of my husband. Greg was always a huge Auburn football fan as he grew up in Alabama so Ive decided to honor his memory this year and am changing my Angel tree in my living room into a Auburn tree, I think he would love it and it will feel like he is a part of it . As far as Thanksgiving dinner goes the one thing I'm having a hard time dealing with is the preparation of the mashed potatoes, I know that is so weird but he was the one that always peeled them and mashed them up so not sure how to do that without bawling thru it, isn't it strange the small things that we tie into our loved ones lives. I don't kmow but I do know that soon this ear of holidays will be gone and we will know we can survive the Holidays withought our loved ones even if we don't want to
Dear Steve ... I am so happy to hear that at least you don't have carpal tunnel issues and now for the rest of the tests. It sounds like your doctor is on the ball considering a test for Lyme Disease because many doctors never do test for it and you probably know the symptoms, aches and pains, headaches, weakness, etc. I sure hope you don't have that, but at the same time pray they will find out what is wrong and can rectify it for you.
You're also in my prayers and give Chuck a hug for me.
Love your sis
Trina .. I always smile when I see you pop in to visit us and catch up on a few posts. As I said before I do think of you often. I hope my dear friend you are doing a little better. It seems we are dealing the same way with thing ... the best way we can. Carry that torch!
Christine ... Don't feel badly about getting your stepson and his wife to put Marshall's ashes in the companion urn. I didn't have to do that so I can imagine how difficult it would have been if you had to do it. I forgot to tell you that on Valentine's Day, our anniversary and Christmas, I always get a card still for my Ernie. I've done it for almost 7 years now. I just feel he knows. Call me crazy!
Everyone deals with especially Christmas in their own way. Because Ernie and I loved Christmas and 1 minute after midnight on Christmas Eve we'd have our own private Christmas I just had to keep up with the traditions so each year up goes the tree although I don't decorate as elaborately as I use to. Some how I just can feel him around on Christmas Eve and if it's my imagination I don't really care! You do what is comfortable for you.
I hope if you get invitations from family or friends that you will accept one or two of them. It won't be easy and it sure won't feel the same without Marshall there, but it's good to be around loving family and friends. You may not realize it at the time, but that helps you heal too.
I just feel you are a fighter and stronger than you think and you know deep in your heart Marshall would not want to see you not take your medication or take your own life. Boy, I sure thought of it many times, but something just stopped me.
Take good care of yourself and we're here for you.
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