Bereaved Spouses

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Comment by Chicago Beard on December 9, 2017 at 12:29pm

Mary Jane

I do not regret falling in love with my current lady. I found myself super lonely so I actually went and joined some dating sites. I was just saying I do not know if I would take the risk for a third time. I know life is basically a series of risks/risk avoidance. Do things at your pace. There is no reason to rush out and find someone new, nor is there a reason to avoid it. Listen to your heart. It will tell you when/if. As will I if I find myself in the same position again.

Comment by Mary. Jane on December 9, 2017 at 11:17am

STEVE,,what nice things you said about MARSHA...I agree with everything. Anytime someone posts about their pain, I find my self thinking WWMS..and I wait for her response, as she has insight thatnindon,t even THINK of! 

Beard, that is wonderful. I know there are several people here that took the chance and fell in love again...I even found myself considering what if I met someone. Yes, it is a HUGE risk...and yes, there have been a few people here who have lost a second love..but what about all the times they had with their new love. Even tho they went through a second death, look at the wonderful times they had. Before that second loss. Those years with someone new were spent in Love...yes, they still grieved for their first love, and now have to do it again...but wasn,t the price worth it? 

You have a second chance...and although it could end badly, there are no guarantees in this life..we are on this earth for a millisecond..we were meant to LIVE, not spend years and years huddled in a chair...but to go out and make the best of what we,ve had dealt to us. 

Sadly I am afraid to take my own advice..but at least I gave it a thought...which is more than I would have done 6 months ago.


Comment by deborah peck on December 9, 2017 at 10:33am

Chicago, what a great memory of you and your wife, all memories are bittersweet aren't they, we love them but also make us sad. Very happy you have found another love, yes you will always grieve for your wife but she would be happy for you.  I know my sis is just trying to help and I never let her knw her remarks are being taken the wrong way, and no she has never been thru this. Take care of yourself and have a great holiday

Comment by Chicago Beard on December 9, 2017 at 2:14am

This evening I went to see my adopted niece dance in the Nutcracker. She did very well. My Rose and I had seen her every week since she came home from the hospital until just before my Rose passed. They were extremely close. All I could think of during the performance was how Rose would have loved to see this and how proud she would have been. Of course that got the tears flowing.  It still hurts like hell even after seven years and being in a committed relationship for six. I am one of those members who does not post much but keeps tabs on what is going on through everyone else's posts.

Comment by Chicago Beard on December 9, 2017 at 2:08am


I understand totally. I am in a committed relationship currently and have actually thought that if I outlive my lady I could not get into a relationship again. My heart could not take it. Cut your sister some slack. She is trying to help and has no clue how. Feel happy for her that she does not understand because I am guessing she has never been through what you have been through once, let alone twice.

Comment by Steve on December 8, 2017 at 5:34pm

Hello all,

Chuck here, still using Steve's laptop (and looking forward to getting back to my old timey desktop).I am reading everyone's posts when I can and realizing how distanced I currently feel from this group whom I have come to think of as my family. I wish I could be part of all the conversations because I see so many of my own experiences in your words. I do especially want to jump in here to agree with Mary Jane in her appreciation of Marsha. When I was new here in Nov. of 2015 there were several very understanding and accepting members who assured me that not only was I not going crazy, but also that being gay was most definitely not an issue here. That was very important to hear, because in the months after losing Larry I lost count of the times people implied that "at least it wasn't like I lost a wife or something that awful". It was the first responses from people here that convinced me to stay, and to open up completely about all my pain and fear. I am grateful to all those generous souls, and Marsha was certainly one of those who was my constant and reliable guides and guardian angels. I have before referred to Marsha as our Archangel, the keeper of all our nightmares and tears - and a lady who is open about herself and her own sadness without ever neglecting to sense when someone here is especially in need of a word or some advice. We all do what  we can for each other here, and in that I see us all as angels of a sort. Marsha, to you I must say that there were times your responses have truly saved me from losing it altogether - and I doubt that I am alone in that.

I will just wish everyone here a peaceful weekend, and ask that you whisper a small prayer for Steve and I as we approach the closing date on Monday of our home in Texas. Legacy has been the start of our journey which led us to this, and there is just no denying that both our lives are permanently entwined with this site where we made our first halting steps toward healing. That process is by no means over - I know there is no end to my love for Larry, or to my grieving over him not being beside me. I do also know that without this site, and the loving friends I found here, I would not have made it this far. Thank you to everyone, past and present, who keep me going when I begin to lose focus and faith...

Love, Chuck  

Comment by Patti on December 8, 2017 at 10:35am

Christine:  Sending positive thoughts your way...I'm so sorry for the diagnosis.  I'll be thinking of you and praying for you.

Comment by Patti on December 8, 2017 at 10:23am

Maryjane:  Joe never regained conscienceness once they put him on a ventalitor...they were transferring him in an ambulance to a hospital that specializes in saddle pulmonary embolism when he died the first time in the ambulance - I was in the front of the ambulance.  They got him back but he actually died in the ER while they were trying to stabilize him to airlift him to the hospital.  I think in the beginning not sleeping was my way of not dreaming.  I actually live with guilt...he died after a routine surgery.  He had a hernia....he pushed off the surgery for a few years and I kept pushing him to get it taken care of...I feel so guilty for pushing him.  He developed the embolism five days after the surgery.  So the guilt kinda eats me alive...and December is the month he died so it seems as though December has become so difficult for me.  I just want it over with.  I do not live alone and my sister who I live with has a dog....I do want to live on my own again.  My family worries about me - honestly, I have no idea how I function.  I work full time 50-60 hours a week M - F.  I am a CFO for an equipment company.  I think my body has gotten use to a lack of sleep it just functions.  I know it's not going to last forever....but right now...I'm functioning on about 3 hours of sleep a night.  On occasion I'll get a good 5-6 hours but usually not more than that.  Your cat does sound like your guardian angel - that is really very sweet.

Comment by deborah peck on December 8, 2017 at 10:21am

Dear Christine, I am so sorry to hear about the positive results, My sister had  breast cancer 6 years ago, she had a lumpectomy  but also underwent chemo and is now cancer free. Regardless on what you decide to do I know this must be very scary for you even if you are hoping the outcome is  eventual death, I think some part of you wants to survive otherwise you wouldn't have even gone to the doctor, I'm praying that you go thru with getting the help you need and that the lumpectomy will be enough treatment. your friend Debbie

Comment by Christine Blaire on December 8, 2017 at 9:29am

Well dear friends....had the biopsy, Dr called me in.  Yes I have breast cancer

 Previously I had told her no treatments a lumpectomy was suggested where they only take out the lump no radiation or chemo. The mammogram and chest crazy and ultrasound showed no attachment to chest wall, not in lung or any other place. So I see the surgeon Monday morning and schedule a pet scan to make sure it isn't anywhere else and to stage it to see if a lumpectomy is possible. I discovered this lump the size of a nickel inn Aug. But my Marshall was sick and he came first. So, threeweeksafter his ppassing this issue discovered. We were never meant to be apart for very long. A lumpectomy will buy some time, with no treatment it has a good chance of coming back. Anyway you look at it I said I just wanted to be made comfortable.    Love Chris


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