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A continutaion of the "When a Spouse or Partner Dies" thread.
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This might be a rough time for many of you. Do what you feel you need to do to get through it. Remember, someone is here almost all the time to talk to you.
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Song lyrics by Danny Gokey
"Tell Your Heart To Beat Again"
You're shatteredLike you've never been beforeThe life you knewIn a thousand pieces on the floorAnd words fall short in times like theseWhen this world drives you to your kneesYou think you're never gonna get backTo the you that used to be
Tell your heart to beat againClose your eyes and breathe it inLet the shadows fall awayStep into the light of graceYesterday's a closing doorYou don't live there anymoreSay goodbye to where you've beenAnd tell your heart to beat again
BeginningJust let that word wash over youIt's alright nowLove's healing hands have pulled you throughSo get back up, take step oneLeave the darkness, feel the sunCause your story's far from overAnd your journey's just begun
Let every heartbreakAnd every scarBe a picture that reminds youWho has carried you this far'Cause love sees farther than you ever couldIn this moment heaven's workingEverything for your good
Tell your heart to beat againClose your eyes and breathe it inLet the shadows fall awayStep into the light of graceYesterday's a closing doorYou don't live there anymoreSay goodbye to where you've beenAnd tell your heart to beat againYour heart to beat againBeat again
Oh, so tell your heart to beat again
Dear Rebecca, I'm so sorry for your loss, its such a lonely journey to go thru as most everyone cant understand your feelings but everyone on here has been thru it so it does help. I just recently lost my second husband to death its been 7 months and is still so hard, I too was 31 when my first husband passed away at 36, He passed away while I slept next to him from undiagnosed heart disease and I too was left with little ones, the youngest being 7 years old, was truly a shock to us all and spent up until now wondering why, now his death is shoved to the back of my mind while I deal with the death of my 2nd husband. But I am living proof that you do go on because you have to, you have his child to raise and mine were my saving grace in that I had to keep on moving for them but don't make the mistake that I need and shove your own grief aside or you will forever be grieving for him if you don't take the time for yourself, don't get me wrong, you will forever miss him and still at times cry for him as I don't think that ever goes away but you will learn how to deal with it , does this make since? take care of yourself, Debbie
Rebecca ... I am sorry I forgot to answer on the experience yo had of negatives of your wedding day soon after Jim passed. Believe it or not (counselors will try to tell you otherwise) it's a sign Jim left behind for you to find. Often birds, finding coins throughout the house, a feeling someone is close to you while in your home are all signs. Some people never believe it, but here is one experience with witness' I had:
A few months after Ernie passed away of course I was in shock still and I was on the computer to get my mind off things. I have two small dogs who lay on the sofa behind me. My husband Ernie had to get up at 4:20 AM on work days and went to be at 9 PM and at least once he would get up in his sleep to go to the washroom. I heard the toilet seat go up, heard the sound of urinating and decided I was losing my mind. All of a sudden my dogs jumped down and went into the washroom which was dark. I was curious so I followed them and quickly turned on the light. I couldn't see Ernie of course, but my dogs were looking way up where Ernie's face would be (he was 6' 6" tall) and wagging their tails like crazy. It's then I knew he was still with me and I found strength from that. No one knows for sure what happens to people when they pass away and I feel our spouses may visit every so often to see how we are doing and to give us strength. Jim is around you and those negatives just didn't happen to fly off a shelf.
Dear Rebecca .... My deepest condolences on the loss of your husband and I am so sorry that he passed at such a young age and also not having a lengthily marriage as many plan to have. Although I know these words won't mean much to you I do believe it, 'It is better to have loved than to never love at all.' Most of us here have found our soul mates as you have and none of us were prepared to lose them. They will forever be in our hearts and minds and I can certainly understand why you can't seem to love anyone else as much.
My dear husband Ernie passed away April 2011 from pancreatic cancer at the age of 65. We were unable to have children so I am alone and I do understand now that your son is on his own it is another type of grief of missing him as well. To this day I still have my odd cries over a memory of Ernie, but it gets less as time goes on and sometimes when I do have a good memory I can smile for a change. I have grown stronger and you will as well even if you don't think you ever will.
I also related to you understanding that you were grieving before Jim passed away and I did the same thing. As long as Ernie was breathing I fought with everything I had to keep him with me, but, he was soul weary and the biggest gift I could give him was permission to let go and pass away.
I joined this group 6 years ago and still come back every so often and believe me everyone here understands just how you feel and the loneliness you are going through. I call them 'my angels' because they keep us strong and I found out from this site just how strong I was. You can talk about anything you like on here and never be judged, but have a feeling of family and understanding with much love attached. I hope you keep coming back and posting.
A big hug because you need one.
I hope the last storm didn't cause too much trouble for you...it was a doozy indeed! I am still trying to get myself organized here and am still using Steve's computer until mine gets connected. Sometimes days get by me and so I want to take this moment to tell you that I know this two year anniversary will be difficult for you - for me it was actually almost worse than the first because I suppose I was still a bit in shock. Steve and I will be holding you close in our thoughts - and in our hearts. Sweet friend, you have been here for me more times than I can count, always with the words filled with compassion and love that saw me through the darkest of moments. I wish I could be with you to truly hug you, but I am doing so in my heart for all the coming days.
God Bless You, dear Sara
I am so sorry that you had to go through this at such a young age and marriage. I cannot say anything more or better than Sara just wrote. This is a tough journey with bad days, ok days, and everything in between. Grief is merciless and relentless, but with time and perseverance the pain will lessen.
I will be thinking of you,
I am so sorry for all the pain you have had to, and continue to endure. This group, which I joined over 2 years ago and think of as my Legacy family, has given me such understanding and support that I wonder often where I would be had I not found it. This truly is a place of healing, and of openly sharing our feelings with others who will understand without judging no matter how desperate we sound. I lost my husband Larry to cancer in April of 2015, after being told only 7 months before of his diagnosis as terminal. I relate to your saying how you began grieving before you lost Jim, because the day in the doctors office when he talked of only buying time I too began my grieving, although I didn't know that at the time.
Please be gentle with yourself, because although time passes and we re expected to "move on", there is no forgetting our loneliness for our lost loves, no matter how many months or years go by.
I send my prayers and wishes for you to find some peace and respite from your tears whenever and wherever possible - and hope you will continue to share with us, because we truly do care.
Rebecca....Welcome to our group. I'm sorry for the loss of your husband. You were both so young to have gone through so much. I can relate because my husband was also ill and we spent his last few years in and out of hospitals. He way only 52 when he passed which will be two years this weekend. I really wish I could say something to take the pain away but all of us here know the loss of a soul mate is deep and forever. There are okay days and bad days but because they're in our hearts everyday, it still hurts everyday. You have come to the right place. We all understand and can help each other along during our journeys. I hope you'll stay with us and continue to post.
I'm sending positive, healing thoughts your way.
Mary Jane.....Last April I began keeping a notebook of my dreams of Ken. I make sure to put the date of the dream and all the details I can remember because they can fade fast. There are many nights though where I know I had a dream of him because I can feel it but I can't remember any of it. That's why I started writing them down and I'm glad I did. You may not want to remember this particular dream but there will be others that you do.
I am new here. So please excuse me interrupting your thread.
I have been feeling so sad and helpless for quite a while now.
I meet my husband Jim in 1992. He was American. Stationed at RAF Mildenhall UK. He was 26, and I was 21. It was love at first sight. We moved in together after a week. Engaged four months later, pregnant a month after that, then married 3 months later. We had moved from the UK to California.
Everything was great, except nearly dying having our son!!.
Life ticked on until 1998. Jim was so ill. I took him to the ER, and the Doctor said he probably had an ulcer. I don't know why but I said it wasn't that and could they do tests. A few days later we were called in to be told Jim had stage 4 Colon cancer, and a grapefruit sized tumour in his colon. Jim had chemo, and surgery. It seemed as if all was good. We had a couple more years of happiness and living life. At his 2 year check up we were told the cancer was back and had spread. It was terminal. I took care of him at home. He had a couple of big surgeries to remove tumours, and began chemo, he wanted to be with us as long as he could. He was quite weak, but wanted to work one day a week to keep our medical. A few weeks later I received a phone call that he had been found on the ground of a parking lot and had had a massive stroke. When I saw him he was paralysed on one side, and couldn't speak.He did regain full movement. But couldn't speak properly, and didn't know what things were and called. He seemed to know who I was, but not his son. He was about 13 mentally they thought. He had therapy and got a little better. We were given 6 months to a year. Jim passed 18 months later at the age of 36. I was a widow at 31 with a 9 year old son. I had taken care of Jim at home. So he died in my arms. I kissed him and lay there with him until I had to let them take him. I remember something strange happened.
After Jim was taken, I had gone upstairs, and on the floor was a photo negative strip. It was four negatives of our wedding day. I had no idea how it got there, as the negatives were all in a completely different place. I didn't know what to think.....
I went to view Jim in the coffin before he was cremated. I kissed his lips and said goodbye. The funeral was lovely. So many people came. He was so loved and respected.
Up til then I had been so busy taking care of him, then the funeral. I had already grieved for the 18 months that I knew Jim was going to die. So I just pulled up my bootstraps and became mum and dad to our son. In 2009 we moved to the UK. I married again to a man who was a closet alcoholic and very abusive. I divorced him and carried on with life. I dated someone for a year or so. But none of them came close to Jim. I have been single 3 years now. And my son is happily married living in London.
I just can't stop crying and wishing Jim was here. I keep remembering little things about our life together, that I had forgotten. I cry most days, especially when I see friends cekebrating 25 plus years of marriage, and wish that I was too. I want to wake up and have my American GI next to me. He would be 51 right now. Still so young.
So that's my story.
I hurt. I am lonely. And I miss my husband so much, the pain hurts my heart. I just don't know how heal. I don't think I ever will.
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