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Comment by deborah peck on March 7, 2018 at 10:04am

This is going to be a weird post but last night I was on the phone with my sister and we were just chatting about our craft rooms and I don't remember what was said but I laughed, I actually laughed a true real laugh not a half hearted one, and I didn't even realize it until I got off the phone. I didn't even feel guilty for it, it felt great and I want more laughs like that and I think Greg would be laughing with me and happy for me.Its weird to think a small thing like a laugh could ring you happiness, but in all of this pain I guess its the small moments that will bring us peace.  love and laughs to all of you

Comment by Christine Blaire on March 6, 2018 at 9:53am

Debra...you hit the nail on the head!   That speaks volumes, it combines all our feelings. Thank you.                                          Sara, thank you for the kind words. I too wish we could all actually meet in person. Yesterday I sold our camper. We bought it new march 2015 and planned to have it the rest of our lives. Well, we had it the rest of his life. He loved it and it was special to us. I cannot go in it without crying let alone go camping in it without him. The money will be kept as a nest egg. I know he understands and know if things were reversed he would do the same. All of these changes that are forced upon us!!!! I hate it!!!  I pray every night for God to take me. Everyday is filled with such heartache. Bless us all.

Comment by Sara Murphy on March 4, 2018 at 9:51pm

Christine.....I hope you know you're not alone in how you're feeling although I confess that I often feel alone.  When we lose the most significant person in our life, it feels like no one else on the planet could possibly understand but that's not really true.  I don't know why God has us suffer the pain of loss.  I believe what your pastor says about time not existing on the other side so when we get there, it'll seem like minutes to our loved ones.  Unfortunately, we're stuck here with time as we know it so we do have to feel it for what seems like an eternity.  I try to deal with it by holding on to my belief that when I finally do join Ken, at that point it won't seem like so much time has passed for me either.  Take it one day at a time.  That's all any of us can do.  We're here for you , although I wish it were possible for us to be there for each other in person. 

Comment by Sara Murphy on March 4, 2018 at 9:37pm

Deb...I'm glad your brother will be with you, even if it's just for a little while.  I love what you just posted about the death of a spouse.  All the things in the post are true.  My family and friends don't seem to understand it when I say my life ended on 1-13-16.  I'm glad it's not just me because for the longest time, I thought I was crazy.  As soon as  I lost Ken, nothing looked the same anymore and nothing feels the same anymore.  It still doesn't after 2 years.  I've said this before but I'll say it again......only my Legacy family understands.  I'm so grateful for everyone here.

Comment by Mary. Jane on March 4, 2018 at 9:09pm

Deborah...that is awesome. THankyou. It says it perfectly

Comment by Marsha H on March 4, 2018 at 3:04pm

Deborah ...  Thank you so much for that as it's right on point.  Those who have not had a spouse pass away have no idea what we go through and this article is right to the heart of the matter.

Comment by Michele on March 4, 2018 at 12:18pm

Deborah, you have said what I have felt in my heart and soul but could not find the words to say; thank you. 

Comment by deborah peck on March 4, 2018 at 12:02pm

Comment by Marsha H on March 4, 2018 at 5:53am

Dear Christine ...  You have been through so much losing Marshall then cancer and going through so much with the draining.  I remember in grief counseling they told people who had their spouses pass on to go for a complete physical and I sure did.  I had lost way to much weight and nothing the doctors could do as all my tests came back just fine so it was the grieving process.  

Grieving is a necessity and after 7 years of my dear Ernie's passing I can understand grief a little better although I feel it's one cruel journey.  It forces us to become stronger and like it or not we manage to get out of bed and even if we don't do anything there is still some life in us and yes, you will get stronger and have a life even if you don't think so.  Of course you'll never forget your Marshall and he will always be in your heart.  Raw grief is the worst and you have that and your breast cancer, but you will heal to a bigger degree with grief and certainly heal from your cancer.

I sure wanted to die many times over throughout 4 out of the 7 years after Ernie passed, but I have gotten stronger and got involved with volunteering, spending time with my small immediate family and also friends. Some days are great and some aren't, but that even happened when Ernie was here.  I know you won't believe a word I've said that there are better times ahead of you, but there are so please hang on.  You are getting better and yes, the pain is still great from the loss of Marshall, but it will dull down as time passes, but never will it completely leave your heart.

Oddly enough, like you, the dreams I had of Ernie was when we were younger.  I often wondered why.  I don't dream about him any longer and sure wish I would.  

When we don't feel well when grieving it's a double whammy and not fair in many ways.  I believe your Pastor does realize a lot of what is going on with you as he does talk to many people who have lost loved ones and the next time you talk to him ask him if he has had a loved one pass away.  Even today I have no idea what God has planned for me and sometimes I can even get angry when things don't seem to go right, but just as I'm about to give up there is change and I become strong again and keep as busy as possible.  Life on earth seems like an eternity, but to Marshall it's a nano second and one day you will meet again.

Comment by Marsha H on March 4, 2018 at 5:42am

Dear Deborah ...  I know what you mean having another person around not making you feel quite so lonely.  Once our spouse passes the silence can be deafening.  I live alone with my 2 dogs and live in a small rancher home so no room for even a boarder.  I sure would love to have someone live here even if I had to cook their meals and do their laundry, but that not going to happen.  I'm sorry you brother isn't going to permanently live with you, but he may with luck find a place close to you.

 

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