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A continutaion of the "When a Spouse or Partner Dies" thread.
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This might be a rough time for many of you. Do what you feel you need to do to get through it. Remember, someone is here almost all the time to talk to you.
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Christine.....I hope you know you're not alone in how you're feeling although I confess that I often feel alone. When we lose the most significant person in our life, it feels like no one else on the planet could possibly understand but that's not really true. I don't know why God has us suffer the pain of loss. I believe what your pastor says about time not existing on the other side so when we get there, it'll seem like minutes to our loved ones. Unfortunately, we're stuck here with time as we know it so we do have to feel it for what seems like an eternity. I try to deal with it by holding on to my belief that when I finally do join Ken, at that point it won't seem like so much time has passed for me either. Take it one day at a time. That's all any of us can do. We're here for you , although I wish it were possible for us to be there for each other in person.
Deb...I'm glad your brother will be with you, even if it's just for a little while. I love what you just posted about the death of a spouse. All the things in the post are true. My family and friends don't seem to understand it when I say my life ended on 1-13-16. I'm glad it's not just me because for the longest time, I thought I was crazy. As soon as I lost Ken, nothing looked the same anymore and nothing feels the same anymore. It still doesn't after 2 years. I've said this before but I'll say it again......only my Legacy family understands. I'm so grateful for everyone here.
Deborah...that is awesome. THankyou. It says it perfectly
Deborah ... Thank you so much for that as it's right on point. Those who have not had a spouse pass away have no idea what we go through and this article is right to the heart of the matter.
Deborah, you have said what I have felt in my heart and soul but could not find the words to say; thank you.
Dear Christine ... You have been through so much losing Marshall then cancer and going through so much with the draining. I remember in grief counseling they told people who had their spouses pass on to go for a complete physical and I sure did. I had lost way to much weight and nothing the doctors could do as all my tests came back just fine so it was the grieving process.
Grieving is a necessity and after 7 years of my dear Ernie's passing I can understand grief a little better although I feel it's one cruel journey. It forces us to become stronger and like it or not we manage to get out of bed and even if we don't do anything there is still some life in us and yes, you will get stronger and have a life even if you don't think so. Of course you'll never forget your Marshall and he will always be in your heart. Raw grief is the worst and you have that and your breast cancer, but you will heal to a bigger degree with grief and certainly heal from your cancer.
I sure wanted to die many times over throughout 4 out of the 7 years after Ernie passed, but I have gotten stronger and got involved with volunteering, spending time with my small immediate family and also friends. Some days are great and some aren't, but that even happened when Ernie was here. I know you won't believe a word I've said that there are better times ahead of you, but there are so please hang on. You are getting better and yes, the pain is still great from the loss of Marshall, but it will dull down as time passes, but never will it completely leave your heart.
Oddly enough, like you, the dreams I had of Ernie was when we were younger. I often wondered why. I don't dream about him any longer and sure wish I would.
When we don't feel well when grieving it's a double whammy and not fair in many ways. I believe your Pastor does realize a lot of what is going on with you as he does talk to many people who have lost loved ones and the next time you talk to him ask him if he has had a loved one pass away. Even today I have no idea what God has planned for me and sometimes I can even get angry when things don't seem to go right, but just as I'm about to give up there is change and I become strong again and keep as busy as possible. Life on earth seems like an eternity, but to Marshall it's a nano second and one day you will meet again.
Dear Deborah ... I know what you mean having another person around not making you feel quite so lonely. Once our spouse passes the silence can be deafening. I live alone with my 2 dogs and live in a small rancher home so no room for even a boarder. I sure would love to have someone live here even if I had to cook their meals and do their laundry, but that not going to happen. I'm sorry you brother isn't going to permanently live with you, but he may with luck find a place close to you.
Thank you all for your kind and supportive posts.
My daughter has been here since last Saturday ..she cleaned the entire garage...and we went through about 20 boxes..sorting, tossing, etc...then my nephew came over loaded his truck with stuff to take away..and took down boxes from the attic...I was shocked. We expected maybe 20...there were almost 60...all filled with God knows what.so we have to go through them the next few days. BOb was a hoarder and now this mess was left for us. I have no idea how many spiders we will find...but it has to be done. It is a nightmare. I am at the point indon,t carebwhat is in them...
he can take them all to the dump, but my daughter wants to go through them. For 12 hours I had a lovely, clean garage...but now my stress level is through the roof...but this will free me to start the ball rolling and I can move back to California. Tomorrow we start...more going through boxes that have been up in the attic for 13 years..Dusty and full of insects. I don,t mind normal insects, rodents, snakes etc, but the thought of spiders is terrifying...and. I never DREAMED there were so many.
My stress level is beyond anything I could ever imagine. So wish me luck kids, and NEVER marry a hoarder.
Today is four months since my husband passed. I don't look forward to tomorrow, I hate today, I live in the past. This is not living, just existing. I'm on another site too and we are all so broken. I don't believe that God wants his children to be so unhappy. We all want one thing....to be with our loved ones in heaven. I pray everyday for God to take care of my Marshall. and for God to please let me die now. The infection from breast cancer surgery is slowly healing but my heart is forever broken. I go to a grief recovery program that is led by a wonderful pastor. He assures me that there is no time in heaven and that when my time comes it will seem like seconds to my husband. We were so very close that I can't understand how he doesn't know how devastated I am. I did have a dream....we were curled up on the bed just holding each other tight as we are now. Before that dream I had one where we were both at least thirty years younger and we were running toward each other thru a field of colorful flowers laughing. I know I've been blessed but the dreams just make me want to be with him more. The infection where my lymph nodes were removed has been very nasty and messy as it is draining and needs packed every other day. I had a fever and was out of it and it started to split open when I went to the Dr. At first I had to change the bandage tour times a day and when I took it off stuff would run out of me. Now I'm down to twice a day and a small bandage that has very little on it. This has been going on for a couple of weeks now. I'm worn out and fall asleep by 9 or 10 and even nap sometime. Between the infection and depression I'm a hot mess. I see no end and try to understand why.
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