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Comment by Marsha H on February 27, 2018 at 4:27am

Dear Mary.Jane ...  I'm so sorry to hear you are having a tough time.  We stow away things in boxes and forget what is there and suddenly now we are faced with looking and so many things of our spouses only making us feel more saddened and a reminder they were a big part of our lives.

I know just how you feel.  Ernie's baby was his ski boat which took up a large portion of the garage and I had to sell it and the couple were nice, but as they took it I cried buckets!  I felt like I was giving something precious of Ernie's away even though he was no longer here.  Then I had to sell the truck and camper and once again the tears flowed because we really thought after his whipple surgery for his pancreas he would be coming home and doing a bit better and we planned on doing a short camping trip.  I had to clean out the camper to be sure nothing of ours was still in there, but there was and I cried all day and into the night.  Now, that shock has worn off me and you are so right that other's can enjoy what your Bob and Ernie had.  

I'm cleaning out closets and drawers now and still coming across some of Ernie's things and it saddens me, but not quite as bad as before.  I have finally faced the reality of it all.

I hope you are doing much better my friend.

Comment by Steve on February 26, 2018 at 8:47am

Mary Jane,

Proud of you is what I am thinking...that took a lot of courage.  As careful as I thought I was with Mark's personal items each time I packed up and moved, somewhere, low and behold as soon as I started going thru the boxes I had placrd in storage I found pictures, cards and a plastic bag with Mark's wallet and jewelry.  I had apparently got his ring and bracelet from the coroner in the bag and somehow I must have placed his wallet in there as well.  Inside his wallet was his driver's license, SS card, credit cards and a gift card I had bought him for Hulu so he could shop online for games and music.  I wasn't as prepared for this as I thought I was and I hope I never am.

Take care of yourself dear sister as you prepare for a new path that seems to be taking you forward.  We are all here for you, always.

Comment by deborah peck on February 25, 2018 at 10:28pm

Mary Jane, I know he is smiling down at you and thanking you. it seems like it never ends doesn't it, the papers, the bikes, the dates, its so hard but we are all here with you, take care of yourself, your friend Debby

Comment by Sara Murphy on February 25, 2018 at 9:18pm

Mary Jane.......I'm so sorry it's been a terrible weekend.   Bob probably wouldn't mind you donating the bikes but that doesn't make it any easier for you.  We have so many memories wrapped up in their personal belongings that it's like a punch in the gut when we have to let something go.  I wish I could give you a hug.  I'm glad your daughter's there with you now. 

Comment by Mary. Jane on February 23, 2018 at 10:00pm

It was a horrible afternoon...the day started out fine, I went to the market, got home around noon..ready to take a well needed nap..when something completely unexpected happened.

Bob LOVED to ride his 10speed bikes...all of our married life...but about 8 years ago while riding, he had a terrible fall, slammed his head on the pavement, broke his helmet..skinned his arm..we went to the Dr, came home with instructions to watch for signs of a concussion...DIDN,t see any..and life went on...but that was the beginning of the end. There is so much they don,t know about brain injury’s and rhe next 5 years, we watched him slow down,,,and he never rode his 2 bikes again. He got worse and worse..and when he got cancer they discovered over 30 brain tumors...some were larger, some tiny. They said it was the cancer that caused the tumors, but we all knew the bike accident was the initial cause.

His 2 10 speeds sat in the garage for seven years, 2 after he died. I found an organization who takes donated bikes fixes them, and gives them to people who need them..so after 2 years of procrastination, I contacted them last night. As fate would have it, TODAY was their pick up day..and we needed the room to clean the garage, so I had them come this afternoon..and his beloved bikes are now gone. There is nothing but a huge empty space where they were. Yes, this was the absolute worst day for me to donate them...but they will be cherished, and will help two people..it was the right thing to do, wrong day, but now they,re gone...and his most treasured possessions were given away on his anniversary. It tore me apart...I cry every time I look out there. At least I have the grace of knowing I did the right thing, and I hope he is smiling down from heaven.

 

Comment by Mary. Jane on February 23, 2018 at 9:00am

Well, today is the day I have been dreading..but so far it’s ok...ironic how just a date on the calendar can mean so much.i had a severe meltdown Tuesday so I hope I wont have one today.

Last year we had a small celebration of life memorial for Bob..with pictures of him at different ages,  munchies, Etc..it was sort of a festive event...but I was in complete denial and pretty much lived in LA LA LAND. My daughter is flying here tomorrow for 2 weeks and we’re going to tackle cleaning the garage...while it’s still winter, before possible spiders move into it. I am actually TERRIFIED of this task, but it has to be done. 

I should b ok if I try not to think about it.

Comment by deborah peck on February 20, 2018 at 11:42pm

Mary Jane I cant imagine having to shred all the papers, I'm so sorry you had to do that, Gregs dresser is still full of clothes and there is a small amount in our closet but I wanted the kids to have something too even though it broke my heart again.. I think I will leave his stuff where it is, I am not ready to part with anymore.  hugs to you and I am glad that is done for you, You no longer have to dwell on it and can put that part behind you. All these steps are so hard to do, I don't think anyone realizes all we go thru after our loved ones are gone, physically and emotionally its exhausting

Comment by Sara Murphy on February 20, 2018 at 9:29pm

Deb.......I'm sorry, that must have been so hard to do.   I'm giving you a virtual hug too.  I can't even imagine packing up Ken's belongings. 

Comment by Mary. Jane on February 20, 2018 at 7:19pm

I guess it does,Deborah, and I am so very sorry. Your post was very short, but said VOLUMES...and I am sending u a virtual hug, as I know exactly how you are feeling right now. Bobs 2 yr   anniversary is coming up...and I have just today finished what I hope is the last of shredding all of the papers...I have been crying all afternoon...as it seems so permanent...now even his signature has been erased...this is almost as bad as the day he died...I was in shock then..then in denial last year...but now it is brutally real.

 

Comment by deborah peck on February 20, 2018 at 10:44am

Last night my girls came over to go thru Gregs belongings and to pick out what they wanted, was really hard to watch most of his belongings be packed up to go to their homes, his side of the closet is almost bare, I guess it means its permanent

 

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