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A continutaion of the "When a Spouse or Partner Dies" thread.
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This might be a rough time for many of you. Do what you feel you need to do to get through it. Remember, someone is here almost all the time to talk to you.
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Mary.Jane. So sorry you are having difficulties with someone just being with you. Even though it's been 7 years since Ernie passed away there are times I get very lonely when home. I am active out of the house, but once home it's so lonely. Bless the heart of the wonderful friend who drives you where you need to go. If I could I would swing by your house and give you a ride on my broom! Wish I lived closer to help you more.
Stephanie ... I totally agree with you regarding Chemo. Believe it or not more and more patients are say 'No!' to Chemo. I am so very sorry that your husband had to go through Chemo only to pass in the end. I had to watch the same thing with my Ernie, but he was not a candidate for Chemo (he was grasping at straws) because I knew what it would do to him. Big Pharma is taking a beating and right now with British Columbia legalizing Marijuana very soon (patients can get it right now) there are high possibilities that Marijuana oils etc., can help with cancer and also it's used for pain, making an ill person hungry and so on.
I just saw on the news a big alert that women with breast cancer should NEVER take Chemo. How enlightening and this is a big hit on Pharma as well. You can bet Pharma will want their profit off the Marijuana for cancer patients who want to go that route.
Wise words Stephanie that we should put ourselves first when it comes to our health. I have my new life to a degree and active, but as you say, that hole in our hearts never goes away.
It's always nice to see you post.
Thank you, Stephanie. You nailed it. This is the first time since Bob died I have felt so completely and utterly alone. I asked my niece tonite if she could take time off work.and she offered the assistance of one of her kids, or my SIL..who can’t drive well these days, I don,t want my grand nephews and my grand niece has an ex convict for a boyfriend, and has totaled several cars. I am very blessed to have a friend who will take me.but how do I thank her for such kindness...like Chuck and Steve who offered to drive 4 hours to take me. There are such wonderful people here. Welcome.
I am sorry you had such pain. Thanks for sharing. 6 months is very raw.
This is my first posting on this website, although I do post on other grief and widow websites.
Mary Jane- I too wish I had been strong enough to say to my husband 'let's just do the palliative treatment'. I known he wanted to fight and live, but the Stage IV lung cancer was too advanced, and at the first meeting, the radiologist said maybe he should enjoy the time he had left. He died 4 months to the day after finally being diagnosed, but they found it by accident. They had been trying to find the source of gut problems, which they never did, even though they did countless scans, oscopies, etc. It was finally when one sharp radiologist at our former hospital found the mass. I know my husband wanted to fight, even though we both knew the cancer was inoperable and incurable, but we also hoped the treatment would buy us time. The chemo killed him before the cancer, and when he died, he probably weighed 115 pounds. Yes, big pharma are the winners in the chemo process- all it does, in my opinion, is prolong the suffering of our loved ones. I spoke with a contractor yesterday who will be making repairs on our house, and his wife passed away 3 years ago after an 18 month battle with cancer, and the chemo killed her first, too. I know it's easy to say this, as I have no children, but God forbid, if I ever get diagnosed with cancer, I will NOT get chemo. Just keep me out of pain for however long I will have. Going to his treatment center, every day, and seeing all the people struggling to survive one more day, with probably a poor quality of life, made me so very sad. I think the medical profession should have more honest discussions with their patients, and really be up-front about what would be coming with the chemo. I know that all cancers are treated differently, and some have a few decent outcomes. I understand my opinion is skewed since DH's cancer was so advanced, but still , I think doctors fill their patients with false hope.
Marsha, we all know too well the stress that grieving does to our body, so it's no surprise that the surviving spouse gets sick. We spent so much time focusing our entire being into caring for our loved ones, that our own self care went out the window. Then after the passing, we are crushed with the overwhelming grief. That's why we all must try, no matter how hard, to give ourselves the same tender care that we gave to our spouses. BTW, I am 6 months out, and while the tidal waves don't crush me any longer, and the waves are smaller, the hole in my heart will never heal.
Peace to all
Deb ... I am so sorry to hear it's ongoing with your squamous cell skin cancer. Has anyone noticed since our spouses have passed away so many of us are battling some sort of health issue. I'm praying for you that this all stops and you can find some peace. So happy to hear you are not in pain.
Keep your chin up!
Oh Deb, I am so sorry. I hope everything will b ok.
I am living with the threat of colon cancer..I see the Dr tomorrow to arrange the procedure appt..but this fear of waiting has thrown my Epstien Barr into overdrive. It causes me to feel sick and weak and unable to cope...and if I do have cancer, I am debating whether to have treatment or not. I am 71, and I watched Bob spend the Last 4 months of his life at a cancer center, then in and out of the hospital..only to die anyway. What a waste of time..I wish he had taken at least two of those months, and created some more joy and good memories in his life. They jerked him around, delaying tests, doing them only one at a time...for what? Lots and lots of money, that’s what. Their CT scan only included “eyes to thighs” never testing his brain until months had gone by,even tho we told them he had headaches for years, after a bad fall from a bicycle.
I apologize.. I am very angry at the treatment he received, or DIDN!t and I just took it out on you...and I am very scared. I don,t want to die yet, but I also don,t want to give my possible last days to cancer Drs. Thanks for letting me vent..and I know you will be ok.
Patty.......I'm catching up on a week's worth of reading. I'd like to respond to your question about wanting to know when our loved ones were going to pass although I'm late to the game on this one and you've all probably moved on by now.
For me, it's both yes and no. Yes because I feel cheated out of a proper good-bye and will never get over this. I was standing right by his side when he unexpectedly went into cardiac arrest. He was in the hospital and the doctor's were in his room within 5 seconds and yet they still couldn't save him. I always thought I would be laying by his side holding him when he took his last breath. I know he passed knowing he was loved completely because we would say "I love you" to each other several times a day every day for almost 30 years. He would routinely say that he loved me with every cell of his being and this is something I hold close to my heart.
But I also say no because if I knew, I would probably have spent the time crying about the upcoming loss and not fully enjoying the remaining time. I also think it would have been tough for him to know (as it would be for everyone).
I'm going to continue reading now and see what other's opinions are.
went yesterday for my 3rd surgery since January, this time for Squamous cell skin cancer, getting tired of this but the bright side is I have no pain at all
Patricia, I am so sorry that you are now a part of ths wonderful family now, its horrible to lose a loved one, but this group is great and am glad you found it. I lost my husband Greg 1 year ago in May and I think of him every minute of every day, we learn to go on and live a life but that part will always be missing for all of us. I hope your day is good
Dear Steve and Patricia, Im so sorry for the childhoods you had, mine was dysfunctional but my parents were aways there for me, mainly my dad and I miss them every day
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