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Comment by Charles E. Nelson on July 11, 2018 at 10:12pm

Dear Sara,

My dear friend, I am so so sorry for the pain you are having. Going through losses and suffering anxiety by ourselves - meaning without our spouses - is possibly the most frightening and debilitating aspect of our lives as they are now. Yes, indeed I have felt like my live was winding down, and to be honest, I almost welcomed it. I thought that as each thing that was a part of my life with Larry was lost for either financial or practical reasons, I was being prepared some way for leaving myself to be with him. I would ask God why it was taking so long to get rid of everything material, while it seemed He was wasting no time removing my physical health and ability to do anything useful anymore. When I couldn't even get up on a step ladder to clean windows without getting dizzy and almost falling, I felt like just getting under a blanket and sleeping until it was all over. 

Sara, as you know, things changed for me. Why, and how, I still can't begin to understand. But they did change. Oh to be sure, there are some truly dark times when I still question what feeling happy was like - I kind of remember, but it's like remembering being a child. You know you had no worries, but can't get back to that innocence ever again.

I wish with all my heart I was right before you now just to hug you and whisper in you ear that you will get through this awful time. You have shown such incredible strength and compassion for all of us here, and we all love you very much. You are not alone my sweet friend. Ken will be by your side each and every moment. God will give you peace and strength.

Please keep letting us know how things are progressing with you, because this will be a big one to be sure - my prayers are with you and your father every day and you are always in my thoughts -

Love,

Chuck

Comment by Sara Murphy on July 11, 2018 at 9:43pm

My Friends.....I so desperately need Ken right now.  I'm on the brink of losing my father and I had always thought I'd have my husband by my side when my parents passed.  It's a whole different type of emptiness on top of the indescribable emptiness of losing a spouse.   I feel like my own life is winding down.  Has anyone else ever felt like that?

Comment by Steve on July 10, 2018 at 8:44pm

I agree Mary.Jane, anytime one studies artwork we have an opportunity to identify, translate and commune with it.  When I first saw the picture, several images hit me.  The first one was submission, acceptance and beauty.  The other image was one similar to Atlas carrying the weight of the world on his shoulders.  The beauty of this sculpture is that with grief, we feel the weight, we succumb to it in a form of submission and yes the shear weight of our grief weighs heavy on our shoulders, but we do persist, we carry on and then we rise able to carry the load.  For as long as we are alive we will look back and see just how far we have come and see ourselves as the strong person our beloved knew we were.  For me that is the beauty of this particular sculpture.  

Comment by georgia on July 10, 2018 at 6:50pm

Hello everyone,

It has been a long time since I posted.

I follow the writing of all but I just do not post frequent .

Steve the sculpture is what prompted me to say, I feel the weight of that sculpture so often .

It will be five years July the 14 th. since I lost my Luis.

The weight  of greif is unbearable at times ,but something deep down keeps us going.

Thank you to all for keeping me going.

love and kisses

georgia.

Comment by Mary. Jane on July 10, 2018 at 4:56pm

Steve, thank you for posting those. I looked at them for along time, several times, and although I don,t feel The My Experience one..I might have in the past, I don,t remember..but after I looked at it and read it and studied the lines, I feel I have transcended a bit. 

Now for the sculpture, when I first looked at it, of course I “got it” and thought OMG, yes, I feel that way...but not for the reason of being weighed down...yes partially, but Bobwas an artist, and we visited every museum we could..and he taught me how to see that what you first think something is, may not be.

yes, the man is terribly weighed down...hunched with the pain and weight of his grief...and the stones he now carries...but the longer I studied it, the different it became to me...such a slight difference, but it was there...in the tilt of his head..so slight, but I saw HOPE...so minuscule, but to my eyes, it was there. And as I studied it, there seemed to be in his pose, a slight rising up...as if his weight had almost destroyed him...except for a tiny spark as his TOES were slightly lifted..that maybe, just maybe although he will forever carry this weight of grief..the tiny spark of spirit that is in all of us might help him break the metal, and release the some of the tones.

thank you.

Comment by deborah peck on July 10, 2018 at 10:44am

Mary Jane, that is so funny, I can imagine everyone thinking, what the heck is wrong with her, too funny but so sad. The only time I feel like Im not acting is with my kids, even my sister who is my best friend I don't want to bring her down so I put on an act, grief is crazy

Comment by Steve on July 10, 2018 at 8:49am

LB Grief pix“The weight of grief” sculpture by Celeste Roberge

Comment by Steve on July 10, 2018 at 8:35am

Comment by Mary. Jane on July 9, 2018 at 8:23pm

Oh my God, Deb! Thank you so much for posting that! When I read your words..”not sure how to be me anymore” it was a giant lightbulb going off in my brain! That is EXACTLY how I feel in my very limited social settings! 

If I act sad, will I bum everyone out? If I act happy, will they think I am cold and callous?  Who am I now? I am not the same person I was anymore...but I am not sure who I am! 

I have 2 monthly social situations...one is Bunko the other is a monthly nail salon...and since I DIDN,t want pity, or to be avoided..I created this new persona.  I call her The DINGBAT! At Bunko, I blather away about NOTHING..never shutting up, seriously..they all think I am dumb...cuz I pretend to be so I won,t have to “keep score”, and then they will find out that I really CAN’T keep score cuz I cannot focus. 

At the busy nail salon...I never shut up either, I just joke around with everyone...they call me “Hippie Mary” and all the time I am running my mouth my brain is asking what is WRONG with me?  Who IS this person?  I feel if I stop talk people will stare and either feel sorry, or avoid me altogether. 

Luckily I can be myself in a small group setting and with my closest friends..but even then, I have this feeling that I lost BOb, and now if I keep this up, I will loose ME too.

Comment by deborah peck on July 9, 2018 at 6:43pm

thank you guys your all so helpful, its been a rough time lately, and I did have a good time but I always feel lost and not sure how to be me anymore, is that weird, not sure if anybody would understand

 

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