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A continutaion of the "When a Spouse or Partner Dies" thread.
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This might be a rough time for many of you. Do what you feel you need to do to get through it. Remember, someone is here almost all the time to talk to you.
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Thinking of you as you celebrated Ken's life today. I know, the wondering, what we would be doing today...
Take care of yourself and be well.
Love and hugs, Trina
Today is Ken's birthday. He should be 55. I don't think I'll ever really be okay or heal beyond where I am today. I'll always wonder what we would be doing if he were here. On a lighter note, maybe as a birthday present to himself (and me), he can guide my Red Sox to a World Series win.
Hi gals ... I apologize for not answering your emails to the post I left. I have gotten nothing from Legacy on my 'in box' so was shocked to see how many more posts are here.
Thanks Mary Jane for understanding rants are very normal. Deborah, you made a fine point, but this friend of mine helped me somewhat when Ernie was ill and I would love to do the same for her. Friends should be friends and lean on each other.
The anger issue Mary Jane mentioned, that came to me in my 3rd year. New roof, pipes busted under the house, some rotten spots on the outside of the house; house needed painting and on and on I could go. I was so angry at Ernie for leaving all this for so long and it landed on me like a Sumo Wrestler when I could ill afford it. I had a mixture of love and anger towards him off and on and I do believe that's pretty normal. They didn't want to die and I suppose as someone said here that we have to blame someone.
Steve basically said it all that we have to forgive ourselves as well.
Again so sorry for not answering your post and beginning to feel like a ghost with the life I'm leading and now not even getting posts in my 'in box.' LOL
Hope things are better for all of you.
Steve.....I'm glad to hear you've been feeling ok while going through your radiation treatments. I'm going to continue sending positive thoughts your way.
Mary Jane.....Yes, anger is one of the stages of grief. I myself haven't felt anger towards Ken but I do feel it towards the people here who say stupid things. I am however currently dealing with the same type of stress you have with your move. For me, there's some big projects around the house that Ken was supposed to be here to oversee but now it's fallen all on me. First, I need to have a dead tree removed from my front yard which is the smaller of the projects. The big one is having a new roof put on the house. Ken and I had talked about needing to do this a few years ago but his health got worse and now here I am having to deal with it alone. I did ask Ken's brother to come by and take a look at the quotes which he'll do this week so that's eased my stress level a little bit.
I do hope you feel better after releasing some of your anger.
THankyou, Steve and Deb.
I think anger is a part of grieving, I have done it with both my husbands but with Greg more so as to me he cased his own death by continuing to smoke after having had a triple bypass that docs didn't think he would survive to having mini strokes and being told his smoking had caused it all. I yell at him once in a while and tell him he promised not to make me go thru this again but yet here we are, I think part of it is we need to blame someone.
Those feelings are quite normal Mary Jane. Anger is perhaps (for me) one of the best avenues to healing. For me it was as my body and soul was kicking out all the garbage we store up within ourselves. Lots of couples have/had good times and bad times. Anger seems to take care of those memories and allows us to move on and remember the "best of times", after all that any of us have gone thru in our personal lives, bottom line we loved our dearly departed. So, for me, anger was my way to forgive and forget. By forgive, I am referring to me, myself and I...
We tend to forgive those we love and forget to forgive ourselves. I think anger is important to getting better, when my father died I had so much hate stored up against him that I felt nothing for him. It was not until 14 years later and just 2 months after losing Mark that I found myself on the side of the road crying. Crying because I had just passed the exit for Dothan, AL, which is where my father and stepmother had retired too. As soon as I saw the sign, all of those bad memories from my childhood to adulthood swept through my mind in a few moments, out of nowhere, something deep inside told me that I needed to forgive him and that I would also need to forgive myself for holding onto all that hate. That is when I lost it, that is when I felt as if someone lifted a huge weight off my shoulders.
I still remember everything, I just no longer hate him, after all he loved my mother very much and he did love my sister and me. He made some bad choices in life, which I am sure he regretted. That moment, that day was a huge turning point for me. I still have days that anger me, especially when my mind remembers those last few fleeting moments of his life slipping away right in front of me. I guess that memory will never leave me alone, but, the anger of it is fading, especially when I look at a few of his personal items that I did decide to keep. He loved cuff links, and had quite a collection. I kept them all, each one has a different meaning with a good memory attached to it.
Moving is stressful enough, allow yourself some time to get it all out when necessary. When I was packing my things, I kept a lot of stuff that I should have gone through. Later on when I was in a better place, I started going thru all the remainder of his things that I packed up. I kept his journals and his cuff links, they reside in my night stand drawer.
Take care of yourself Mary Jane, you are doing just fine.
Ok, kids..there is something I need to know.
Have any of you felt RAGE. Huge searing RAGE...an anger of the loss, that nearly drops you to your knees? I felt that this evening...I had a realtor come to my house for a vague estimate, and what I should do to my house etc..later, I realized I was really stressed, that that visit made my having to move REAL and terrifying.couple that with the journal I found yesterday about a bad period in our marriage...so I was already angry...
I have also been downsizing...trying to decide what to keep, what to donate....and having difficulty with some of Bobs stuff, like Knick knacks .I should keep THIS item,because he really liked it...bla bla bla..even if I hated it..and it will take up space...which I won,t have..and THIS HUGE ANGER came over me...He’s GONE! He left me, and now I have all this crap, and i Had forgotten what an a$$hole he could be sometimes in the past...and I got SO ANGRY!! Like I have ever felt before...blinding anger at the unfairness of it all! When it subsided, I shredded the bad pages of the journal..but am I alone in feeling this? Or, did I read somewhere that anger at the person who is gone is normal?
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