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Comment by Marsha H on May 6, 2019 at 3:51am

Trina ...  You are such a dear and always there when you are need with kind words, love and encouragement and I appreciate it so much.  I shouldn't complain as Tootsie was 16 and I had many years of happy memories with her.  She was more Ernie's dog than mine (later after he passed she became closer to me of course) so I like to think my dear little white angel is with her daddy running through a meadow of flowers young and healthy again.

I think of you often and hope you are well and feeling less grief.  I know Joseph is always around you as love never stops even after one passes away



Comment by Marsha H on May 6, 2019 at 3:47am

Dear Deb ...  I am so sorry to hear about Moon and Ginger and what a shock that is.  I can't begin to imagine.  I must admit I do fear that my little Booker will be next to go as he's 13, but acts like a pup and runs like the wind.  It's sad you can't have a pet and if you are thinking of moving I sure would.  I live in a small rancher on a fair sized piece of property (hard for me to keep up, but I'm staying as long as I can) and refuse to live in a condo or townhouse because of Strata Rules.  Thankfully things are changing here in lower mainland British Columbia where more condos and rental housing are allowing pets because people refuse to give up their pets so there was a slump with landlords not being able to rent out.  No reason any condo or rental home should be like this as there is a thing called a 'damage deposit.'  

I am not rushed to get another dog, but watching Booker to see how he fairs and I intend on getting a 3 - 4 year old little female as I feel it's saving a life getting one from a shelter.  As you know I volunteered at a shelter (lady was kicked out of there and so I now don't help her out adopting dogs out and miss it a lot) and I do know that the puppies and much younger dogs go first.  

I can understand Ginger grieving over Moon and I believe people and pets can pass away from a broken heart.

Booker and I are grieving together and I'm trying my best to keep as much of our regular routine as possible.  Early evening I took him up for a walk on the dyke which is a beautiful place and he seemed to enjoy it, yet he wasn't quite the same because Tootsie wasn't there.  It's just going to take time.  So sick of all grief and it seems to be coming right, left and center for me right now.  My friend passing away and right now helping her through the red tape.  

Thank you again my friend for the lovely post and thinking of me and I do appreciate it. 



Comment by Mary. Jane on May 5, 2019 at 9:05pm

I wanted to comment to  Steve, for his post about Bella. I don,t know if you ever told that story before...but I wanted to thank you for sharing what was both a terrible loss, but a MIRACLE as you watched Bella confirm without a doubt, at least to me...wagging her tail at Mark..when you couldn,t see him....that we DO go on and are together again with those we matter  what species. Love never dies...and we get to stay with our loved ones...although it was horrible to loose Bella, she left you with a gift that you have given to us, by sharing that moment with us. Thank you. I will never forget is the most wonderful story I have ever heard..and it gives me hope and faith that we DO go on, and we get to be with those we loved. 

Comment by Trina Mamoon on May 5, 2019 at 8:45pm

Dear Marsha,

I just read your heart rending post. I am so very sorry for the loss of your dear Tootsie. Your post expresses well the place she had in your life and in your heart.

Sending you much love at this time of hardship and heartbreak.

Hugs, Trina

Comment by Mary. Jane on May 5, 2019 at 4:59pm

Marsha don,t worry about answering. Sometimes responding to something seems like such an I,possible task, and sometimes I cannot shut up.LOL.

These few weeks have been especially hard, as I am getting ready to list my house, and move back to CA..and I have been in SUCH a place of TERROR, yesterday when I got up from a 40 min nap..I couldn,t walk..I was hunched over.thru out my back....etc..most likely from major stress, but I know I will be ok.Rudy just woke up, so we r going to put his new playpen together.. couldn,t do it last night..thankfully I think it is just a muscle that popped out.....see, I am either not here, or ramble on and on. I wish I could just go to bed one night, and when I woke up, everything would be done, and I would b all settled in my new home. Bye for now my friend.

Comment by Deb on May 5, 2019 at 4:51pm

Dear Marsha, Thank you for your kind words, as well. I forgot to mention that after Dean's passing, I lost both my 14 year old dogs that I raised from about 8 weeks old, one by one. They were brother and sister — the male was Moon and the female was Ginger. They lived with me on the island where I live in the winter but now am spending more time in the states at my condo where pets aren't allowed. The association used to allow pets but that changed some years ago. Have been thinking to move but finding that to be a bit daunting, at the present time. 

Sorry for Booker that he is grieving for the loss of Tootsie, as well. My Ginger grieved when we lost Moon since they'd been bonded from birth. Saw that you mentioned that you're thinking of adopting another dog, (when you're ready), for Booker to have as his partner and think that's a great idea. I hope he is a comfort to you as you're going through the painful loss of your dear Tootsie.

Love, Deb




Comment by Marsha H on May 5, 2019 at 4:14pm

Dear Mary.Jane ...  What a wonderful and loving post you left me and your stories of Buddy and Rudy brought tears to my eyes.  I am sure your Rudy is just fine.  

The story of Buddy be close to you is so true.  Ernie and I had a dog named 'Lady' and we found this loving little dog at the pound.  She brought so much life into our lives because we weren't able to have children.  When she passed (almost 20 years old) I woke up quickly because I did feel weight on my legs and I knew it was her.  I always remember that DOG spelled backwards is GOD.  Our pets be it cat or dog gives so much without question and when the human race becomes to much for us they are there to comfort us and make sense out of this crazy world.  

It is difficult right now without her and I miss seeing her white little furry face and so does my other dog Booker.  I am going to get another dog in the future and one that is classified as a Senior.  Most people don't want these dogs out of the shelter.  Booker and I will know which dog is the one that will bond to us and should be with us.  For now I'm just keeping busy and still keep in some routine for Booker's sake and since it's such a beautiful day out we'll garden and later after dinner I'll take him to Allowette Dyke which is beautiful and so peaceful, but I already know we'll miss our Tootsie and hope she's walk beside us.

Thank you for your kindness my dear friend and I appreciate it.  Will answer your emails tonight,  I've been around like a zombie to some degree, but I'll survive.  

Much love


Comment by Marsha H on May 5, 2019 at 4:02pm

Dear Deborah P.   Thank you so much for your kind post regarding Tootsie.  Any of us who have pets know the pain when they leave us and we do grieve.  I am so sorry about your little Yorkie.  Did you ever get another little dog?  I am thinking in time of adopting a 3 - 4 year old little dog as Booker is use to having Tootsie around and I know he grieves for her as well.  For now trying to keep busy and stay in the same routine and much as possible.  Today is a beautiful day so will take Booker outside and do a little gardening and then take him up to the Allowette Dyke which the dogs love.  I still feel as I look down walking that white little fuzzy face of Tootsies staring up at me.  It just takes time.  Right now I just feel numb from the loss of my good friend and also Tootsie.

Thank you my dear friend for being there and I will email you soon.



Comment by Marsha H on May 5, 2019 at 3:57pm

My dear brother Steve ...  How I remember your Bella and I remember crying when you told us she had finally passed away and once again with your words and memories of Bella tears came to my eyes.  I have no doubt Mark was there and calling for Bella.  I believe our pets stay with us until they feel they can pass on and we'll be OK.  Hard on us, but the best gift we could our old pets is to say goodbye and confirm we will be OK.  Hurts the heart you bet.  I do like to believe that Bella is with Mark and my Tootsie with Ernie; young, healthy and running through meadows of flowers.

Thank you for your lovely post and being so candid about your own feelings that you've had to endure.  In time going to adopt a 4 - 5 year old small female dog for my Booker as he does miss Tootsie as well.  Save a life! 

Thank you brother dear and I so appreciate your post and hope you and Chuck are happy and enjoying yourselves.

Love & Hugs

Your big sis Marsha  

Comment by Marsha H on May 5, 2019 at 3:48pm

Dear Deb ...

Thank you for your kind words regarding Tootsie.  She leaves such a hole in the house.  It seems these 8 years since Ernie has been gone what I have left as family is being chipped away little by little.  I am so sorry you have had two wonderful spouses pass away and I can't even imagine the pain you've gone through.  I also have come across something of Ernie's or a card for a special occasion and still can cry and remember the good times we use to have.  I'm also sorry you can't have a pet to comfort you.  I was going to sell my little rancher, but hanging on by my finger nails because I don't want to live in a place with Strata where they can tell you the do's and don'ts.  Fortunately, things are turning around because in lower mainland British Columbia it's mainly dog country so many landlords are having to OK pets.  There is no reason a person can't have a pet and pay a damage deposit or have a contract drawn up.  I feel for you and it must get lonely at times.  Our shelters here are crying for volunteers and can't afford to be fussy about how much time a volunteer can give and wish it was the same for you.




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