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Comment by Marsha H on January 26, 2021 at 3:47pm

Dear Chuck ...  I loved your memories in your post and as always beautifully written.  No matter the subject is in your post it calms me and makes me feel good.  Get moving!  Write a book!  LOL

Love & Hugs

Marsha

Comment by deborah peck on January 26, 2021 at 2:58pm

Ilove this Chuck, such a beautiful memory, I think we all have had past relationships that for one reason or another didn't work and you still wonder what if. I love the way you describe your feelings and the intensity  of it and know you must of carried this with you for a long time. I wish you well  Deb

Comment by Mary. Jane on January 21, 2021 at 7:29pm

That was beautiful, Chuck

Comment by Charles E. Nelson on January 21, 2021 at 1:44pm

Hello dear family,

I ask a rhetorical question, because I know the answer for all my Legacy family is “yes”.

 

Have you had a thought – a memory – so completely and unexpectedly overtake you that you temporarily lost contact with where you were, what you were doing, even your own identity? The person standing there in present day is gone, replaced by someone young, idealistic, and terribly and completely in love for the first time?

I had such a moment today, but it was not about my beloved Larry whose loss led me here. No, I was a young man, still a boy really, spending the summer in a small town in the Berkshire Mountains in Mass. I had befriended another boy with fine hair so blonde it was almost white, sensitive blue eyes, and what looked like a million freckles. He took me on long walks through the woods, along streams and over steep mountain trails, never getting lost and teaching me how to step silently so as not to scare away the wildlife and birds he showed me. His nature was gentle, his manner quiet, and his laughter easy and genuine. As our friendship grew over the summers we had together, I came to realize that I was hopelessly in love with him.

I finally told him of my feelings, and he confessed having the same feelings for me – but that he wasn’t gay. I suppose we could be viewed charitably by some as star-crossed lovers. In time he met a girl, moved across country, and had a daughter. We stayed in touch, and he became for me a question that would never have an answer – what if?

In 1999 I received a phone call two days before my January 24^th birthday from his sister. He had killed himself on January 19^th. A part of me died the day he did, and my questions about why will never be completely answered.

Ghosts of the past do not limit themselves to appearances at Christmas - they visit unbidden but not unwelcome. Such a ghost touched me this morning, and the lingering emotions stirred have yet to be still. With it came a tear to the eye, a pain to the heart – and a small smile to the lips. Also accompanying it was this - simple question that will circle within while I draw breath unanswered…

What if?

Comment by Sara Murphy on January 16, 2021 at 11:44am

Mary Jane...the pillow is 12x16 so it's not too big.  I ordered it from Shutterfly

Comment by Chicago Beard on January 16, 2021 at 10:43am

Sara

What an amazing pillow! Very cool!

Comment by Mary. Jane on January 16, 2021 at 8:33am

That is WONDERFUL! I’ve never seen anything like that, and it came out very clear! The fabric must be very special, to have such clarity and color.,How large is it? Beautiful.

Comment by Marsha H on January 16, 2021 at 3:32am

Sara ...  What a beautiful pillow!  A great idea and I love the words and the photos.

Comment by Marsha H on January 16, 2021 at 3:31am

Sara ... I'm so glad that you enjoyed the Youtube and am a believer such as I am.  All those things that happened to your friend Diana, I am sure is Ken getting a message to you.  Most of us expect our spouses to just show signs to us, but now I realize their messages can come from others as well.  So happy you had this experience.

Hugs

Marsha

Comment by Sara Murphy on January 15, 2021 at 9:54pm

Pillow.jpg  I'm not sure how well this picture will come through but it's a pillow i ordered for myself, kind of like an anniversary/memorial gift for me. I attached the pic as a link and also attached it in the body of the email.  It's hard to see what it looks like while typing in this little box.   

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