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Bereaved Spouses

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Comment by Mary. Jane on Sunday

Absolutely. I think it might be a combination of GUILT, and loneliness..and, yes, once my mind starts racing when I try to sleep..sometimes I have to take a light sedative to stop it. Or, I TALK to Bob...tell him about what I did that night, (even tho I know he already knows cuz I figure he was with me the entire time)

Also, doing all those things at once is enough to make anyone’s mind race...good food, good movie plot, etc..laughter...your mind was racing all night, you just DIDN,t dwell on it, till you tried to sleep...and then your thoughts naturally went and relived the painful memories that we all don,t want to think about. Sometimes when my mind goes there, I talk to BOb, instead of reliving it, and tell him how much I miss him...sometimes it works, sometimes not...

I think the worse thing is the loss and loneliness we feel without them. I don,t go out much, but I do play Bunco every month..and when Bob was alive, when I got home, and opened the door,he would be sitting in his red chair, and he would give me a big smile, and ask if I had a good time...we,d laugh and talk and then he got sick..and wasn,t there anymore. Going home to the empty house was/is so hard...for months after he died, I would ask whomever drove me home, if they would walk up to the door with me. I lied, and said I was afraid of intruders..but it was really to avoid the empty house, and not hearing his voice welcoming me home.it helped. Once I opened the front door and looked at his empty chair, I would b ok...not better, but that moment would be ok then. 

Don,t feel guilty for enjoying life. For whatever reason, we are the ones left, to carry on and create a new life. But I truly believe Bob is here with me...as I talk to him all day. I also ask him to find stuff for me..and most times he does. Have you tried asking Greg where that hoodie is? I know I sound like I have gone round the bend..but it can,t hurt to ask Greg...maybe you will suddenly remember where it might be! That will be Greg, telling you. 

Comment by deborah peck on Saturday

So this is how my evening and night went yesterday, went out to eat and a movie with my sisters to celebrate one of their birthdays, had such a nice time, loved going to eat and the movie was great, came home and watched TV for a little bit then tried to go to sleep, the rest of the night until 4 am I was in misery, I started reliving everything from the time Greg had his stroke , the pain I felt when he could no longer respond to anything the shock when I realized he was dying, it went on like this all night with me getting up at one point for a mad search for a hoodie of his that I haven't been able to find since he passed to me curling up with another hoodie that hasn't been washed since hes been gone to me crying myself to sleep. It has finally dawned on me that this goes on everytime I have a nice time and am happy, I think it is guilt for feeling happy. I know that he would be thrilled I had a good time as he always did whatever would make me happy, he was an amazingly supportive person. Why do I feel this way then, Ive got to stop, its making me not want to enjoy anything at all, Does anyone else feel this way

Comment by deborah peck on Saturday

Thank you Steve, I love making cards, its so relaxing to me, my granddaughter says I should sell them but I tell her no it wouldn't be fun then, it would be work!

Comment by Steve on Saturday

The card is beautifully done with such precise details, a work of art and love.  Wow is much better...the picture shows better than you think...I could zoom in and see all of your wonderful work.  

Comment by deborah peck on Saturday

sorry, the card is to show you all what I do in my craft room and making scrapbooks, this was a card for my sisters birthday

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Comment by deborah peck on Saturday

Mary Jane, you've got this, your a strong woman and you will do this, take a deep breathe and plunge ahead to the next chapter in your life

Comment by Mary. Jane on Saturday

Thank you Sheri and Trina..wow I just read my last post..LOL..traveling really takes it out of me. So now I have to start changing my entire life again..in a place I find, where Bob never was. If I drove, I think I would stay here..I had forgotten about the horrible traffic..and the ridiculous price of homes in CA...but I want to live near my daughter, and I HATE the life sucking humidity here in OK. I found a few nice mobile homes...but now there might be a problem, cuz the realtor says loan companies don,t like to grant loans for mobile homes. What is left of my life seems to be spinning out of control.

I am reminded by an old song by Linda Rhonstadt...the lyrics are: “Time goes by like a train and the river..in a new place every day...time goes by like a train and the river..carrying our lives away”

i feel like I am being swept away...and I need to swim or drown.

Comment by Mary. Jane on Friday

Hey everyone...sorry imhaven,t posted..but I went to CA for a wedding and to look at possibilities for a new lace to live. I am so burnt out...I will b back when my brain functions again..but this is going to b a lot harder than I thought. 

Btw, this is a horrible request, but I cannot find my checkbook. LOL I hid it, and failed to write down where I put it. LOL so if anyone has an “IN”. With the Gods of lost items, could you ask them where it might be? I cannot believe I just typed that. LOL. I am just too old to go on vacation..too much disruption. How the hell am I going to relocate if I can,t go on a simple 5 day trip?

Comment by Sara Murphy on August 7, 2018 at 9:23pm

Sheri.....That's pretty brave to book a trip by yourself to another country.  I don't know if I'd ever be able to do that.  I hope you have a peaceful journey.

 

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