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A continutaion of the "When a Spouse or Partner Dies" thread.
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This might be a rough time for many of you. Do what you feel you need to do to get through it. Remember, someone is here almost all the time to talk to you.
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Thank you Mary Jane for your words of what might help me through this Horrible time I'm having to endure life without my love. I too keep a journal of what I am going through on a daily basis, but I've done this almost my whole life. I sometimes go back and read how I was feeling at certain times throughout my life. I have probably 50 journals!! I now keep one where I'm speaking directly to Basil to let him know what is going on with me and our girls. I do feel like he is with me cause I swear I can catch a SHADOW out of the corner of my eye. At first this scared me, then I started feeling comfort everytime I would see this shadow. I am retired, so I'm here at the house daily. I wish I was still working now. I do try and stay busy by cleaning and upgrading our home. There are so many things that was neglected the past year due to me caring for Basil. I have almost 2 acres I care for, weed eating, mowing, and cleaning. I feel like I'm a work horse. I'm just tired and sometimes I get angry with Basil for leaving me with all this work. I then get angry at myself for even thinking and blaming him for this!! I know he did not want to leave me. I'm just scared I will do something stupid and am working with my therapist on this issue. I have already done a real stupid thing to myself a few years ago and am now suffering from the effects of it today. My whole body cramps up and I have trouble sleeping because the minute I lay down, every muscle I have cramps up and I have to get out of bed and try to work the knots out. I'm just telling this because I don't want to go to that dark place again because it is a horrible place for your mind to go!!! I feel like I can say things on this site and not be judged. A lot of my family and friends don't want to talk to me about this Horrible time in my life. They say "Patty" please you don't want to go there again. I say"no kidding" because I was put away for quite a while. I just feel very weak and sad. I want to hear his voice and have him hug me and tell me that it is going to be okay!!
So sorry for this rambling, I know I'm all over the place and apologize to you for that!! Again, Mary Jane.. thank you. I truly appreciate you responding to me.
Oh, Patricia, I wish I had some majic words to help you...but I don’t think there are any. We just have to EXIST one moment at a time. Just try to get thru each day as best you can. I don’t know if you have to hold down a job...if not..just try to treat yourself with anything that gives you any small measure of comfort..sleep all day, eat sweets, cry, scream...whatever. Two things I find comforting: I keep a journal..when ever I feel like it, I write down what I am feeling..not every day...sometimes I go for weeks without writing, whatever works for you..but the BIGGEST thing that helps me..I imagine BOb is standing by my side all the time. So I talk to him all day long...seriously, who's to say he ISN’T there? I feel he is here beside me, ok, I some days I really feel like he is still here, but on a different “plane” so I can’t see him...also, when he died, my addled brain DIDN’T accept it..and I spent the first year waiting for him to return...I just knew he was going to walk in and ask if I missed him..and life would go on..and, yes, I talked to him al day that first year too...so, get any comfort u can, and do anything thT gives you any comfort..if you can. I wish you comfort.
Hello, my extended family. I've not been able to post here for a while. It was the 2 month anniversary of Basil passing. I am having a hard time getting through the pain. I am still so lost and don't feel like I can get through this and I don't know how to handle this situation. I know you all have been through this pain and maybe you have some words for me cause I'm at a crossroads where my life will go from here. I'M SO LOST!!!
Precious cargo indeed!
Thanks for the kind words. When it is said do not live in the past (at least by therapists) it does not mean forget it just means do not let the past keep you from experiencing the present. Our memories are all we have of our loved ones so of course do not forget or ignore them. It is OK to preserve our memories. My Rose was actually a contestant on Wheel Of Fortune (Yes she was the grand prize winner). I had my VHS tape converted to DVD. The sound quality is not that good but you still get a decent picture and can understand everything. So I don't blame you one bit for doing it yourself.
Dear Chuck ...
Thank you for the wonderful compliment. You know, I can still swing around on my broom, take a nose dive and land in your front yard ... face plant! LOL
I am so happy you have putting all your memories on DVD. I have done the same. Anyone that tells us that we should forget our past and move forward doesn't know what life is about. To remember those that we loved and have passed on to the family and friends we have now is so very precious and each person we come into contact with leaves an imprint on us and good memories. Bad memories make us strong, but the good memories heal those wounds. To look back in our lives shows us how well we lived life even throughout our mistakes and now it's time to look forward and make new memories to add to our list.
With much love
Chuck.....Memories are too precious to be let go of. Ken's grandmother, who passed just 2 years before him at the age of 96, would routinely mention how precious her memories were and how grateful she was to have them. She lost her husband in her 60's and her daughter (Ken's mother). I didn't fully understand at the time when she would say "at least I have my memories" but I sure understand it now. Also nothing wrong with converting your home movies to dvd. I hope no one is suggesting you discard all photos of Larry so why should you discard home movies? That's part of your history. I hope you do move forward with it. We converted my parents wedding footage to dvd and I'm glad we did.
Much love to everyone here.
Like you, I am usually lurking somewhere in the background here, reading but without time or energy to post. I send belated wishes for peace and a hug for your and Rose's anniversary. I always smile when I see you here, because I think and pray for you often. Be well, and thank you for keeping us up with your status. You may be silent sometimes, but your presence is felt my friend -
Dear Chicago Beard,
I apologize for not doing so sooner, but I want to acknowledge your and Rose's anniversary. I so remember the first time you mentioned it during my first year - the sentiment about memories is lovely and truer than anything. I lost count of the times I've heard talk about not living in the past and letting go of memories. I ask "Why?" What can possibly be wrong with remembering the people, places, and things that all were a part of who we are now? I am having some old home movies copied onto DVD format to preserve them, and I see nothing unhealthy or morbid in that at all. Maybe it's just me, but I would feel like I was jettisoning myself if I discarded my past memories, both good and bad.
Be well, and sending you wishes for a peaceful day -
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