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A continutaion of the "When a Spouse or Partner Dies" thread.
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This might be a rough time for many of you. Do what you feel you need to do to get through it. Remember, someone is here almost all the time to talk to you.
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i'm not sure if it is any easier when you lose your spouse after a long illness. My Melanie fought colon cancer for two and a half years. I have only experienced the slow expected death and have wondered what the short unexpected side is like. Not that I am willing to find out anytime soon. I hope that someday I can stop taking Zoloft, I started taking it shortly after she was diagnosed. I am happy for you to have found someone to spend time with and you are right he is not a replacement for Joe just a new chapter in your life.
This is for David and Maryjane: Thank you so much for addressing my response....I almost felt like I hadn't posted on this site in so long that I shouldn't have. But I'm glad I did. I was very cautious on the dating website....I'm no longer on it since I met someone....that someone is just someone to go to dinner with and not feel like a third wheel attending social engagements. My stepkids have finally agreed to meet him and I'm happy about that....I made it very clear to them that he isn't intended to replace their father....no one can ever replace Joe - they can only enhance my life for what I may be missing. I have gotten use to being by myself and I do like that which is why I have decided to buy my own home and live on my own. With Joe's death is really the first time I was ever alone and I feel like I've been doing okay....trust me on occasion I wish I was still on my anxiety pills there are days that my heart is beating out of my chest with anxiety. Or nights I lay in bed and can literally hear my heart pounding. I'm not sure if that will ever go away....my husband wasn't sick....he had a scheduled hernia repair surgery and died 5 days after from a saddle pulmonary embolism....he was a healthy man. This loss has changed me in so many ways....new fears seems to be the biggest thing....I know my last post I mentioned having one more day with JOe....but that would never ever be enough. In a way I know this sounds terrible but I almost wish he would have been sick instead....I could have prepared more but I know that wouldn't have mattered. My loss is my loss whether I was prepared or not. I hope everyone has a good Monday. I so appreciate all of you and your posts. THank you for welcoming me back.
Dear Christine ... It's natural to not accept invitations or not have the energy to get ready to go out. I went through that myself. Believe it or not it was my 2 dogs who forced me to get up and get moving and go for walks. I go to a beautiful protected dyke that has nature all around and it's so peaceful and I began to realize that I was beginning to come out of my shock of losing Ernie. Oh yes, I cried, wore sunglasses and had Kleenex ready to use, but yes, as time went on I did feel better, had more energy and started to see family and friends again and do a few things even if it wasn't a great as having my Ernie with me. We do grow stronger no matter whether we like to think so or not. So for now, you do what your body is telling you to do and rest and don't worry about not accepting invitations. You will eventually.
'Why did our spouses have to pass away and are we bad people' is as old as the ages and no, we will never have an answer to that. I believe we will received the answer when our time comes. When I was in raw grief I once cried out to my friend, 'Why? What did we do that was so bad? I feel like everyone who has passed away in my family has had a free trip to a beautiful place and they forgot to invite me.' I longed to be with Ernie and those who I loved that had passed, but now, after 7 years I am beginning to get angry at the hell I went through (still have some rough days) so I grab life by the throat and do what I can do. I hope and pray that you too will feel this way soon.
Please let us know how your doctor's appointment went. I know this too is a puzzle as to why you have to go through as well as grieving. There just are no answers unfortunately.
What a lovely sentiment:
Pain is the price of genuine love - would we gladly trade something less for less pain? That's a hard one - sometimes it hurts so much, but then I couldn't: he deserved nothing less than the real thing,
It is comforting to know that there are so many of us out here who are experiencing the same agony.
For me, it is the worst when I am not engaged with Legacy helping and being helped. When I can't, that void is what tests my true mettle. It's then when I have to be still and know that God is His strongest in our weakest place. And I have to hand it all over to Him once again, and again, and again.....
Even so, like yourself, it's the nights that are hardest when alone with all those crazy thoughts - and then trying to shut my mind off when it will not, and go to sleep - yes.
You are not alone, Deborah
Christine, I wish I could tell you why this horrible thing has happened to each of us but I cant, When my 1st husband passed the question why was always there in my mind until I thought I would go crazy and until I accepted that I would know someday when we were together again. With the death of my husband now I wont allow my mind to go there, its just a question that no one can answer. I wish you good luck at your doctor appointments and am praying its not as bad as you think it is, debbie
David, yes this site is a lifesaver for many of us, its comforting for some reason to know that others are going thru what we are even though we don't wish this on anyone, I get on here a lot since its just me and my dog and nights are the worst, sometimes I just read, other times I post my crazy thoughts but its always comforting to me
I "understand' that where you are is part of the normal process. But I don't feel it either. I guess we just shut down, our minds and bodies needing the time to heal - there's that H word again.
I have to know that we are not bad people being punished - can you honestly believe that? We would not be on this site if we were.
Why? There's no rhyme or reason a living person can figure out. Our loved ones are now privy to those age old questions - I envy them that too.
It's hard to have days of Doctor appointments anxiously anticipating results and answers, especially these; they are life changing.
I will be anxious to hear some good news.
Dear David, Mary Jane, etc. I've hit a low...Friday was invited out by my brother in law and sister-in-law. Did my nails, that's as far as I got. Last night I was supposed to go out with my daughter and her gentleman friend, didn't go. Today my daughter wanted me to come over for dinner. So, here I set, three days in pjs and didn't do anything with my hair and I just sat and watched tv. Don't ask what I watched, I don't remember. Today is the 30 th anniversary of my 30 year old brothers death. He's been gone as long as he's been alive. So, I start drinking around two in the afternoon. Even with the Vatican I can't get buzzed. Haven't been out of the house except to let the dog go see. Tomorrow therapy at 10:30 and breast cancer Dr at four,biopsy at 7:30 Tuesday. I need to know how far along and if they can give me a ballpark idea of how much time I have left. The companion urn will be full before you know it! I have people around me and good people but they all say they can't imagine what I'm going through. All of us on this site know,unfortunately. I have a question...and I know we're not supposed to but has anyone figured out why? Are we all such bad people that we have to feel such pain and heartache,and feel we are here for no reason,and don't appreciate life and all it has to offer???? Nothing will ever make me happy again. I know, time heals. No, time means longer away from my Marshall. Time is my enemy. I will let you all know what the Dr says tomorrow evening. Love to you all. Chris
Dear Sara, This site has become a safety net for me - the next step on this high wire cannot be seen. It amazed me too; before Legacy I thought I was all alone in this private hell. The world goes on and expects us to comply when our world has stopped.
This site has saved my sanity too, although some days I lose it.
Take care Sara,
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