Bereaved Spouses

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Comment by Charles E. Nelson on May 1, 2018 at 7:38am

Dear Marsha,

What a glorious way to start my day - thank you so much for taking me back to the first time you sent this song to me - indeed my sweet sister, I did, and continue to dance. I hope the insightful lyrics mean as much to everyone here in our family - what a beautiful inspiring and loving message. Who else but you would use this song?!

Love, Chuck

Comment by Marsha H on May 1, 2018 at 6:26am

To my dear friends ...  I will answer your posts tomorrow, but, I wanted to leave this beautiful song that I did send my dearest brother Chuck and I don't think he'll mind if I share it with you.  Please listen to the words.  I try to live my life this way and I hope you all 'dance!'

Love & Hugs

Comment by Trina Mamoon on April 30, 2018 at 10:27pm

Dear Charles,

Hello! I sent you a friend request. Will write more to you soon. Hope you and Steve have been doing well.

Your friend,


Comment by Sara Murphy on April 30, 2018 at 2:19pm

Marsha......I'm so sorry you have so much going on at one time.   I can't believe someone told you that you don't fit in because you are no longer a couple.  I wonder if people hear themselves when they say these thing.  I too get frustrated by friends who think they're doing me a favor by getting together for dinner once or twice a year. 

I hope the shelter owner comes to realize how valuable you are/have been.  I'd hate for you to get so frustrated that you walk away from something you love.  Please give her a kick in the pants from all of us here. 



Comment by deborah peck on April 30, 2018 at 10:38am

dear Marsha, I am so sorry you are having a hard time right now. I know how much you love your job and to be made to feel like its a competition with another employee is just crazy, you volunteer because you want to make a difference to these poor animals and to now feel uncomfortable doing something you love is just wrong, have you tried sitting down with your boss and explaining how you feel? is there another shelter in your area you could work at?

I'm so sorry about your friends, I know you must be feeling so confused, angry and lost. I too entertain a lot as its what we always did, but the diferrance is I prefer to do it at my house, I'm very shy so this is where I feel more like myself especially after Greg passed I just don't like going anywhere but with family. I don't understand the mindset of other people that think we are lepers since we no longer have a spouse its very sad to me since sooner or later they will all go thru this.

I pray that you soon meet someone that you can go out with and have fun, then you can tell your "friends " you are too busy to entertain them, does that sound catty, yes I guess it does, but seriously it sounds like you are lonely for male companionship and I hope you find that, love Deb

Comment by Charles E. Nelson on April 29, 2018 at 8:19pm

Dear Marsha,

I have read your first posts, then Trina's beautiful reply (Hi Trina), and your reply to her. I can't add much to what Trina says, because I think it is spot on. I know how much you love working with the shelter, and such treatment is not what you deserve ever - no one does who volunteers anyplace their time and energies. Shame on the owner.

I've known that you entertain and socialize at your home , providing food and your generous hospitality, inviting friends, neighbors, and family. That your invitations are not reciprocated is another injustice, and you are most definitely within your rights to be offended, hurt, and angry. I am feeling those on your behalf also, and have experienced something similar to what you describe experiencing, ans what Trina's sister does also. I will share one story - my family wanted to revive the annual reunion, but the hosting and planning fell on the same cousins over and over until Larry and I stepped up and offered to have the next one at our house the following year. We sent invitations asking everyone to reply with any dishes they wanted to bring, so we wouldn't end up with 50 lbs. of potato salad and nothing else! We grilled burgers and hotdogs, and close in distance families brought dishes, while those traveling further brought chips, soda, etc. We rented a huge canopy, tables and chairs, supplied soft and hard beverages, and all paper and plastic eating needs. The day was perfect weather wise, and we started setting up at 5 AM, guests arriving at noon. Cars started coming in droves, and parked on the lawn in designated areas guided by my brother, while Larry started grilling and I manned the kitchen designating places outside to place platters and bowls as they arrived, even supplying large frozen ice trays for the cold foods for safety. Then in walks my cousin with 4 huge grocery bags of melons, apples, oranges, etc, plops them on the counter and says "here's your fruit salad - it just needs to be cut up."

Now try to imaging my face as 3 more people enter asking where to put the beans/chips/ whatever, someone's asking me to come arrange the seating. and an hours worth of labor is sitting on the counter unwashed, peeled, sliced, cored, etc. Well there was only one thing I could do - I grabbed her tightly around the neck in a big hug and burst out laughing, saying that only she would do such a bizarre thing - thanks for breaking my tension! then I handed her a knife, a peeler, pointed to the sink and said "Get to work - you have 30 minutes to make this mess a fruit salad - there's bowls in the cupboard!"

There's more I want to say regarding your best friend, and I am so very sorry for that terrible development for both of you. I also want to tell you about something that I did today regarding forgiveness after someone said something quite profound to me at church. That will wait til next post, but I am praying for you, and thank you for so openly sharing and trusting us with your troubles. That's what family is for, and my sister, you ARE my family and always will be. More later - get some rest please -

Love and hugs,


Comment by Mary. Jane on April 29, 2018 at 10:45am

Marsha..I just want to know that I read everything, but I am not going to reply till later...I need to sleep on it, cuz I am too angry to reply now...F*** all these. People...this might be a blessing in might be needed by another animal group who REALLY needs you..and that isn,t run by a thoughtless moron. 

Ok I will be back in the morning..and, hey girl..I will be 72 in Sept and I am striving to b just like YOU! Love u, my friend.

OH NUTS! IT IS NOW 15 HOURS LATER, and I just realized I never hit the comment button!so here’s last nights post from me. Sorry! 

Comment by Virginia on April 29, 2018 at 9:28am

It's been 9 yrs. today that I lost my husband of 32 yrs. I'm posting this only to let those of you who think your life is over as I did 9 yrs. ago that with time life can be good again. Our loved ones are always with us, watching and guiding us and want us to be happy and to live life to the fullest. God bless and stay strong.

Comment by Marsha H on April 29, 2018 at 4:33am

Trina ...  My dear friend, like an angel you always seem to swoop in when I have the occasional problem and I love you for it as I know you struggle in your own life.  I often think of you and wish that one day we could meet.  I know it probably never will happen, but as I always say, 'the heart knows no distance.'  

I often falter not airing my problems on here if the problems come one at a time and not in one large bunch like they have been because I'm noted for giving advice and hope.  Unfortunately, whether it's from the loss of a spouse even couples have problems and the world keeps going on at a rapid rate.  Grief seems to magnify that.

I am glad you got a laugh over the 'pee' as it was intended.  Even when upset or angry I still have a sense of humor.  

Thank you so very much for sharing that story about your sister loving to entertain and no one thinks to even bring something to help her out.   Tell her to throw out some raw meet and a bunch of veggies with a peeler!  LOL  I'm stricter than that and here are some tips:  I phone a few and say 'I would appreciate it if you could bring ....' and they do.  I also say BYOB (bring your own bottle) although I do have some wine and other alcohol here, but I refuse to rise to the expense over and over again.  It is difficult for me to have couples over and generally only have 4 over if I can swing it and of course I'm the 5th wheel.  I do it this way because men don't want to sit around with 3 women and I like to be sure there are at least 2 men.  It's difficult!  I find in our society now if someone is willing to do all the entertaining then everyone comes and very seldom does anyone get an invitation back because more and more people in society are pure lazy and actually have no manners.  It's common courtesy to bring something to the person's home and I at least bring a bottle of wine or phone the person and ask if they need me to bring anything.  Not all people are bad in this way so I suppose it's better to have some laughter and joy in your life like your sister and I than not have anything.  I would rather be giving than not, but I have been more cautious of who I give to.

Oh, Trina, I am so happy you love to paint and wish I was there as I love to paint or draw as well.  I was thinking of taking a painting class this coming Fall.  I'd love it if you'd post a picture of one of your paintings.  It seems we have this talent in both of us.  It does sooth our anxiety and brings beauty and peace into our lives.  I am keeping busy with garden work, but our weather is on/off and one day it's 55 degrees and can zoom up to 80 degrees in less than 24 hours.  Whew!

My dear friend, I know just how much you miss your Joseph and it seems we both feel the same about our spouses.  I am sure they are watching over us and pointing us in a good direction.

Thank you once again my dear friend for being there for me and it never surprises me as I know the kind of loving person you are.  You deserve the very best life can bring you and never forget that.  I wish you peace, joy and sending much love back to you.  I'm going to leave you my email address on your private board and hope we can talk by email as I do enjoy hearing how your life is going and what interests you have and hey, now I've found out you're an artist!

Love you lots


Comment by Trina Mamoon on April 29, 2018 at 2:53am

Dear Marsha,

You are always honest and open and your stories always draw me in. I haven't checked in here for some months now, but when I see you post, I read them. First of all because you are such a generous and giving person, and you were always there for me when I needed a sympathetic ear, and secondly because I consider you to be a good friend even though we have not met in person. But Legacy has a way of connecting people who have never met in person and most probably will never do.

I think it's very brave of you to come and share your thoughts and feelings here with us and also for venturing out onto an unknown experience on It takes courage and resolve to do that. I hope that you succeed in finding the right gentleman for you who will appreciate you and be a good companion for you.

I am very sorry to hear of these people in your life---the ingrate dog shelter owner and her "Princess and the Pee/Pea" sidekick. BTW, it was funny at a certain level how they "needed" you when faced with reality: pee on the mattress. LOL! 

I have to tell you something. My younger sister who is in her fifties and who has always been single (she is a professor) has a similar group of people in her life. She is very successful in her career and has a large number of friends. But my sister always cries to me that her large number of friends LOVE to come over to her many parties (dinner, tea, movie nights, etc.) that she loves throwing. But her "friends" very rarely invite her over for a meal or tea, and don't even bother to bring a bottle of wine or some dish to share when she has them over. The reason I am telling you this lengthy tale about my sister is that I see similarities between you and her. It seems to me that your friends and her "friends" take advantage of your/her friendship because they found out long ago what a generous and giving person you are. These people are very keen on accepting hospitality, but not so keen on reciprocating.

I don't know what the solution to this problem is. My sister loves throwing parties and entertaining people, so it would be hard for her not to do so anymore. So I suggested that as a compromise, she has them over, but doesn't put herself out for them. She can just offer potato chips and pop at her parties and see how her guests react. Perhaps if she does it often enough, some of them will get the message. But in any case, it is sad and at the same time infuriating when people treat "friends" so shabbily. It's taking advantage of people, plain and simple. Not cool.

I suppose when you are a generous and giving person such as yourself, you cannot withhold your gifts. There is no good solution.

As for myself, even though it will be four years in August since Joseph passed, I still miss him beyond belief, and I continue to find life meaningless and empty. But fortunately, I found a new hobby: painting. It has  done me a world of good. I can pass many hours painting and not feeling unhappy. Painting brings me some measure of peace and respite. That's how I have been keeping my sanity and passing my time lately.

As always, I wish you peace and am sending you much love. Hang in there!

Hugs, Trina


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