Bereaved Spouses

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Comment by Marsha H on March 28, 2018 at 3:31am

Hi Deborah ...  Yes, for the first year I would think that Ernie would be coming up the driveway from work at 4:30 PM and of course he never did.  It was my mind hoping and wishing he would.  I still have his work jacket and ball cap hanging in the hallway where he use to hang it.  Into the second year I would kid myself that he was away fishing like he use to be every so often, but deep down I knew it wasn't true.  It's very normal Deborah to have those feelings.  We can't spend so many years with our spouse and have all those routines we were use to and suddenly shut it off as if it never happened.  When it is time for you and all of a sudden one day you will get use to the new routine and that means reality has set in.  For now my friend, just enjoy that few seconds of feeling he is coming home.  I did.

Comment by deborah peck on March 27, 2018 at 9:10am

does anyone else after 10 months still feel like this isn't real, I feel like I'm still waiting for him to come thru the door, the other day when my brother came home from work before I saw him I found myself praying, Please be Greg please, even though I knew who it was

Comment by Michele on March 24, 2018 at 4:25am
Thank you, for posting this.
Comment by Marsha H on March 24, 2018 at 4:00am

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Dear Christine ...What a wonderful step daughter you have and thankfully she lives fairly close to you.  Bless her heart!

I know how you feel having your little puppy Victoria Rose close to you.  I have to admit Christine it has been a great comfort having my Tootsie and Booker with me.  They forced me to get up and get moving all through my grief.  They lick my tears and cuddle with me.  I know you are getting the same comfort from Victoria Rose.  You are very smart to have made arrangements for Victoria Rose and I have my two sweeties in my Will even though Tootsie is 15 and Booker going on 13. 

I am so happy that most of the infection with the lymph nodes have healed up and I read your posts and know what a horrific time you had of it.    

I completely understand how you feel selling those tools of your dear spouse and feeling that you are selling pieces of his existence.  I had to sell Ernie's truck and camper and we'd made plans to go on a trip with the dogs when we thought he was going to come out of hospital not knowing he never would be coming out and home once again.  Then I had to sell his ski boat his pride and joy and I bawled my head of for 2 days.  So many memories attached to that boat.  I too felt like I was getting rid of his existence, but then realize these things sold are just 'things.'  We have our spouses in our hearts and our very soul and that can never be taken away from us.

I remember in raw grief that I happened to look in the mirror and couldn't believe how the life had been sucked out of me.  No sparkle to my eyes, no smiles and I was so extroverted, but found myself going the opposite way, but, in time the spark came back to my eyes, but wish it would come into my heart as well.  I will never be the woman I once was either.  It's as if our spouses took part of our soul with them.  That article down below pretty much says how grief goes where our life is turned upside down in so many ways until we don't recognize where we are.  

I'm sorry Christine, but you made me giggle a little smashing those crocuses.  I can certainly understand that!  I once took an electric edger to one of my bushes and gave it a crew-cut!  I was angry about everything during that time.

Hope you enjoy your wine and yes, I too sleep on the couch.  I can't bring myself to sleep alone in our bed.  

I know at this time nothing makes sense to you and no words can comfort you, but I promise you given time at your own pace things will be a little better and you'll smile when you look on all the good memories together instead of tears streaming down your face.

Big hug (because you need it.


Comment by Mary. Jane on March 23, 2018 at 10:05pm

Ok, that essay I just posted, I believe Debra first posted it...I only had a screen shot of it, and I DIDN,t know how to edit just ignore the other junk that is on it...but I wanted everyone who hadn’t seen it to do so. It is one of the most profound things I have ever read. 

Sorry the shot picked up a few other stuff...

Comment by Mary. Jane on March 23, 2018 at 9:58pm

Comment by Mary. Jane on March 23, 2018 at 9:53pm

Chuck, thank you for That wonderful post it meant a lot to me.

Comment by Christine Blaire on March 23, 2018 at 6:01pm

Susan,Anthony,Marsha,    I too am living alone for the first time. My step daughter...who doesn't like the word "step" bless her, is 7 miles away. Thank goodness I have my little puppy Victoria Rose. She knows when I'm upset and I would be totally lost without her. She just turned one so I've made arrangements for her when I go. The infection where the lymph nodes were removed is almost healed up. It's been a long haul. Some of his big tools that I can't use have been sold. Every time somethings of his leaves here I feel like I'm getting rid of him. I can't stand it. I'm no longer the happy energetic woman I used to be. Everything...

Absolutely everything...has changed. I go through the motions but will only be truly happy when I know death is near. I'm sorry this is so dark. I had some crocus blooming....I smashed them all. It felt pretty good. Now for some wine and bed on the couch.

Comment by Marsha H on March 23, 2018 at 3:32pm

Dear Sue ...  My deepest condolences on the loss of your father.  Dealing with one grief is horrific enough, but now two.  There are no words I can say to take the pain from you, but I will pray as we are stronger than we think.

I also live alone.  Ernie and I couldn't have children and my immediate family is very small and now, they have gotten on with their lives as many of my friends have.  It took me quite awhile to get use to living alone and thankfully I have my two dogs with me.  I do have visitors every so often and have volunteered, but that loneliness seems to be there every so often.  I even put the TV on just to hear a human voice.

Please keep coming back to Legacy as we all do understand how you feel.  

Comment by Anthony Umphenour on March 23, 2018 at 3:16pm

Oh, my heart goes out to you Sue.  Life can be so cruel.  Living alone and suffering in grief is hell which I am dealing with, but you have double the grief.  Surround yourself with loved ones.  Please know we care about you.  


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