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A continutaion of the "When a Spouse or Partner Dies" thread.
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This might be a rough time for many of you. Do what you feel you need to do to get through it. Remember, someone is here almost all the time to talk to you.
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Hi Steve and Chuck.....I wanted to check in and see how things are going. Last we heard the move to Dallas was scheduled for Nov 22nd so I'm sure you've been quite busy with that. I hope it was a relatively easy move and you're settling in without issue. When things settle down, please entertain us with the story of your move.
Love to you both,
Chris......I'm sorry to hear about your diagnosis even though it seems you're okay with it. I understand you're not wanting to live without Marshall as I feel the same way about living without Ken. My life ended and my existence began in Jan 2016 and that hasn't changed. The thought that I could potentially have 30 more years is horrifying. The one thing however that scares me more than dying is being sick. I'm concerned about the suffering you'll endure during these next 2 years if left untreated. Marshall will be waiting for you for however long it takes. I do hope you'll reconsider and look at treatment options.
During these past 2 years I've gone to a couple of Mediums as well as read books about the other side and of near death experiences. One thing that helps me is knowing that time doesn't exist on the other side (Heaven). For me it's been 22 1/2 long months but for Ken, it's only been minutes. Whenever I do get there, it'll seem like the blink of an eye for him since we've last seen each other and I take comfort in knowing that he's not suffering the separation as I am. The same is true of Marshall, he's waiting on you and enjoying his karaoke in the meantime.
Please do keep us updated. Sending you a hug.
No David. I'm not going to tell you to go to hell! Thank you for caring. I know I'll be told that since the grief is so new I'm not thinking clearly and in six months or so ill change my mind and it will be too late. No, that won't happen. Even those who were close to us know that I won't change my mind. The Dr will make me comfortable and I will hear her out on Monday. I am mearly existing not living. Oh I have friends and family but when that door shuts its me and the dog. I can't even say I'm lonely....that's not it. I want HIM. This didn't just appear in August, that's when I discovered it. It's an inch.im ok with this. I'll continue here and give updates and let you know how the Dr tries to talk me into treatment! She's got a hard but to crack!!! Love Chris
I am so sorry you feel this way.
While I can understand how much of a relief it can be to have that sense of peace knowing that the end of your suffering is in sight, I still don't want you to surrender, and squander your chances of recovery - who knows, you may think differently before those 2 and 1/2 years, Maybe tomorrow morning.
It would comfort me too if my loved one promised to wait for me - minutes, hours, days - years in anticipation of reuniting. If your pain eased, and your life took a turn for the better, forgive me, but it might be all of that and Heaven too.
Chris, I am not insulting your intelligence of experiencing agonizing pain, and I am insensitive to it. I just want you to take some more time.
If it makes you feel any better, tell me to go to Hell.
Well, went for tests today, mammogram chest X-Ray and ultrasound. Seems there is a large mass about an inch and very dense and yes, it's cancer. So, Monday I talk to a breast cancer Dr and they scheduled a biopsy for Tuesday morning. I told them hold it! I've done research and know that no two women react the same And all that. I just want nature to take its course,why biopsy when we know already it's cancer. I've noticed it since August but couldn't do anything about it at that time. My Marshall knew about the lump. He said if it weren't for me he wouldn't have tried anything and both daughter s said he would have been destroyed if something happened to me. So, he went first and he did promise to wait for me. The median time for someone with breast cancer and doesn't have treatment is 2 1/2 years give or take. So be it. I cannot go ten to twenty years without him. Check my mom is 91! So I am strangely at peace. There was a reason he got sick and went so fast. He did a karaoke show Sept. 17 and was gone Nov. 1. He knew. Now I start my journey.
Linda ... As Mary Jane said, you did nothing wrong. Often when people have heart issues and if they are medications or have had heart surgery they are frightened and also some medications can change their personalities. When my Ernie was battling pancreatic cancer he was on 3 different medications and I noticed how much his personality changed. He went from a wonderful, sedate and loving man to striking out at me angrily. I did what I could, but sometimes I would get angry back. I tired so hard not to be, but he had become reclusive so I had no one to lean on. All throughout our relationship we leaned on each other so I let him lean on me. Not easy for sure. I went through the guilt you are going through, but eventually realized I was just human, took a lot of angry words from him and being human just every so often would strike back. To look after someone with a disease and especially one that will take their lives it must be extremely difficult to live under that pressure and we did our best for them. Just like raw grief there are no words of comfort for them. You are right, try not to think about it if possible and realize you did the best you could and believe he loved you and always will.
Last night was the celebration of my Marshall s life. It was amazing. There was good, karaoke, funny stories a beautiful slide show was made, the cake had our picture on it, solo much food. The friends and family....I can't thank enough. There had to be more tables and chairs brought in! I cried most of the night but I know he would have had a ball
It was definitely a send off that was all him. His daughter said that since he knew about the size of this lump that he wanted to go first because having me go thru something like this would have destroyed him. He said he would wait for me I guess he felt it wouldn't be too long a wait. I look forward to Tuesday, actually feel at peace about it.I'm very worn out from so many emotions last night that I think I'm just gonna do nothing today. Love to you all
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