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This might be a rough time for many of you. Do what you feel you need to do to get through it. Remember, someone is here almost all the time to talk to you.
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I can look back over my life and see all the mistakes I have made and all of the successes I have had; to do so evokes a lot of memories, all separate from one another and yet all connected. One’s life is driven by joy and loss and how we react to each one will determine the path we take; and yet, I cannot discount all the what if’s, nor do I want to dwell on those either. Reflecting on one’s own past, for me, has brought clarity, understanding and healing into my life at a time when one should be content on the life they have lived. For me, I had too many questions, too many disappointments and too many lost loved ones to take time out to grieve for them all; until I lost the one true love in my life, my soulmate. When two people make a commitment to each other, your lives become as one, your every thought is for each other and so it was for Mark and me for 25 years. His passing brought to the surface all the pain of not taking time to grieve for the ones before him. I remember hearing or reading somewhere that if we as humans do not address our losses and problems as they occur and just side-bar them for later, later will eventually catch up with each one of us. That is what happened to me on the 30th day of November 2014, the very day I lost Mark.
Wishes fr all of you for the best.....sorry, I have to much to say but no energy to write it..but I will in a few days...miss y’all
Nice to hear from you again Chuck and Trina. Marsha....we haven't heard from you in a little bit. I hope you're doing okay.
Trina....I feel as you do when I'm with friends, socializing as if everything is okay but crying on the inside knowing Ken should be there with me. The sadness will always overshadow my days but Ken was such a bright light who loved people and loved life that I have to keep going in his honor.
In the month of November I've lost 2 co-workers. The first, Ellyn, would have been 56 on Nov 11th but passed away Nov 2nd. Then Bill passed away just a week ago at age 51. I've said this before but I've personally known way too many people passing away in their late 40's/early-mid 50's. It makes me worry and wonder about the future of the human race.
I hope everyone was able to enjoy Thanksgiving with your loved ones.
I am so glad that one of the "missing people" has resurfaced. I think it has now happened a second time when you have been absent or gone "missing," as I often do myself, and I am thinking of writing to you personally and then lo and behold you appear. You seem to know when it has been a long time and that your friends here are missing you. I also miss Marsha's posts.
One of the things that you wrote in your post stuck with me all day today. After reading it I had to go out. I made a nice dinner at friends' house (a couple that Joseph and I had been friends with for many years) and enjoyed it with their two little boys--a social event that we do a couple of times a year together. It's really nice. The thing that you said was playing in my head over and over again: "I almost lost it completely right there but didn't cry. Only inside." This is so VERY true for me. It happens several times a week, sometimes even a couple of times in one day. Just like when I was making dinner together with Joseph's friend Joe and his wife Rachel this evening. This is something we would do from when Joseph was alive. As I was cooking, I was laughing and having a good time (not pretending), yet I was crying inside. How could I not?
This Curry Night, as we call it, brought back all the happy memories from before. I was not at all envious of Joe and Rachel, their shared happiness as a couple, but I couldn't help but cry inside that I don't have Joseph by my side anymore. I am no longer whole. I have a huge hole in my heart. No matter what I do, where I go, even if I have a pleasant time like I did this evening, I am always crying inside remembering the old times, thinking of Joseph, wondering what might have been.
From the outside the others have no idea that while I seem "normal," laughing and participating in the conversation and/or social interactions, many times I am really crying inside, missing Joseph and wishing he were here.
Like everyone else here, I, too, am dreading the holidays, especially as our anniversary is in December, Winter Solstice. But we the bereaved and the widowed are like soldiers who put on a brave face and trudge through even in the hardest of situations. The holidays are almost upon us and while we are crying inside, I know many of us will have to put on our "happy mask." I know I will. For many different reasons.
For one, Joseph used to admire his older colleague--another philosopher--and used to tell me how W was always cheerful. Even in old age and infirmity and with a lot of physical pain, W was always cheerful and would spread the cheer around. Joseph would tell me that when he would be an old man like W, he, too, would be cheerful and spread it around. But of course, Joseph didn't get to turn even 50, he would never be an old man, so now for Joseph I want to be cheerful and try to spread the cheer around, in situations when I am around people during the holidays. But inside I will be crying ... because as you put it: "the "same old stuff" isn't going away - ever - so the loss, the loneliness, and the sudden pangs that overtake us unexpectedly can become so normal in our lives that we just muddle through them silently." Yes, that pretty much sums it up for me as well. The longing and the missing will never go away for as long as I live. I will have to live with this pain for the rest of my life.
On a lighter note, here's wishing everyone on this site a peaceful Thanksgiving, one that we can pass without crying too much inside.
Another "missing person" heard from. Like you Mary Jane I miss coming here and talking to friends who I know will get me and not judge my crazy ramblings. And like you Deb, I'm always reluctant to keep saying the same things repeatedly. But the truth for me, and i suspect many or most of us, is that the "same old stuff" isn't going away - ever - so the loss, the loneliness, and the sudden pangs that overtake us unexpectedly can become so normal in our lives that we just muddle through them silently anymore. Of course, Steve and I living together means that one look and it is clear where we are at any given moment. Larry's birthday was the 13th of Nov., and while sitting in the waiting room before Steve was called in for his radiation treatment Steve showed me a post on Facebook from Larry's son with a photo of all his kids and saying" Happy Birthday Dad, we miss you!" I almost lost it completely right there but didn't cry. Only inside.
Mary Jane, I don't know if we said anything last year on here about what we went through to get the closing on my house in NJ, but we definitely know exactly what you are saying. I guess taking Larry's name off the title was the day I actually truly realized that my life as it used to be was forever gone. The title agent was very patient and understanding, and bless Steve for not rushing me to take that step, but instead letting me inch up to it until I was ready. He still shows me the same patience and honestly I don't know how how manages it, because confidentially I am quite the handful when my emotions get the better of me.
Here I sit facing Thanksgiving and Christmas, feeling excitement and dread in some bizarre sort of mix, sprinkled liberally with fatigue and melancholy. Real basket of joy, huh? I imagine it's missing Larry, worrying about Steve, and still feeling somewhat out-of-place in Texas. I went to church with Steve for awhile, and we hosted Bible studies here a number of times, but I have withdrawn from them both acknowledging the fact that I just don't share their passion and enthusiasm for religion. Bad Chuck.
I look forward to the finish of Steve's treatments on Dec. 4th, and we are keeping the Holidays low key with no obligations so we can both rest as much as needed. I want to see the movie "Boy Erased" because we will both relate to the subject matter.
Enough for now - except that I send love to all of you and wish everybody a peaceful and calm Thanksgiving -
Ohhhhh...good! Happy early birthday! How cool to have all those wonderful people celebrate it with u!
BTW, I noticed your new picture..and,it reminded me of someone..after a few mins...I finally figured out who..Sara Gilbert from The Talk! (She has always been a fav of mine, even when she was a kid playing Darlene on Rosanne.) Only u r blonde, and her hair is dark. Nice picture.
Mary Jane, I guess I didn't say it the right way, we are going out for my bday dinner but everyone is still coming here for Thanksgiving, I love the fact that I know Greg will be with us all, I just need to do my birthday a different way this year. By the way the carrots sound good
Awwww...enjoy Thanksgiving any way you wish. I think going out is a great idea..but if there are 35 of you, I hope you have reservations ..LOL...why should. YOU cook? BTW, I think Greg will be there with you, no matter where you have Thanksgiving .butbthat is just my opinion, and you might not feel that is true.
Ironically, Thanksgiving was Bobs favorite holiday...it DIDN,t cost much, like Christmas where he HATED having to buy useless gifts for relatives he DIDN,t like, he didn’t have to cook, and he got to eat wonderful food and watch football all day..and THEN, if we had hosted the dinner, he got to eat leftovers all week!
When I made dinner, I inadvertently created what became my signature side dish...OMG, it was SOOOO GOOD...and unless u r baking a turkey, you cannot duplicate it EVER! It was an accident the first time..Bob at only organic veggies..and I had purchased some THIN long baby carrots..now carrots aren,t my fav veggie..cuz I really DIDN,t know what to,do,with them, that was not boring, and really easy..so listen up, kids. I cook my turkey in a pan, with a wire RACK in the bottom of the pan to catch the drippings..and realized these carrots were thin enough to fit perfectly UNDER the turkey while I cook it..so I filled the entire bottom of the roasting pan with washed thin organic carrots..Leafs removed...and for 4 hours, just roasted the turkey with butter, and white wine, covered with loose tin foil the first 2 hours, basted often, while the carrots just soaked everything up that ended in the bottom of the pan...the first time I had no idea they would be so WONDEFUL, tasty,tender...they are NOT my fav veggie, but they were the most wonderful thing EVER!! My family fought over them! In future years, I added as many as I could fit into the pan, and sneakily hid some that were leftover from any leftovers people took home. I TRIED to duplicate cooking them in turkey broth, or a baked chicken...but everything other than cooking them with the turkey, was a failure. Bummer. I haven,t had them since 2014. Darn,,just writing about them makes me want to cook a turkey jus s I can have them! Lol but there is just me now.
Last Thanksgiving was the worst day I have ever had since Bob died..I was alone with food I bought at a deli...which turned out to be WRONG, and my local relatives were gone...so I sat here
alone and cried. This year I am invited to my nieces, and May go, I dunno, but if I choose not to, it will b ok as it was MY CHOICE.
yes, I can cook, and when I do, I am good at it, but I don,t like to cook. The only reason I am good is, it takes just as much h effort to cook BADLY as it does to cook good..so I may as well do it good.
ok, I am done rambling...try cooking the carrots with your turkey..absolutely the easiest thing ever...just get THIN baby carrots, or slice bigger niveoneslengthwise...and toss them in the bottom of the pan
Its getting closer to my bday (21 st) and Thanksgiving the day after. I told my kids I don't want a party at home, I want to start a new tradition of going out for dinner, last year I didn't want a celebration without Greg here so I think it will be easier this way. As always the holidays are at my house so am trying to get things ready but don't have any energy so have to get moving,But I am actually looking forward to Thanksgiving, just going to pretend its any other dinner with my entire family over, 35 people, so we will see. Love you all and am praying your Thanksgiving is better for all of you
Steve so happy to hear your positive reports, keep it up
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