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A continutaion of the "When a Spouse or Partner Dies" thread.
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This might be a rough time for many of you. Do what you feel you need to do to get through it. Remember, someone is here almost all the time to talk to you.
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Jan I feel exactly like you. I went from being a daughter to being a wife and have never lived alone until now (apart from the year Morley spent in the mental hospital when he had his breakdown, from which he recovered spectacularly and was better than even and we then went on to have perhaps the happiest 10 years of our marriage (I came close to losing him twice then so perhaps that made the next 10 years special because I very nearly didn't have them). I feel so very lost and alone and I miss him more and more as time goes on (what was that they told me about time being a great healer - well is isn't). I just want him back and that is never going to happen so I now lead an existence not a life and it will never get any better until we get together again. I just pray whoever is listening and takes these decisions that it won't be long. I think we are all soul mates on legacy which is why we all understand the pain so well. I am sorry you cried all the way back from your smog check (whatever that is, this is Britain and we don't have them). I have to say it is now almost 3 and a half years since Morley died and I have cried every single day since for him, sometimes not so bad but usually heart rending sobs that leave me feeling ill. We who loved know what pain is and I suppose we should be grateful because so many never have that kind of love in their lives but knowing that does not make the pain any less. One of my friends quotes the old fashioned phrase of heart broken to describe me and she is band to rights. I have only half a heart now and an open bloody sore where it should be because Morley took the other half with him when he went.
Thanks Diane C. My mind keeps going back to last Christmas and the fact that we didn't have a clue what the new year was bringing. Chris had started to feel bad around Thanksgiving, but his symptoms were so general and vague -- and he kept up with his usual activities until after Christmas -- but looking back, now, I feel guilty that I didn't know something serious was going on.
I guess I am glad we didn't know it would be our last Christmas together -- we are facing that with my sister, now, and it's so hard to keep things natural when we have that kind of diagnosis hanging over us. I pray for strength, wisdom and grace, every day. . . for all of us.
The two oldest daughters did the outdoor decorations today -- lights, evergreens and red bows, candy canes and wreaths -- they did it the way Chris would have done it, but they couldn't figure out his electrical system, so they had to make up their own. It made me cry a little, as I knew it would -- it was his special thing to do for the holidays. I didn't help -- just went outside to see the effect and told them what a great job they did and that Dad would be proud of them.
I haven't finished my Christmas shopping yet and want to get it done before I run out of steam -- I have been so tired lately -- all I want to do is sleep -- if I sit still for five minutes, I fall asleep. As long as I keep moving, I am okay -- but I am low on energy.
The weather is another problem --icy roads terrify me and Chris always did most of the winter driving, coming from Canada he was accustomed to ice and snow. I got out yesterday -- for the first time in a week -- but we are supposed to get more ice and then more snow tonight -- and with the low temps, its hanging around a lot longer than usual. I don't mind being stuck at home as long as I have enough supplies -- but I worry about my girls driving out there on ice and snow.
Funny, Carol and Diane mentioning about light bulbs -- since Chris passed it seems every light bulb in the house has taken a turn at burning out -- one by one -- it seems I barely get one replaced when another goes out. One of the last chores he did was to get on a ladder and replace the garage light. I remember, I was going to do it and he wouldn't let me get on the ladder.
I miss him so. Not just the things he did -- like Christmas decorations, driving in the snow, or changing light bulbs -- but his caring heart -- he cared for me, so much. I was so lucky to have him in my life.
Sorry to hear that you are having a rough time right now. But, I was glad to hear from you. Just know that you are always in my thoughts and prayers too. I think a lot has to do with the time of year. It is so hard for us to get through these holidays alone. I just hope they pass quickly, which they do. I think the anticipation is worse than the actual days.
Know that you are thought of here on our site often.
Hugs to you Mac!!!
I am so sorry to hear about your friend. It is so darn hard for us, when we get news of someone that has been given that diagnosis. And yes, it does bring up so many emotions and memories of the time we spent going through our ordeals. You will find the strength to help her, I know you will.
But I am so glad to hear that you are in a better place this year. That gives all of us who are grieving hope that we will end up in a better place too with time.
Take care Carol, you and your friends will be in my thoughts and prayers.
Good job Barbara, I am impressed that you got your tree and decorations up!! I know how hard that was for you to do that.
And, I am so proud of you Marsha with your 2 buffets this season too. I know how hard that is to do alone too. But I think it just goes to show that we are moving ahead a little, a baby step at a time.
I am not having a tree or any of my regular decorations this year. I am just getting the house back together and it is already the 13th. I have a couple things I would like to put up, but it just isn't going to happen. I think I will go out tomorrow to see if I can find a 4 ft. tree to put on a table, but I am not going to get any ornaments down either. Kind of a bummer year in that aspect. But it is what it is..... The contractors came back today and everything is finally done. They are doing a little side job for me now, but that is not part of the tree falling on the house. I had some ice damage a few years ago, and it left a crack in my ceiling and the wall between my skylights. They made me a deal I couldn't refuse... ;0)
I will be having my family over on Christmas Eve for the evening. We are just going to have an array of appetizers and finger foods. My Mom usually has that holiday, but she will be 80 in January and I told her I really would prefer to have it. It gives me something to do and keeps me busy. She understands completely, she has been widowed for 25 years. It will be an easy evening, so I am looking forward to it.
I was busy today trying to put a photo album together for my mom, of pictures of my brothers and sister, from all of our Christmas family photos, from the past 50+ years. I had just gotten the pics last year from my Dad. It was hard, because I had to go through some recent pictures too (25+ years). But that is going to be my goal next year, to get some scrap books put together.
They are calling for 6+ inches of snow for tomorrow. Katie's boyfriend came today and got my snow blower set up, and he even cleaned out my driveway. He replaced light bulbs in my garage and did a couple of other little things on his way home from work this morning. I am very lucky to have him as part of our family.
Sounds like we are all busy right now, trying to keep ourselves busy. That is a good thing, and I hope everyone can keep up the pace and not get too worn out. Take it slow and remember we are here for each other.
Hugs to all!!
Hi Barbara ... I am so proud of you that you put the Christmas tree and decorations up even though it was encouragement from your granddaughters. I know our spouses would want us to. I've put a Christmas tree up each year since Ernie passed away. I decorated a little more this time because I am having those 2 separate buffets (one this Saturday) and seem to have things under control, but it brings so many memories back of Ernie helping me getting prepared.
We seem to be on the same wave length because I just put a picture of Ernie out (framed) only a couple of weeks ago and I'm glad I did. I couldn't bare to look at a picture of him before that. It must mean we are making some progress.
Ernie use to put the outside lights on as well, but I haven't done that since he passed away and I can't do it by myself. I have a pretty wreath on two outside doors and that's as good as it's going to get. I was thinking that when Ernie passed away it was if the neighborhood did as well. Once the houses were all lit up and sparkled this time of year and other than one or two other houses in our neighborhood there is nothing. This is due to old neighbors passing away or more renters than home owners. Sad.
You be careful Barbara and don't slip and break a hip! I am thinking of getting those slip rubber slip-ons with spiked soles that you pull on over your boots and they are for ice. Good thing to have when it's snowed then the rain comes and it freezes.
I constantly talk to Ernie and even more so this time of year and no, that does not make us crazy!
Memories for sure!
Bless all of you and here is hoping for a better 2014 for us.
Love, hugs and blessings
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