Bereaved Spouses

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Comment by Sheri Dettman on August 5, 2018 at 11:32am

I've been reading some of the's amazing how we all share the same experiences. Yes, weekends suck!!! It's like you get drawn down into a dark hole of feeling so alone and remembering all the horror. Yes, I turn on the TV the minute I get up and as soon as I get home. Just to have something in the background instead of silence. The music thing...I listen to a LOT of music...what I find is that I listen to music from before I knew my husband or what's new now. Listening to music from high school (Fleetwood Mac, all of that kind of thing), brings me back to before I had any idea of death. And I've discovered new artists that I like and there's no memory attached. Mainly, though the worst thing is just the feeling of being utterly alone with no one to really trust. I never felt that before I was married, but having now had it, and then having it ripped out from under me, makes you miss it. For me, looking forward to travel is my escape. I booked a trip by myself to Spain for 2 weeks at the end of the month. Leaving on the annv of Bill's death. I wanted to go somewhere that we hadn't been to. Lord, help all of us. We need it.

Comment by Sheri Dettman on August 5, 2018 at 11:09am

Mary Jane, I haven't been on this site for a while now, but I just read your last post. Nobody tells us anything! Or maybe they kind of do, but we have no idea what it means. Or can't believe what it could mean. If I had really known the outcome, I wouldn't have put Bill through the surgery, radiation, etc...but at the time we do the best with the information that we have. I felt the same way about the doctors, the people in the home where my Bill was only there for a couple of weeks (can you believe that I can't even remember the term for the place-I think I've blocked it)! The hospice people were really the only ones who explained anything to me. I have "flashbacks" when I drive the route that goes by the hospital/home/hospice. I pray to God that I never get sick because there is no way I want to go through what my husband did. Only thing I hang onto is that the glioblastoma made it so that he didn't really realize or at least was not in any pain. 10 weeks from diagnosis to death. I'm still reeling in a lot of ways, as I'm sure you are. It was two years ago right at this time. So, yes. Summer pretty much really sucks. I just wish that there was some way that we could prevent our thoughts from going to all the awfulness and instead only concentrate on the good times. If only there was a switch. I tell myself to be grateful every day for the 11 years that I had with him and that I'm able to keep going. I know that a lot of people are a lot worse off. I look for a lot of distractions. And lord knows I have enough work to get done. But it ain't easy. 

Comment by Marsha H on August 5, 2018 at 5:07am

Dear Linda ...  My deepest condolences on the loss of your beloved husband.  All of us here know exactly how you feel and grief is a journey we all must take.  The things I learned from grief was I was stronger than I thought, but after 7 years of my dear Ernie passing from pancreatic cancer at the age of 65 I know I love him like no other and never will until we meet again.  Until then I went through so many emotions in raw grief and it's all normal.  I joined a grief group and it helped to physically see others in the same boat I was in.  Still, my heart ached and I eventually found Legacy which saved my life.  The people on here are so kind (my angels) and we all understand each other whether it's early grief, a few years down the road or several years.  When one falls others will pick you up.  Remember Linda, you are not alone and believe it or not your dear husband is right there with you seeing you over the rough spots. 

We do not judge anyone who posts their feelings and there is always someone around who will answer your post.  I would like to add although I miss my Ernie, I have volunteered and try to keep busy and do what I can with family and friends.  No, it's not the same as when Ernie was around and when he left he took half my heart with him, but I have some life to live and keep on trying.  Sometimes I even surprise myself when I laugh out loud.

Please come back and talk about anything you feel like.  We're listening and we'll help you on this grief journey.



Comment by Trina Mamoon on August 4, 2018 at 6:30pm

Hello Linda,

I am truly sorry for your loss. You are still in he very early stages of grief. In my experience the first few months were absolutely unbearable. Hang in there!

Sending you thoughts of solace and peace.

Hugs, Trina

Comment by Trina Mamoon on August 4, 2018 at 6:28pm

This is how I will always remember Joseph, the love of my life-: a ray of sunshine, happy, smiling, handsome, loving, and kind. Rest in peace, my love until I come to you.

Comment by Trina Mamoon on August 4, 2018 at 6:26pm

Comment by Linda Price on August 4, 2018 at 12:25pm

Comment by Linda Price on Saturday 

I have been reading some of the comments and have really been touched. I lost my wonderful husband of 24  years on June 20 this year. He had IPF a fibrotic lung disease which slowly destroyed his breathing ability. The day he passed was strange but he said he was so tired of trying to breathe even with the extra help. He said he felt different. He wanted to make it to his 77th birthday, that was the day he went to the ER in the ambulance. I felt numb those few days before. I was busy helping him and the nurses. Our deacon Bill, prayed all morning Sunday, and then our priest gave him the Annointing of the Sick. He was awake all those days before he passed. He and the family decided to go Care and Comfort with Hospice. We told him we loved him and it was ok to go I would be alright. I was alone with him when I looked over at his face, and he had stopped breathing and was gone. Every day he said he loved me and was sorry I had to work so hard caring for him. I told him I loved him like had never loved anyone. We watched ROKU a lot and had family and friends over talked on the phone.This sharing site has helped me already.

Comment by deborah peck on August 4, 2018 at 12:00pm

Mary Jane, I hope you have such a good time while you are there

Comment by Chicago Beard on August 3, 2018 at 11:36pm

Mary Jane

If you are in Lake Tahoe (one of Rose and mines favorite places) you are a 12 hour drive. Enjoy the wedding and the peacefulness of the lake. Don't lose too much in the casinos.

Comment by Mary. Jane on August 3, 2018 at 9:26am

Hi guys..omg, I a, so tired..I am in Lake Tahoe. It is so pretty here...we are doing a wedding for my daughter sister in law. I am right on the lake. I a, sorry I have ,t responded to anyone, except I was up for almost 24 hours yesterday, flying here, then driving for 8 hours...the smoke from the Redding fires was all around us, even thos we were a long way from the fire. 

I have to go now, it is 7 ca time...and we r driving to get flowers for the wedding. So I will try to respond. Beard...I think u r more southern in location, otherwise I would invite u. Ok bye everyone TTUL


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