Gay and lesbians who have lost partners

Information

Gay and lesbians who have lost partners

Who is there for us??

Members: 165
Latest Conversations: 3 hours ago

We are family!

Discussion Forum

The story of a 43 year old recent widower.

Started by Derick Grundyson. Last reply by eric johnson 3 hours ago. 4 Replies

My name is Derick, and I am here because I lost my partner of 15 years to a sudden heart attack in Puerto Rico. Family and friends have encouraged me to seek a support group to help cope with his…Continue

Pain is till the same but at least now I can talk about it

Started by Cesar Gil. Last reply by Derick Grundyson 9 hours ago. 6 Replies

I signed up for this group more than a year ago. When I got to the part where you have to tell what brings you here, I just couldn't go on. It was hard to say the words or even write them; I still…Continue

What to call deceased partner?

Started by Steve Levin. Last reply by Derick Grundyson 9 hours ago. 12 Replies

Troy died about 18 months ago very suddenly from a heart attack.  This forum has been a great help.Now that the overwhelming grief has been replaced with different emotions I want to pose a question…Continue

Young & Unexpected GLBT Widower

Started by Jesse Roberts. Last reply by Richard Turner on Friday. 5 Replies

Hello.  My name is Jesse.  I'm 40 - almost 41 years old next week.  My late husband (it's still so strange to say "late"), Michael, committed suicide on Saturday, June 27, 2015.It was a typical…Continue

Tags: domestic, partners, relationship, marriage, gay

Comment Wall

Comment

You need to be a member of Gay and lesbians who have lost partners to add comments!

Comment by Steve on February 3, 2016 at 11:23pm
Arvin,
You have my deepest sympathies for what you are going thru. Words cannot begin to describe the pain we feel about our lost loved one.
I would like to tell you that over time we don't really get over it, our mind and body takes over so that we learn to live and cope with our loss. We are changed from who we were to someone different.
It has been 1 year and 2 months sine I lost my Mark. We were together for 27 wonderful years. He to passed away in his sleep while we were napping.
What you are experiencing is raw grief, let it out and do not be ashamed, remember all the good things and live one day at a time.
Know that it plłkTHE OFFICIAL WEBSITE OF THE STATE OF TEXAS
Driver License Renewal Receipt and Temporary License
This is your temporary driver license or ID card. Permanent cards are normally mailed within three weeks; however, it may take up to 45 days to receive your card. You may check the mailing status of your card online at www.dps.texas.gov/DriverLicense/OnlineServices.htm

Request Voter Registration Application

You are NOT registered to vote. Please select the web link in the red box above to obtain a voter registration application from the Secretary of State Office.

Name:
JAMES STEPHEN GOODWIN
Date of Birth:
04/20/1947
Home Address:
4211 Lafayette St Apt 612
Dallas, TEXAS 75204
DL Number:
36896821
DL Expiration Date:
04/20/2019
License Type:
C
Organ Donor: Yes
Carry this portion with your driver license or ID card. This temporary card is valid for 45 days from February 2, 2016.

Payment Receipt
Name:
JAMES STEPHEN GOODWIN
Mailing Address:
4211 Lafayette St Apt 612
Dallas, TEXAS 75204
DALLAS
UNITED STATES
Billing Information:
4211 Lafayette St apt 612
Dallas, TEXAS 75204
Cardholder Name:
James Goodwin
VISA:
XXXXXXXXXXXX5192
Selected Services:
Change of Address
Selected Options:
I selected the following options:
Become an Organ Donor — Yes
Texas.gov Price
*The Texas.gov Price will include any donations listed above.
$11
Transaction Date:
February 2, 2016 1:19:54 PM CST
Confirmation Number:
405DL52238999
Information
Steps to Complete
Welcome
Login
Select Services
Enter Address
Select Options
Review Order
Submit Payment
Receipt
Frequently Asked Questions
Where's My License or ID?
Log Out
Help
For technical assistance with this application, please call 1-877-452-9060 or send an email to Texas.gov Help.
Resources
Texas Department of Public Safety
Texas.gov
Texas.gov Policies
© 2012 Texas.gov
Texas.gov
Comment by Arvin Bain on February 3, 2016 at 1:06pm

Good Morning Group.  My name is Arvin & I live in Arizona.  I found this group & this forum in an effort to cope & maybe understand or come to terms with my loss.  I lost my partner, the love of my life, of 10 yrs on December 4, 2015.  He had health issues with his liver & a medicine he was inadvertently prescribed took his life on Nov. 12, 2015, He had a serious negative reactions to it that eventually took his life after 2 ½ wks in the hospital.  He spent his last days in ICU's in 2 hospitals & I was right there at his side all the time.  It's very emotional for me to write this out because it becomes all too real again so please bear with me. I was fortunate to have been with him every day at the 1st hospital but when they transferred him out to a specialist hospital hundreds of miles away, I was only able to get to him in the nick of time to see the medical staff put him on a respirator.  I had only reached the hospital by car and made it to the hospital ward with no more than 30 seconds to spear.  I was only able to tell him, "I'm here now.  I'm here.  Be strong.  Don't be scared. I love you.  You know I love you... I love you.  I'm here.  I'll be right here."  He replied, "Okay Arv, let them put this stuff on me then you can all come back in."  That was it.  I was then escorted and ask to leave the room while they put him under for the procedure. The rest of the day, his vitals declined until there was no more hope left but to prepare for the obvious.  His parents, brothers, sisters, grandparents, several cousins and uncles who were fortunate were able to be with us that morning.  Unlike me, they got to spend a whole evening & night with him.  I'm being told that he shared things with them which probably gave them better closure but I was only given a short time to say those last words to him.  The doctors gave us no options for his recovery & eventually they started asking his parents what they would like to do.  In his failing condition, it was either leave him in his coma & wait for him to eventually go into cardiac arrest or pull life support & allow him to "pass peacefully."  His parents asked me what I thought we should do but I was not going to let him go so easily.  I felt like even though they were his parents and family, I somehow had more vested in this decision because I was his partner & they knew this.  However, after several hours of discussions & more doctors’ interruptions, I had to finally let them make their decision as mom & dad.  As the evening progressed, his parents finally made the decision to remove him from life support & he drifted out 10 mins. later.  I was there to the very end holding his hand, rubbing his forehead & stroking his hair, trying my best to comfort him as he passed.  I'm not sure if he knew I was there but that's one of the things that kills me the most about this.  I don't know if he knew what was happening to him.  We all cried and broke down.  It was literally, the saddest thing & day in my ENTIRE life.  It's been 2 months exactly since he left & I'm on a continuous roller coaster of dread, panic/anxiety, grief, loneliness, heartache & depression.  I've been talking to people & some understand but others are only being nice.  Most people knew of our relationship & the amount of time we spent together.  Still I cry almost daily & I just can't seem to find a way to feel OK anymore.

Comment by Don Fournier on August 15, 2015 at 3:17pm
Hi Eric

Take comfort that your partner didn't want you to see him died. My partner passed away in his sleep, in his own bed, in our home.... Just the way he wanted. He was so fearful of dying in a hospital bed. He waited for me to come home from work after covering for an evening shift, which I rarely did. I kissed and hugged him good night and said ' I'll see you in the morning' like I had done for 17 years. The morning of October 22, 2013 saw my world crash down around me and my life hasn't been the same since.
I know he's around me and truly believe I have an angel watching over me. My deepest sympathy to you Eric. I would like to tell you it gets easier in time but it doesn't. I miss him more than I could ever imagine.
Take care of yourself - Don
Comment by eric johnson on August 15, 2015 at 1:35pm
It's so easy to forget the times I would cook meals for him 3rimes over until he would find something he could tolerate and all those round the clock meds as well as bathing him cleaning up vomit , cleaning the commode and all house hold things damm I did a lot!! And I would do it all again just to have 1 more minute with him
Comment by eric johnson on August 15, 2015 at 1:28pm
I suppose beating my self up over the final moment is useless. After all I was there with him 20 plus hours a day, slept over night with him in the hospital, and took round the clock care of him at home giving him needles 4 times a day as well as iv antibiotics every 6 hours for 12 weeks . I really was there for him so I should be quite proud
Comment by J Greene on August 15, 2015 at 1:18pm
I spent every night at Hospice when my Mom was there. I woke up at 12:40am turned and found she had passed. The nurses told me. They don't want you to see them pass away. That was 7yrs ago.My partner of 21+ years, passed away on January 10th 2015. I was there, and able to kiss him on the lips as the monitor flat lined. His family said I sent him Home.
Comment by Steve Feldman on August 15, 2015 at 12:20pm

Eric,All you knew when you left his room was that his passing was imminent and probable but NOT that it would occur before you returned. Even if you did have some power to know that, what is done is done. If you insist upon feeling guilty for leaving so as to NOT witness his passing and be with him until the end that is something you will have to face, reconcile with and resolve on your own. No one can help you do that except yourself. I hope you find resolution and peace easily.

Comment by eric johnson on August 15, 2015 at 8:30am
Every morning I wake up and I'm happy because I think that he still alive and then it sinks in that he's gone and I'll never see him again and the tears come into reminds me of how I just went to sleep I hope this will change
Comment by eric johnson on August 15, 2015 at 8:25am
I was lucky enough to have him wake up and say goodbye to me and I knew that it was only going to be in a matter of another couple hours I just didn't want to watch him Gasp for his last breath but I still feel selfish for. Not being there to hold his hand when I could have been
Comment by eric johnson on August 15, 2015 at 8:22am
It took me three hours to leave the room that night because I knew you were going to go it was a little bit selfish because I want to my last memories of him until you buy that we had not gasping and gargling fail like I knew it was going to pay when I did leave the room I got home prayed to God to take them into hours later they called me and told me he was gone I just feel little bit guilty I didn't stay to the very end that's all
 

Members (165)

 
 
 

Community Guidelines

Please be respectful of others. For more information, read our Community Guidelines.

Badge

Loading…

Follow Legacy

Follow Legacy.com on PinterestFollow @LegacyConnect on TwitterCircle us on Google+

© 2016   Created by Legacy.com.   Powered by

Badges  |  Report an Issue  |  Terms of Service