My first boyfriend passed away 2 months ago. We were together for 4 years, and I will never love anyone like I did him. He died of cystic fibrosis at age 28. I broke up with him before I moved, and I have regreted it to this day. I am married now, and my husband is wonderful. However, I never had the chance to truly have closure with my first love. I always thought about him, and am still in touch with his parents.


The day he died, I saw a beautiful rainbow in the sky. That night I had a dream about him that he was saying goodbye to me, telling me he passed away. Nobody told me he died until 3 days later. I couldn't go to the service because it was too late. I wish I would have listened to my dream. I will always regret not being able to go. I want to move on because I have a husband who loves me, but at the same time I just don't know how to move on.


I found our old prom pics in a drawer, with a picture of a rainbow next to it of all things...I miss him. I wish I could speak to him just one time. I'm going to visit his parents in August, I don't know if that will help.

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