hi my name is frances. i am 31 yrs old and i lost my mother on oct 4 2010. she was 65 yrs old, to young to die. i lost my mother to drug overdose. she had struggle for years with addiction to prescription drugs, but she was also had alot of health problems and mental problems . i went to go check on her mon oct 4 it was late and i went over to her apt, i kept knocking on the door but no answer so i called 911 and the premedics came in to see what was going on and they came out and said " i'm soory honey but i think she,s dead, we check for a pulse but she been gone awhile honey" i just went into a shock i ran in there to see and there she was she died in her bed with the bible in her hands.i just fell to my knees screaming and crying, she was already in first stages of decay, we couldn't have a viewing. i was just heartbroken, a part of me died with her that day, i will never get over that day. i still have visions of that day of what she looked like when i found her,  i miss her so much i wish she was with me still. i have had bad thoughts, i feel guitly cause i didnt get to say goodbye , i wasnt there when she took her last breath. i wonder if she was in any pain when she died, there are just so many questions that still runs through my head "what if" maybe if i was there she wouldnt had to die there alone . maybe i could have prevented it from happening.