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Comment by Evelyn on December 22, 2013 at 3:01am

Thanks for listening to me. I hope each of you find peace and joy once again in your lives.

Comment by Evelyn on December 22, 2013 at 3:00am

December 28th will be the 47th anniversary of my daddy's death. I was 6 when he died, the oldest of 3 little kids. I was told that if I prayed very hard and was a very good girl, God would make my dad better and her could come home. Guess I wasn't as good as I should've been. He died at 35, from complications of a heart attack the month before. I know medicine was not as good as today, but I still can't understand how the doctor could say it was arthritis! My dad went to the doctor's office every Saturday morning, but the pain never went away. After that last visit, daddy came home, went into their bedroom & turnrd away from us. The last words I ever heard him say - "take the kids to your (my mom's) mother". He sent me away! I just wanted to give him a hug and kiss, it never happened.

Daddy died the day the doctors were scheduled to discharge him. Mom tried to soften the blow, God needed daddy in heaven, if daddy came home, we would have to be quiet & good all the time. I remember telling her I wouldn't say anything anymore if daddy came home. The look in mom's eyes still haunt me.

Dady was buried on New Year's Eve, there was a gravediggers' set for January 1.  As midnight approached, my brothers and I were woken up. Everyone thought it would be good for us to watch the ball drop. I still remember my uncle's toat "to the new year, may all the bad luck of 1966 stay behind us". Time for tears, my daddy's just been called bad luck.

I have hated/fear the holidays since then. Remember music in the elevator? Ever see anyone silently crying when Christmas came on? I soon learnt biting your lower lip helped tremendously.

My mom died 3 years ago, from amyloidosis. She was my last connection to my dad. My brothers were to young to remember him. I know I'll see them someday, but the loneliness is crushing my heart.

Comment by susan pellecier on August 24, 2013 at 9:25am

I just lost my mother-in-law on Sunday, she had a pacemaker put in years ago which failed so she needed emergency open-heart surgery, we were so happy because she seemed to be doing well, until they found that her red blood count was very low so they had to put her back in ICU for a transfusion then she started to go downhill, she developed a rare reaction called ARD ( adult respiratory distress syndrome) which caused her great difficulty breathing so they put him on a BiPAP to help but after just a few days her heart stopped, what a shock this was to all of us, she was so loved and active in our community and in the church, I loved and admired her so much it's hard to believe I'll never see her again. I try to be strong for my husband whose  suffering so much, I'm so glad they have this site where I can share my feelings, grandma Betty will be so missed :( 

Comment by denise baicich on June 18, 2013 at 10:51pm

EVEYLN,I DID LOSE BOTH PARENTS DAD IN 2009 AND MOM JUST RECENTLY,IT WAS JUST SO UNEXPECTED..SHE WAS JOKING WITH MY BROTHER AT 930 AND BY 1230 SHE WAS GONE. AND I WASNT THERE TO SAY GOODBYE..

Comment by denise baicich on June 10, 2013 at 11:58pm

i just lost mine 2 weeks ago . it is hard,miss mom everyday. she was my whole life for almost 10 years

Comment by RJ on September 15, 2012 at 6:31pm

Kim Hopkins: 

You couldn't have said it better. Our Dads must have been very alike, and I feel mine had a similar impact on my life. I'm so grateful to have had a Dad like him, and I'm glad I told him so. He died just this past Sunday, and I know I have a long road to go without him. But like you, the man he was led me to the man I will marry in October. What a legacy our fathers can leave us daughters. 

Thank you for your post, it's precious: 

Today marks the one-year anniversary for the day I lost my dad. He had so many outstanding qualities that I don't have enough time to name them all, but the ones that stand out the most is his smile, his laughter, his wit, his kind heart, and the way he helped others. If you mentioned that you needed something, he would go out of his way to find it. But most of all, I'll miss our relationship, the way he made me feel – always like a princess. It is because of him, that I was able to witness a good man, husband, and father. From the way he treated my mom, to his hard work ethic and the way that he loved me--all of this help me to choose my wonderful husband, because I had my dad as a great example. Loving you, and missing you dearly… Always Your little girl.

Comment by Kim Hopkins on August 28, 2012 at 4:44pm

Today marks the one-year anniversary for the day I lost my dad. He had so many outstanding qualities that I don't have enough time to name them all, but the ones that stand out the most is his smile, his laughter, his wit, his kind heart, and the way he helped others. If you mentioned that you needed something, he would go out of his way to find it. But most of all, I'll miss our relationship, the way he made me feel – always like a princess. It is because of him, that I was able to witness a good man, husband, and father. From the way he treated my mom, to his hard work ethic and the way that he loved me--all of this help me to choose my wonderful husband, because I had my dad as a great example. Loving you, and missing you dearly… Always Your little girl.

Comment by Natasha on August 25, 2012 at 6:10pm

Almost 4 weeks ago, I said my last few words to my mom before I lost her. She was sitting in her favorite chair rubbing her chest and watching the olympics. I asked if she was okay and she replied it was only indigestion. I told her I was going to take a nap and I'd see her in an hour and that I loved her. An hour later, I found her laying on the couch and gone. She'd had a massive heart attack and went in her sleep. I am greatful for that. But of course I have moments of "what if", even though it's too late for that.

I'm the "baby" sister at almost 32 and have lived with mom my entire life, while my sisters are much older in their late 40's and early 50's. For them, they lost mom. For me, I lost my mom, my best friend, my confidant and my companion.

She was always so active, hell she was ironing minutes before I took my nap. Totally unexpected and I miss her dearly.

Comment by dana grable on August 1, 2012 at 9:30am

I lost my mom July 17, 2012 to a heart attack. She called 911 and still had the phone to her ear when they arrived, but she was already gone. She was at home alone. I tried calling her at my last break but didn't get an answer. The paramedic called me back from her phone and told me they had just left carrying her to the hospital. He said they found her non responsive but that didn't register that she was gone. The hospital staff had to tell me.  I can't get the picture out of my head. Her at home sitting in her chair calling for help but no one getting to her in time. Its hard. I have to make myself get up each day and come to work. I have three daughters 22, 21 and 18. They are taking it extremely hard too. I keep saying to myself be stong for them. It is so very hard. . She was my mom and my best friend. She was always there to help with my girls and now it is just me. I am so lost without her. I pray for strength each day.

Comment by Kim on April 9, 2012 at 12:58pm

My profile picture is on my wedding day 11-7-09 with my wonderful father Larry. He was taken from me almost exactly 2 years later on 11-16-11. He passed away at his home, at his favorite spot on the couch from a sudden massive heart attack. My mom was lying down in the other room, and when she came out he was already gone. He died alone. No one got to be with him or tell them how much they loved him or hold his hand. She called me at work and I remember dropping the phone and I was on the floor. I drove as fast as I could but when I got there the paramedics had already stopped working on him. I ran into the house and my knees buckled again as I saw a blanket covering his body except for his feet. I maybe 37 years old, but I felt like a little girl who just wanted her daddy back. I ran an laid beside him and held his hand and told him how much I loved him and how sorry I was I wasn't there for him when he needed me the most. He was the strongest man, the best man I've ever known, he wasn't proud, he was a quiet, steady strong, always there, always loving. He would do anything for anyone. He meant the world to me. I would give anything to have another day with him. I feel such guilt for not spending more time with him. We hardly ever fought. There were no bad feelings, I just needed to spend more time with him and do more for him. I hurt everyday and I just cannot seem to get beyond it. I have a daughter and 2 step-daughters and a wonderful husband. I still have my mother. I have a lot to be thankful for yet, my heart is so full of hurt and grief that it seems to boil over and I feel as if I have nothing left to offer anyone. So much of me died with him.

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