Pam, you are definately not alone! God is there always. He is holding you up right now and is with you every step of the way. I know that we do feel alone and isolated from other people, but God is always there. I have now lost my Grandma, Mother, Grandpa, and Uncle, all of whom were very special to me. The only family I have left is my soon to be 16 year old daughter, who isn't home half the time, my step-daughter who has a family and a life of her own, a son who is locked away, and a husband. My husband actually told me last weekend to quit having a pity party over the loss of my mom and my daughter is always telling me to quit crying that "Grandma Dee wouldn't want me to be crying". I know these two have not had a loss in the magnitude of losing a mother, so they can't have the compassion. My husband did apologize to me for saying that but still, they don't understand how deep the pain is and how this loss affects me, especially with having to take care of selling the house, going through things that were left, etc. So, I do feel alone at times, and sometimes feel that no one really cares now. My step-dad moved back to Michigan and has all sorts of family there, but he doesn't call me as much anymore. I feel like I am fading into the background with him. He is there with his daughter and his brother, and other family. I was just his step-daughter. But, every Sunday when I go to Church, I am reminded of the church family that is there for me, and that God is there for me also. I am very sorry to hear of your loss, and I know it is painful. We will get through this, with God's help, one moment at a time. I know right now playing on the Christian radio station are a couple of good songs "Save a Place For Me" by Matthew West, "What Faith Can Do" by Cutlass, "Cry to Jesus" I don't know who sings this one, and also, "I Can Only Imagine" by Mercy Me. These songs minister to the broken heart. I would recommend that you listen to these songs, and also, if you are not already involved, get involved with a church group. I am in a small group Bible study, and those people have been absolutely wonderful and very supportive. Lean on God, cry out to Jesus. I will pray for you. Remember, you are not alone! Take care and God bless.