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Permalink Reply by ali on February 27, 2010 at 10:53pm

Hugs and I am sorry for your loss. My mom passed away on December 17, 2009 from vulvar cancer. I also can not believe the pain and suffering from cancer. It is the most horrific thing I have ever seen. My mom was too weak to get out of bed and we called Hospice. She was there on Sunday evening, talking and saying how beautiful it was with all the Christmas trees. By Tuesday she was no longer speaking and by Thursday she was gone. Cancer seems like such a long battle, but when someone passes it seems so quick. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Permalink Reply by Kathryn on February 28, 2010 at 9:55am

I just wanted to express my sadness for your loss.
I am truly sorry.

Kathryn

Permalink Reply by Sheila Meade on March 1, 2010 at 7:46am

Crhistine,

I too lost my Mom to ovarian cancer, along with breast cancer. I completely understand the painful effects of chemo, the continuous battle with blood issues and platelets, hair loss, and all the difficult, painful procedures. I guess what bothers me most is that Mom couldn't eat........always sick. The wasting away was so very hard to watch; 18 months of fighting; fighting what seemed to be a losing battle. Watching the transition from earth to heaven was the hardest. Not wanting to let go but knowing I had too. Angry with GOD for the suffering and torment she through........not understanding why. My mother was a wonderful woman. A founding member of our church as well as a deacon. Loving, giving and so very warm, kind hearted. I found myself looking around at other people wondering why it couldn’t have been one of them instead of someone who is such a wonderful witness for GOD. I still don't understand and perhaps never will. I still get angry and feel cheated. But, GOD has given me his GPS (Grace, Peace & Strength) to get me through and it will be 3 years this coming June 17th. I still cry, I still hurt and I still get very lonely at times. I suppose the experience has moved me closer to GOD but the pain getting there was very close to unbearable. I have wonderful memories but I want/need more than that most of the time. My life has changed now and forever; I hope for the better. I am so very aware of the value of life, of love and of GOD. Time spent with my Dad, brother (& family), sister (& family) and my husband is what means the most to me. Little things that were taken for granted are now the things that bring me the most enjoyment. I don't think I have or ever will get over the passing of my Mom, I think I just deal with it on a different level..................

Permalink Reply by flagator8 on June 5, 2010 at 8:51pm

I cried reading your post. I lost my mom to ovarian cancer too. It was 9 months from diagnosis to her death and I will forever be angry at the ungodly suffering she went through. i have never seen anything so horrible. she was a week shy of her 58th birthday and my entire world. me and my sister could not do anything for her and we tried everything. there is so much more to say and i am sure you know exactly how i feel. my name is robyn and you can write me at lustgartenr@hotmail.com, if you ever want to talk.