Normally I use positive affirmations to get me through, but presently it hasn't been enough. I am feeling myself slip into a depressive state. As I have expressed before, my mother passed away unexpectedly on December 21, 2008 at the age of 49. She was present in my life daily. Although we lived an hour apart we talked daily and saw eachother at least once, if not twice weekly. Im just having a hard time dealing with the fact that no one's here who loves me the way she did. Since her death, I've lost my aunt (her sister) and my godmother. My aunt passed at the same age my mother passed and the funeral was on the anniversary of my mother's passing (most difficult). Its just getting harder and harder for me. Ive never felt soooo alone. Im a single woman with no children and I hate the fact that I have no one. My only brother lives 2 hours away and we aren't very close at all, and my father passed when I was very young. My grandmother is elderly and is experiencing the early signs of Alzheimer's Disease. I have lost my excitement about life and have no passion for anything. I feel so hopeless. My friends had become family to me, but their lives are their own and they are all busy working towards their own goals. I am a woman of faith and I definitely believe that God has a plan, but I still can't help what I feel. What do I do? How do I deal? How do I go on in life?