Its been 45 days since my Mother passed away and it still hurts like the first day. I wanted to share a story or two and see if anyone else is experiencing what is happening to me. So I'm walking out of a local Walmart where I went to pick up a few groceries, the same store Mom always shopped. As I'm walking out I notice a tiny elderly woman walking about 10 ft ahead of me by herself. The way she walked seemed so familiar like watching my dear Mother walking ahead of me. She was the same height & weight and carried herself the same way as Mom did. As she exited the door a gentlemen walked up to her and and took her elbow to assist her walking who I assumed must be her son or relative. He turned and looked at me and smiled for some reason probably because I was walking slowing behind her watching her. I couldn't help smiling at her. Just watching her made me ache for Mom. As I watched the two of them I realized he was assisting her to a van which was parked from an Assisted Living Facility. I stopped and watched him help her into the van which took a few minutes. Somehow I felt mesmerized watching her. I never saw her face just her back which seemed so familar to me. I couldn't move just stood there watching them. The gentleman who helped her stepped out of the van to help someone else get in and noticed me obviously watching all this. He came over to me and said Hi, I must have looked like I was in a trance or possibly he thought I was crazy. He asked me how my day was going to which I responded "the little lady you helped reminded me so much of my Mother who passed away recently." He said to me "would you like to volunteer at our facility?" I instantly started crying...feeling like a fool in front of him. He patted my shoulder and said if you have some clothing from your Mother we could make you a Teddy Bear. I couldn't respond or say anything. I just cried. I turned and started walking to my car sobbing all the way. I didn't say anything to him or respond in any way, I just walked away. I felt like such a fool. By the time I got to my car the van was gone. I wanted to apologize or at least say something to him. I can't believe I did this, this nice guy must have thought I was nuts and rude! I don't even know what facility he was from. But watching that elderly little woman brought me such joy but I know I can't volunteer with elderly people...right now. No way! The other thing that happened this week was I was coming out of a movie with my husband and right in front of me was a elderly woman using her walker. My Mom used a walker the last 3 months of her life and I swear this tiny little lady looked so familiar like I was watching Mom again. She had a little bag on her walker just like Mom had. Again I cried all the way to the car. I realized today I never saw their faces... only their backs walking away from me. I don't know why every tiny elderly woman reminds me of Mom. Does this happen to anyone else? Am I going nuts? I feel like everywhere I go I am looking for Mom in the crowd or I happen across someone who reminds me of her...perhaps her walk or her mannerisms or the hair. Its just weird. I don't know why I am doing this or how to stop it. Just seems to happen. Anyone else experiencing this???? Any thoughts???