My mother has been gone since February 20, 2010. As spring begins again (her favorite season) I miss her desperately, and long to hear her voice, touch her hand, and see that look of love in her eyes just one more time. Grief ambushes me on days I least expect it.
Without my Mom, my victories are tempered with sadness, and my struggles only remind me of how much I depended on her wisdom and basked in her unwavering belief in me. I know that no one will ever feel that way about me again, and my spirit suffers when thinking about the years ahead without her.
I lost my mom on November 19, 2012. I really don't know how to cope with the loss of not only my mom, but my best friend. I feel that the one person I had, and loved in this world was taken from me suddenly. I miss her so much it hurts to breath sometimes.
I too find myself staying busy so I don't have to think about the day that I lost my mom. I put on a smile every day I'm in public so people don't think that I'm broken, and just so they don't ask me if I'm okay. I miss talking to her daily, sometimes twice a day. She was my world, my support system, my best friend, my cheerleader, my voice of reasoning. How can I go on, and not have my mom by my side.
My heart is empty and broken, and even though I am laughing on the outside for appearance purposes only, I'm dying on the inside. I can be sitting watching a tv show and just burst out in tears or sitting in class and something reminds me of her and I am wiping tears from eyes. A couple weeks after my mom passed away I hurried to grab my phone because I wanted to share my day with her and her voice be excited with me. As I picked up the phone to dial her number it hit me that she was no longer here to pick up on the other end. I cried for three hours that day.
The thing that keeps me going is knowing how proud she was of me and how proud she would be of me. I want to thank her for giving me life and sharing her life with me. There will never be a day that goes by that I will not think of you. I love you and I miss you Mom. <3
The tributes and poems on here Angie and others is lovely. I lost my Mum in Jan 2012 and I struggle inside not seeing my mum face to face any more.