Thanks for replying. I listened to him and redirected him with many possible solutions. When he really showed sign on carrying out his suicide plan,( selling his 16 yrs retail business, giving away items and drinking everynight). I called his family and told them to seek professional help first, DO NOT just go talk to him without any practical plan or even action. I also called the crisis center, suicide hotline and his local intervention center. Those places were really no help, they told me that without the premission, no agent could do anything to help him. He needed to give consent to receive the help and treatment.
His family understood the situation, in the meanwhile, i felt they doubt about how depress their son and brother was. He also acted very normal, he went to work as usual, took care of himself and even went to visit his parents with big warm smiles and hugs. That's night, he decided to take his own life.
I have a very similar case with you. My dear lover , who took his life about a month ago, lived 600 miles away from me, and i last saw him also on July of 4 weekend this year. He was very much depressed by his chronic health condition. He called and texted me right before he died letting me know that he was doing it, love me and goodbye. I didn't call for help and he was found dead in his bed with overdose. I could have delay his death, but i couldn't stop his pain and suffering. I was very upset that he chose to tell me his pending suicide plan and death, in the same time i was gald that he trusted me to share with me.
The pain he left me is not going to end any time soon because we have our wonderful 4 yrs together. We know each other like, dislike, dream, fear and all. However, i know he is now free of suffering and watching me from his side. I hope, one day he and i will meet again.
I want him back everyday.
Once, i dreamed of him. I begged him to come back to me and take me with him to anywhere. He got up and walked away into the crowd, and i lost track of him. One of his fd said to me, oh i think you need to apologize to him for not calling help to save his life. Even though i disagreed with her, i hurted by her words.
I love and care about him very much . He is my best friend and soulmate for the past 4 years.