I recently lost my brother to suicide a month ago and you do lose a part of you but that is what we have to understand to continue living our lives so we can accomplish our goals. I only have one big brother and he have two children just like me. We use to take our kids everywhere together and now i am lonely. I take the kids out to eat and to the parks it is difficult having the thought of not having him in my life as years approaches. I am 22yrs old and he was 23yrs old. I am taking the kids to the circus Thursday and it hurt so much that his present will not be there but i thank God for giving me the strength to take the kids to the circus. A part of me is gone completely because i no longer have a big brother physically along my side like your friend. It is very hard when you see everyone moves on and you are stuck, lost, still wondering why, but everyone has not forgotten your friend, it is just they are healing faster. I am not in a stable condition to explain how can you heal because i am far from healing but i can say surround yourself with great people because they will strongly support you.