Thanks Leah for your reply! I have to agree that most of my current friends or acquaintances that actually talk to me daily, have been through the loss of a friend or family member. They aren't bothered by the issue and know how hard it is to recover from.
However, when the death is an accidental thing, those people rarely have empathy for my situation. For example, my daughter dated a boy whose sisters died in a car accident that was not their fault. The boy's mother and father made the son break up with my daughter and not speak to my daughter because of how her father died! Like she wasn't good enough for him! And, they attend my church and are the head of the Young Life group for the County! Amazing how judgemental even those who have lost their own family members can be against those of us who have survived suicide.
I am glad you are pursuing a counseling degree. I have been to several counselors and found them unhelpful. So, I am going to try the local survivors group.
Thanks again for understanding!