Right after I had just turned 14 (I'm 15 now, as of a few months ago) someone that I did community theater with commited suicide. I didn't know him very well, but he helped me out when I was going through a hard time, and got me to stop self harming myself. I don't know why his sudden death had so much affect on me. Maybe because was so young, and I still am young. Or maybe it was because it was suicide. Another friend of mine passed away last September and it hasn't affected half as badly as this suicide has. I think it's because I knew that it was a natural death... But suicide? Suicide is wrong. I miss him so much, and I wasn't even great friends with him. I didn't know how to grief, and I had no one to turn to for help. It wasn't until last Octtober that I met one my bestfriend, who is very understanding and listens to me when I need someone to talk to. I went a whole year feeling so confused. I still don't know what to do. I feel like depression has taken over my life.