I feel like I can't go on some days knowing I will never hear my brothers voice again, he was my best friend. They say not to blame anyone but I can't help it, there is one that I do and always will. the day it happened he was drinking and was taking meds to quit smoking and for depression, so I know he was not in his right state of mind. if he wasn't drinking he would still be here, but the person I blame is not him, but I will always and forever blame this person. No one will ever change my mind. I just miss him so much, he should be here now, I want that so bad.