My heart truly goes out to those who have lost a family, friend or anyone close to them by suicide. That 7 letter work makes me cringe. It will be a year tomorrow I lost my dad, when he took his life at my sister's home. The home we have provided him to get on his feet and try to start a better life. It wasn't until I experienced an "actual tragedy" that the little things in life didn't bother me as much. I've had a hell of a life growing up, that doesn't come close to compare what it's like finding your dad dead in his bed after a overdose. And the note he left.... That was the hardest thing to except. I felt like if anyone in this world could relate to what he was going through it was me. This was not his character. He made us all believe he had the fantasy life everyone would have wanted and all the girls were taking him out to dance or giving him their number. He was a real sick guy. He had a lot of physical problems. Pietistic Kidney Diseases, cancer, diabetes, back troubles. But he choose to medicate himself with alcohol and pain medicine. I remember that for the most of my life. It didn't really hit home until I went to one of his doctors appointments and the doctor gave him the talk that I've been avoiding for some time. He said, "John, You need to get off these pain medications, stop drinking and smoking". It was then the doctor said " How much longer to you want to be with this beautiful daughter of your"? That I thought really impacted my dad, well at the. It wasn't until we got to my place the first thing he did was make himself a bloody Mary. That was a real slap in the face to me. I thought for a second it may have sunk in.
This is the start of my story. I have much more to add but For now it was great getting this off my chest.
I know everyone can understand the feeling. And That's why I'm happy to share my store.
TO BE CONTINUED.....
Thanks for sharing your story.... A dear friend I knew shot her self in the head. Her parents blamed themselves for not seeing it.... The sad thing with completed suicide is the signs are there and we try to help our love ones but sometimes they are so depressed they give up hope. Please know that God knows his heart and he will be remembered. I hope you endure this great pain - Revelation 21 :3,4
Please know that someone (me) out there in the world has just said a prayer for you, as I know all too well what you are going through and my heart goes out to you. Telling your story will help. You were admitted into an exclusive club that no one ever wants to be a member of. Had someone, anyone reached out to me with comforting words, it would have helped me feel less "alone". I wanted to send you some kind of heartfelt words so you know that you are never truly alone, even if the person showing you the support is a complete stranger. Write your story. It will help.