hi my name is brittney. i lost my real dad 4 years ago and to this day it still bugs me.. i cry about everyday still and i want to call him soo badly sometimes but im not able to..i feel like sometimes maybe if i would have called him or visited him more maybe this wouldnt have happend..i just dont get it how could he leave me and his grandson like that and just when i started to get to know him i met him when i was 16 for the first time after that we contacted each other by phone and email..and he came to my graduation and was so proud of me then he came to meet his grandson when he was 3 months old and was soo proud of him..i remeber the last time i talked to him he said he was gonna come visit me in august and then he went and killed hisself august 5th which really hurts i was always his baby girl thats wht he called me i miss him soo much and here im gettin married in dec and i watch all these other videos and stuff of their dad and them having the father daughter dance and all i can think about is man that was one of my wishes to have him there but i know hell be there inside..i just dont know how to get over this after this long someone help me
So sorry for your loss. It's even more difficult in the milestone moments. The only thing has worked for me personally is prayer. Our son took his life 17 years ago and this past week I was finally able to lay that burden at the foot of the cross. I'm grateful to God for accepting my burden, it's too heavy for me, I can not carry it any longer. I pray the God of peace grant you peace. Peace beyond understanding. Whispering a prayer for you. Be blessed.
Brittney, be strong. Its ok. to miss someone so Loved as Dad. Many dont have the privledge to have had a swell Dad. Four years is so short.=, as far as missing him. You were close, loved and respected him. He was a real Dad for you. Grief is the tip of the iceburg as they say. Your doing well. You will get better as time goes by . continue to gibe yourself this time. I lost my Son. bout seven years now and its like yesterday sometimes. I do reminise. I kept some of his ashes, which helps trememdously when i think of him and get too teary. I feel a little twinge of comfort. They sit in a certtain area in the house and has been there since i placed them thee. I have good memories,. I gave good prayers of him. so go ahead and grieve. Its ok;)