My name is Jacqueline. I am 66  yr. old . My wonderful son Chuck committed suicide on Dec. 22. He was 36 yr. old. He was  in a relationship with the mother of his 3 children for 14 yr. and sometime back in the summer he believed that she was cheating on him. Their relationship was rocky to say the least.  She was with him in their home when this occured and I have heard 4 or 5 different versions of what happened. The police called me one time and I still don't have any paper work on anything. There are so many questions.  I called him that morning around 9 am I told him I loved him and he said he loved me and at 4 pm I received a call from my grandson by him, age 11 that CHuck had shot  himself in the head. I can't  get over the thought that she edged him on.

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Hi Jaqueline I am so sorry you have joined us here. with all our sorrow. a lot of people say some of us are downers but i guess everyones situation is different. If i had him to talk to i wouldn't be here if i had done more things right i wouldn't be here. but i am here and very sad. also. I feel your pain. and i am so sorry you have this nightmare to deal with. i can't believe she was there and let this happen and caused such pain to him. it is not right. i am here to chat if you need to. carrie L
Hi, Carrie. Thank you for taking the time to answer me.  I cherish the fact that Chuck and I had really been closer than usual since last summer. I divorced his father when he was almost 3 yr. old. His father died  when Chuck was 13 and he never got over it.  He loved his father very much.  As I said his life wasn't too happy. I am so glad that we talked that day and said we loved each other.  I truly don't believe that he purposely did this, I think he was so upset and it was an accident.   Thank you for taking the time to answer me. Blessings, Jackie

Carrie L said:
Hi Jaqueline I am so sorry you have joined us here. with all our sorrow. a lot of people say some of us are downers but i guess everyones situation is different. If i had him to talk to i wouldn't be here if i had done more things right i wouldn't be here. but i am here and very sad. also. I feel your pain. and i am so sorry you have this nightmare to deal with. i can't believe she was there and let this happen and caused such pain to him. it is not right. i am here to chat if you need to. carrie L
Hi, Carrie. Thank you for taking the time to answer me.  I cherish the fact that Chuck and I had really been closer than usual since last summer. I divorced his father when he was almost 3 yr. old. His father died  when Chuck was 13 and he never got over it.  He loved his father very much.  As I said his life wasn't too happy. I am so glad that we talked that day and said we loved each other.  I truly don't believe that he purposely did this, I think he was so upset and it was an accident.   Thank you for taking the time to answer me. Blessings, Jackie

Carrie L said:
Hi Jaqueline I am so sorry you have joined us here. with all our sorrow. a lot of people say some of us are downers but i guess everyones situation is different. If i had him to talk to i wouldn't be here if i had done more things right i wouldn't be here. but i am here and very sad. also. I feel your pain. and i am so sorry you have this nightmare to deal with. i can't believe she was there and let this happen and caused such pain to him. it is not right. i am here to chat if you need to. carrie L

Ok, Now I understand what you meant by prompting. I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you will get some answers from law inforcement folks.

 

Ok, Now I understand what you meant by prompting. I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you will get some answers from law inforcement folks.

 

my son took his life on laborday 2009 he hung himself oer his wife of 10 month cause she was cheating on him,i come on here every now and then and fall apart every time, there is no sense to it he was my best friend i dont understand any of itits been over a year and i just dont know what todo so lost and confusedi read these stories and when i see loss of a son everything just goes bad for me i miss him so so much i cant stand it i cant believe i am writing all this all i can say is my heart is out to everyone out  here hope it gets better for all of you i stll cry all the time but i see i am not alone and een that doesnt help at times i just wait for time to pass hoping it will get somewhat better i hope things getter better for you and my blessings are out to you


gerard said:
my son took his life on laborday 2009 he hung himself oer his wife of 10 month cause she was cheating on him,i come on here every now and then and fall apart every time, there is no sense to it he was my best friend i dont understand any of itits been over a year and i just dont know what todo so lost and confusedi read these stories and when i see loss of a son everything just goes bad for me i miss him so so much i cant stand it i cant believe i am writing all this all i can say is my heart is out to everyone out  here hope it gets better for all of you i stll cry all the time but i see i am not alone and een that doesnt help at times i just wait for time to pass hoping it will get somewhat better i hope things getter better for you and my blessings are out to you
thank  you for taking the time to answer. Do you have any other family to talk to? I have my wonderful husband and a foster daughter who has been wonderful. Are you involved with a church  group? I know some have blamed God but  I don't. I know God loves my children and grandchildren more than I ever could.          Take care and God bless. Love Jackie

gerard said:
my son took his life on laborday 2009 he hung himself oer his wife of 10 month cause she was cheating on him,i come on here every now and then and fall apart every time, there is no sense to it he was my best friend i dont understand any of itits been over a year and i just dont know what todo so lost and confusedi read these stories and when i see loss of a son everything just goes bad for me i miss him so so much i cant stand it i cant believe i am writing all this all i can say is my heart is out to everyone out  here hope it gets better for all of you i stll cry all the time but i see i am not alone and een that doesnt help at times i just wait for time to pass hoping it will get somewhat better i hope things getter better for you and my blessings are out to you
Greetings Shari, My email is wackyjackie89@comcast.net and I live in Thomasville,Pa. Today was a bad day in that I received a beautful wall plaque with my son's picture on  it from the place where he worked at and a lovely letter from his boss. I was happy to receive it but I have done nothin but sob all afternooon.  I miss Chuck so much and have nothing  but problems with the woman that he shared the last 14 yr. with and  haven't seen m grandchildren  in awhile. Hope to hear from you soon. I have free long distance calling if you would like me to call you. Blessings, Jackie Rowles
Shari Soklow said:

Dear Jacqueline,

 

I really would like to connect with you as we have much in common and can console each other!

I am also 66 years old, and feel like I have lived too long to see this happen to my son!

My Beloved Son Howard committed suicide on Dec. 28. He was 44 yr.old.

He also shot himself in the head!

Can you please contact me?  I would like to be friends with you!

 

Shari

Good morn. It's Sat. March 5 and I am praying that today is a better day than yesterday. I too have days where all I do is walk around  and  scream and cry or  just sleep.  IF anyone wishes to contact me and talk  my email is wackyjackie89@comcast.net                      Jacqueline  Rowles said:
thank  you for taking the time to answer. Do you have any other family to talk to? I have my wonderful husband and a foster daughter who has been wonderful. Are you involved with a church  group? I know some have blamed God but  I don't. I know God loves my children and grandchildren more than I ever could.          Take care and God bless. Love Jackie

gerard said:
my son took his life on laborday 2009 he hung himself oer his wife of 10 month cause she was cheating on him,i come on here every now and then and fall apart every time, there is no sense to it he was my best friend i dont understand any of itits been over a year and i just dont know what todo so lost and confusedi read these stories and when i see loss of a son everything just goes bad for me i miss him so so much i cant stand it i cant believe i am writing all this all i can say is my heart is out to everyone out  here hope it gets better for all of you i stll cry all the time but i see i am not alone and een that doesnt help at times i just wait for time to pass hoping it will get somewhat better i hope things getter better for you and my blessings are out to you
I feel your pain Jackie my son Andy was 30 and he shot himself 12/10/10 and with it being so close to christmas I just lost my spirit and I'm slowly getting it back but, what really hurts is the manner he did this and the fact that he left a wife and six children I still can't believe he did it ,he was so full of life and such a happy person, I talked to him 15 minutes before he did this when I tried to call him back there was no answer, he called me and kept saying that he Loved me I should have realized something was wrong but me being in another city I just feel I should have been there and I know he would not have done it had I been there and that's the quilt I live with daily..........

this is gerard tims dad that passed away on labor day 2009 he hung  himself thank you so much shari for the poem i am so lost and well f>?>??>?>? in my head to be honest i see no hope for me at times but someone seems to say things i need to hear and it gets me by   for now i wish the best for everyone and wish i was not part of this group but thats life i guess i pray for all of you ladies and men this is where we are all equal in our sorrow here i go babling again sorry iam no quitter but sometimes it seems like in dont want to go on but the pain he caused in my heart i dont want to be the same to my family if you know what imean and io know you know my daughter is now pregnant i think its gods way of helping me bless everyone here thank you for sharing here  gerard 

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