thanks runtrat for your post. I was also familiar with bipolar but yet I just let them slip right by me. I didn't dream that he would ever do this. I must have been in complete denial. I am also tormented about his soul, where did it go and is he ok
I am going through the same kind of emotions because of the death of my husband. The what ifs never seem to stop. Today is my husband's birthday as well as the 10 month anniversary of his death. I keep thinking that if only I had done more, loved him more...well you get the idea. Like you, I had 2 relatives ask me if I was still grieving and that I needed to move on. They are the ones with the problem. We loved the one we lost and will grieve for however long it takes. I'm beginning to think that the grieving never stops but does change. I will keep your family in my prayers.