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Bereaved Spouses

A continutaion of the "When a Spouse or Partner Dies" thread.

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Comment by Ginni Engel on November 21, 2009 at 1:34am
Hello everyone. I am sitting here reading what everyone has written. It has been 3 years since I lost my husband. My daughter and I came home from my all girl birthday dinner and found him on the floor. He was purple. I tried to give him CPR, no response. I never got to say goodbye to him. He was just gone. My heart aches, I never wanted my daughter to see what she saw that night. Gary, too, was an awesome man, a man that everyone wanted to be around. He was my best friend, lover, confidant and he is missed more than words can say. I want to tell you it gets easier, not neccessarily better, but easier to live as time goes on. I find myself breathing easier, my sense of smell has come back - or at least I notice aromas again. I even see myself in the next year or so, ready to "date" again. That is, if I can find someone who can put up with me! You see, Gary was the love of my life - but my life isn't over yet. Even though, after Gary died, I thought it was. Gary would want me to move on, and yes, I feel guilty for even thinking of it...but life must go on. I love love. I love to be in love and I need to be loved. Gary was my inspiration in the life we had together. Now is the time for me to find out what else can inspire me to be the best I can be.... Don't close down, do weep, scream and get mad! Get it out of your system. Feel your feelings, feel your pain, own it. But remember that life goes on. You will feel like you are going through the motions ( Somedays I still do ), but everyday you make it through, is another day of the pain easing up. I find myself smiling, joking around and yes, feeling that someday I could love again. I want ot love again!!! Gary and I had a great relationship - a great love. I want that again. I want to sip wine with someone, hold hands, snuggle and I know that Gary would want me too. It may be a couple more years before I take the 1st step and put myself out there. But I can see it happening. I see my life, I see who I am again, and I like what I see. We are all strong people, our relationships made us strong. Own it. Ginni
Comment by linda woodbridge on November 20, 2009 at 10:42pm
HELLO EVERYONE,
I AM HAVING A VERY HARD TIME TONIGHT.NOV.21/08.MY HUSBAND BOB PASSED AWAY FROM TERMINAL COLIN CANCER.HE PUT HIMSELF BACK INTO HOSPICE.THAT WAS ON NOV.11/08, HE PASSED AWAY ON NOV.21/08, AROUND 11PM, WE THINK. I SPOKE TO HIM AT 9PM THAT NIGHT. HE SOUNDED OK. I GOT THE CALL AT 8AM NEXT DAY. IN A BLINK OF AN EYE MY LIFE HAS CHANGED FOREVER! I KNOW HOW MUCH YOU ALL HURT, I PRAY WE CAN ALL COME THROUGH THIS.THE TYPE OF PAIN I FEEL IS SO BAD, I MISS MY HUSBAND BOB.HE WAS ALSO MY VERY BEST FRIEND. BOB KEPT TELLING ME HE WOULD STAY AS LONG AS HE COULD.BLESS HIS BIG LOVING KIND HEART. HE FOUHGT SO HARD TO BE WITH ME. I AM SO NOT EVEN READY TO STEP INTO THE REAL WORL YET. WHAT DO I DO WITH OUT MY BOB? I TRIED TO GO TO A GROUP, I COULD NOT LOOK AT THE FILMS THEY SHARED I HAD TO LEAVE. I TRIED FIVE TIMES.TWENTY EIGHT YEARS WENT BY SO FAST. LIFE IS FAST AND CAN BE VERY HARD.I FEEL VERY SICK RIGHT NOW. THANK YOU ALL FOR LETTING ME BE HERE.YOUR FRIEND, LINDA
Comment by Denise MacCallum on November 20, 2009 at 7:28pm
The holidays are upon us and I'm not ready for them without my best friend and love of my life....Robbie passed away on 10/20/09 from lung and liver cancer...He only lived for 3 months....I still can't believe that he is gone....I just want to be alone for the holidays and not see anyone....The pain has been unbearable at times....
Miss him so so much...
Denise
Comment by Brigitte on November 20, 2009 at 3:06pm
My best friend, soul mate and husband died on July 17, 2009 from complications due to end stage Parkinson's disease. He had just turned 62 and we celebrated our 26th wedding anniversary. Douglas was diagnosed with Parkinson's when he was 38 -- we had been married two years. He was and is the love of my life. I miss him so very much and with the holidays upon me I am dreading them like never before. Douglas was under Hospice care for the last 10 days of his life. On the day he died I had to have him transported to the Hospice center from home because he was no longer able to swallow the morphine. To watch a beautiful person slip away like that and not being able to stop it is without a doubt the most difficult thing I have ever had to endure. Someone asked me how I would describe the pain -- "it is like going to the dentist and having a shot to numb the area -- after that numbness wears off the pain begins" -- and I am deep in the middle of pain. Crying does help, and screaming into my pillow has given me some joy! Before Douglas died I told him that he would always be my hero and guardian angel. Everytime I see a feather I know he is with me -- and I have seen a lot of feathers since July 17, 2009. That gives me great comfort. I know what each of you is feeling. As we struggle to discover our "new" normal because our "old" normal has been forever changed, may we always be able to share our story, our words of encouragement, and our love for each other as well as our spouses. They would have wanted that! In peace, Brigitte
Comment by judy on November 20, 2009 at 1:01pm
My dear, sweet husband, richard died feb. 10,2009.My depression is worse than ever, and I really dont know if i am going to live through this. I wish i had died, rich could have handled this better.I miss him so very much! judy latty
Comment by Sheryl on November 19, 2009 at 8:13am
I lost my husband Nov 2, 2009 at home. He suffered 3 1/2 yrs with Pancriatic Cancer. Surgery and an early diagnosis gave him the extra time, but the last yr. was the hardest. I have been in denial that I would loose him, and now it is really tough. Going back to work this week was harder than I thought, it is like the grieving started at day 1 again. I can relate to sherry eagen with her husbands loss. All the paper work associated really aggitates me, although my husband really thought ahead and tried to do all he could to prevent extra work for me. He was the love of my life for 39 yrs., we met when I was 16 and he was 17. He served in the Marines for 3 yrs., Vietnam vet and father of 3. How do I find out who I am now, and how do I go from here. We did everything together.
Comment by Alberta L Priest on November 19, 2009 at 12:44am
I lost my husband on 10/20/09 of lung cancer i miss him very much i have a hard time cooking for one because he cooked for the both of us Geema 325
Comment by Pam Freeman on November 18, 2009 at 9:11am
I am new to this group, but have been grieving the love of my life for just over two years. He left this world of pain on November 4, 2007, two days before my birthday. He died of complications of MRSA, which had slowly shut down his organs. He received an LVAD (Left Ventricular Assist Device) in 2006, which did the work of the left side of his heart. That miracle gave us an additional 18 months together, which I treasure and am eternally grateful for, but it was so difficult to watch the MRSA slowly kill him. I am still grieving terribly. I have shut a lot of people out because of hurtful but well-meaning comments. I don't think I will ever marry again. My man, fondly referred to as my "hunka burnin' love" was my forever love, and I am still struggling to find my identity without him, feeling ripped open and torn in half. I feel so badly for those of you who have just lost your mate. The first year I was numb and robotic. The second year was when the pain of my loss really set in. As I face the next year, I have hope that the grief will lift a little more, and I can begin to see life after this horrific loss.
Comment by sherry eagen on November 17, 2009 at 7:01pm
My husband passed away Nov. 7th, 2009. He was diagnosed with terminal cancer Oct. 8th, 2009. He was at home when he died and I was his caretaker. I seem to be doing ok, but then a thought of him comes into my head, or I touch something that was his, and I start crying again. How long will this last...
Comment by Kathy on November 17, 2009 at 10:51am
I'm new here. Removed my husband from life support two years ago today and he passed away on November 19, 2007. Reliving the pain again and having a hard time.
 

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