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Comment by Marsha H on September 22, 2020 at 4:29am

Dear Trina ...

You should never worry about posting your fears, anxiety or loneliness because we are all in the same boat. I'm one of them.  Covid is here and it's being treated differently than other virus' and suddenly our world is turned upside down; people wearing masks; some rubber gloves; standing in line-ups; cowering away from others for fear of contracting it.  We are all human and miss the hugs, smiles and not the distancing and fearful looks of so many people we see not to mention loneliness.  Those who have passed from Covid my heart goes out to and just like here where I live you can't even have a Celebration of Life or a Funeral. 

Do you have a pet?  I only mention this as my 2 dogs keep me sane and others who have pets say the same thing.  They give warmth and love to us when we can't receive it with humans.  I know you have to be so careful with your breathing difficulties, but could you go for a nature walk where there are fewer people?  You can order food to your door like so many here do here.  

I live just outside of Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada and we aren't hit as hard as the States.  We are not as restrictive as the U.S.  We do wear face masks and more so with the smoke that blew up from the California fires another horrific and tragic event. 

I apologize for not answering your post or others as death does not take a holiday.  I know no one so far (a miracle) that has passed from Covid, but my dear girlfriend of 45 years lost her sister 2 years ago; then her husband last year in April and I've been helping her go through the tragedy of her 47 year old daughter battling cancer only to succumb to it in July.  The family had a private graveside service.  Now her only sibling; her 84 year old brother may have a cancerous mass on his bladder and my poor friend wonders what on earth is going on.   I often visit my friend and we do manage to have some laughs, but I know the look of a light dimmed in the eyes of those who have lost someone and it takes time to let them grieve.  I can visit her and we wear masks and stay 6 feet apart.  It is the large groups we are not allowed to have. 

I am trying to plan out this winter (going to be rough on all of us who get snow) to keep myself sane.  I am fortunate to have friends or family phone me every so often and some of the Bible Study Group members and am blessed with wonderful neighbors next door checking in on me.  I take the dogs to a park not far from me that has very few people there and also there is Kilby Park that is the same.  I go grocery shopping because I can see other humans and if lucky see a wave my way. 

I left a post awhile back with tips for Covid and by no means did I not take the U.S. seriously with the amount of people sick or dying from this virus.  It is good to get out for a short walk if possible and try not to listen too much about the virus on the media.  We have to try to reach back to our childhood when we were afraid of something and pull magic out of our hats and by planning out a routine that will keep you busy at home and with your doctor's permission mask up and go for short walks once a day. 

I too have my ups and downs with this virus and the world as we once knew it, but being 79 soon I'm a gritty old bag and I'm not going to let this manage my new lifestyle and just be cautious by wearing masks, rubber gloves or sanitizers. 

I hope everyone on here can feel free to speak your minds and we all know no one judges.  I am actually shocked more don't do so on this forum.  It connects all of us and we don't feel so alone. 

Love & Hugs and stay healthy & safe!


Comment by Marsha H on September 22, 2020 at 3:46am

Dear Steve ...

My deepest condolences on the loss of your dear friend Julio.  Thank you for sharing some of life of Julio which I found interesting and an honor to him.  I always feel in some conversations saying the name of a person we cared for or loved and then deceased keeps the memories and their legacy alive that we shared with them.  

I pray for you and Charles and that both of you stay safe and healthy.  

Love & Hugs

Your sis Marsha

Comment by Charles E. Nelson on September 21, 2020 at 10:10pm

My apologies  - I seem unable to copy the piece I wrote here - I will try again later some different way - 


Comment by Charles E. Nelson on September 21, 2020 at 10:02pm

Dear Trina,

I want to thank you - for your thoughtful and loving reply to Steve, and for the way you so honestly and sincerely shared with us all your fears and anxiety during this nightmare in which we find ourselves. No, you couldn't offend anyone here with such candor. Rather you have given us all something with which we can relate as we experience our own losses and feelings ranging from sadness to outrage.

I saw how deeply affected by the loss of his friend Steve was as he told me of his passing and his story. I listened a few weeks ago as Larry's daughter-in-law told me on the phone how her husband cries in private over the loss of his mother in February. I read texts and emails from a new friend who was going down hard grieving for the loss of his sweet little dog Gigi who was his constant companion and like a daughter to him. My cousin brought me to tears a week ago describing the permanent rift between her and her sister  created after the loss of their father a year ago, and how she realizes now that she is grieving both losses equally. 

For myself, I guess my personal feelings of loss go directly to the seemingly insurmountable challenge of communication with those who have chosen to value political ideology over the value of human life. This from folks who scream constantly about right to life legislation and proclaim loudly from the rafters their worship of God and their belief in the Bible. Yet somehow they don't see the grief caused by the loss of 200,000 souls - sons and daughters, mothers and fathers, all remembered and wept over by their survivors. 

This feeling of anger runs through me now almost constantly like a low voltage current that buzzes softly in the recesses of my brain. I would scream and march and riot if I possibly could I think. I feel helpless and useless with only the sane dear loving presence of Steve to keep me from exploding. I feel so bad for you being isolated in this weirdly distorted country surrounded by mindless followers of ...what? A lie? A false prophet? I am sad that you are having physical reactions to this stress, but I also believe there are many many of us who are feeling the terrific toll all this insanity is causing. 

The virus is just that - a virus. Intelligent mindful behavior and adherence to common sense medical and scientifically based guidance combined with a sense of responsibility to all other people's health and well-being shouldn't be the exception or even debatable. What has happened to so many of the people in this country?

Anyway, I wrote the piece I posted last week but hesitated to post it because, like you, I wasn't sure how it would be received.  Now I just want to share it with you and all my very much loved Legacy family, because in some ways you all seem to be the last pocket of sanity I have in this world with whom I can honestly share my feelings - BLESS all of you for that!

Trina, stay safe and hold tight to all the good and beauty and love in your heart that you so generously give to us all here time and time again. Now feel our love flowing back bring you strength and peace.

Love and prayers always,


Comment by Trina Mamoon on September 21, 2020 at 4:11pm

Dear Steve,

I read the article on the link just now. It is indeed very sad that the survivors of COVID are facing a new set of challenges and difficulties that make their grief even harder to bear. Thanks again for bringing this tragic and sad reality for us to consider.

I have been afraid to post on this forum about my fears and anxiety over COVID as I thought that I might anger someone on this forum by sharing what I have been going through since March, since the lockdown happened. I have been living in isolation in a new city (I moved to Indiana just before the pandemic), and I have been suffering from isolation and loneliness. I am afraid to go out for groceries or even for a walk by myself because so many people do not wear a face mask. I will be turning 60 next month, and I have a chronic upper respiratory condition, so getting the COVID for me could be fatal. Now because of the anxiety, I have high blood pressure which I am trying to bring under control with medication, exercise, and diet.

This pandemic has been extremely rough for me, as I am sure as it has been for millions of people across the nation who are facing similar challenges like me--age, health issues, isolation--that make living through this even harder.

The pandemic is a tragic reality that people all over the world have been struggling with for the better part of 2020. But unfortunately, many of the public response to the pandemic has made the situation even tougher for people like me. It is compounded when you are an immigrant from a Muslim country like myself.

The anxiety over masks (people not wearing them in public) and being unable to do anything about it has caused my new health condition, high blood pressure (according to my doctor). COVID is causing other physical and emotional and psychological problems for many people. It is very real.

I hope and pray that this pandemic will pass sooner than we think and that people here and in the rest of the world will be spared this virus and that we can go back to living a normal life again in the not too distant future.

Thanks for the opportunity, Steve, to be able to share my anxiety on this forum. I hope no one will take badly what I said here honestly about the reality, the real challenges I am facing.

Stay safe and stay well.

Hugs, Trina

Comment by Steve G. on September 21, 2020 at 1:49pm

Thank you Trina, unfortunately, those survivors of the fallen from Covid face a new realm of grief.  The link I posted discusses those challenges.  They are confronted every day by the news media and even some have had confrontations with family and friends that do understand or worse believe all the conspiracies.

A very sad day for us all.



Comment by Trina Mamoon on September 21, 2020 at 1:32pm

Thank you, Steve, for honoring the memory of your friend Julio who died of COVID and for sharing with us here. It's very sad.

My cousin, who was 58 years old, died of COVID in May. He left behind his loving wife and two teenage daughters. My cousin's story is similar to your friend's.

200,000 people have now perished by the virus. Can you imagine the grief and desperation of all the family members that these deaths have caused? We are living in a time of great sorrow and loss. These are harsh times and could get even worse by December as the scientific and medical projections note.

Praying for you and Chuck and everyone else on this forum to be safe and well.

Hugs, Trina

Comment by Steve G. on September 21, 2020 at 7:38am

Today I am posting a link to a story I found online about grief, specifically the Covid-19 survivors from the 200,000 souls lost to the pandemic.

I see facebook posts about it being a hoax, or folks saying that they do not anyone who has it or who has died.

In honor of my friend and former co-worker in South Florida.

He was 58, Mark and I met him while working in a call center in Tamarac, FL.  He eventually left the call center and got a new job elsewhere.  We remained friends all these years and was quite moved by Mark's passing in 2014; this past week I found out that he died from the virus.  He was 52 and left behind his wife and teen age daughter besides his large extended family.  Julio arrived in America as a 10 year old boy, placed into a raft by his parents to get him out of Cuba.  He did not know how to speak English and all he had was a note with his nearest relatives phone number in his pocket.   Quite a story on it's own, but he made it, learned English, went to school and the US his home by becoming a citizen.  

I will miss his humor and his artwork, (he posted his sketches on FB, very talented).  RIP my friend, I am sure you and Mark will have a grand time catching up.

Comment by Mary. Jane on September 11, 2020 at 10:59pm

WOW...I have no words..awesome

Comment by Chicago Beard on September 11, 2020 at 2:00pm


Went to you tube and checked out "Where Is The Love." She has a very contemporary sound. She does have a nice voice though her music is not what I like to listen to. I gave the video a like.


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