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Comment by Charley Solyom on October 18, 2013 at 2:26pm

So what do you do when your step-daughter wants no part of you when mom dies. She is so self-centered and only thinks of herself. I want to continue to see my granddaughter but she won't reply. Hope you are all staying strong...we have to, don't we.

Comment by Marsha H on October 18, 2013 at 2:09pm

Robin ...  Thanks for understanding re the doctors.  I'm in British Columbia, Canada and my doctor is semi-retired, but said he and his partner are looking for a young GP to take over the practice and many new GPs are coming out of med school.  What hurt me the most was that my GP use to be so caring, but now it appears he's rushing just to get out the door (my appointment was at noon and he didn't have anymore patients.)  A hand on my shoulder and some encouraging words he once use to give me would have been nice.  He did talk to me and was pleasant, but that was it.  When doubt, either write out a prescription or send the patient for blood tests!  Back to square one!

I am so sorry your anniversary is coming up and I know exactly how you feel.  It's wonderful of you to take your mother on vacation and I think it will do the both of you the world of good.  You both have something in common.  You have a wonderful time and rest and just enjoy the sun and relax.  I'll be thinking of you.

It was strange how I met this lady and she looked as lost and sad as I did.  I do believe miracles happen all the time.  She still has her spouse, but I do understand when a child has passed away (no matter what their age) it's horrific and both parents generally hold in their emotions from someone and the mother always seems to have the worst grieving.  I know because my mother-in-law had a son that passed away at 25 and even though she had three other sons and a daughter you just can't replace or get over the one child you lost. 

My father passed away in 1973, my in-laws in the mid-90's and my mother in 2004 so now I live in the area where they all lived and since my husband has passed away I feel so alone because I'm the only survivor within the area I live.  Not a nice feeling.  I am lucky I have one great girlfriend and my small immediate family is good to me (I have no children.)  I try to take each blessing as best I can. 

I wish you a peaceful and great weekend Robin.  Look forward to that holiday!



Comment by Marsha H on October 18, 2013 at 1:58pm

Hi Wilela ... Thank you!  Yes, it is nice to meet this new friend.  She looks lost as well so I hope we can help each other.  She looked as lonely as I did walking along the dyke.  Generally I have my girlfriend go for walks with me, but she had to pick up her grandson from school.

I will have no alternative, but to try out the antidepressants, but Wilela, so many medications can react on me and I was even terrified to try them when Ernie was here.  My girlfriend told me that she'd be around when I start them.  Still, the feeling of an antidepressant side effect is terrifying and like one bad visit to a dentist you never forget.  Even my doctor told me yesterday that I have a unique system (body chemistry) and I don't know if that's true or he's too lazy to figure things out.  I am so tired of doctors, blood tests, etc.  It brings back so many memories of Ernie. 

Thanks for your encouraging words and concern as always my friend.

It's foggy here today, but it will eventually burn off and I hope in time to take the dogs for a walk.

I hope you have a good weekend Wilela.  You deserve it!



Comment by Carol Kayser on October 18, 2013 at 12:40pm

Hello Robin.  I am far behind on posts but I just read your plans for taking your mom on vacation in November,  that is a wonderful and sweet gesture.  I hope you have a lovely time and come back renewed.  You and your mom have been through so much, you deserve to have a nice break away.




Comment by Barbara Sullivan on October 18, 2013 at 8:47am

Dear Robin -- How wonderful that you can give your Mom the vacation in November, with you.  We all know how important it is to do things with our loved ones while we still have them -- and I think it is very thoughtful of you to want to share this time with her, even though it was meant to be your anniversary trip with your husband.

May you share good memories and good times and return refreshed and un-stressed.  

Comment by Marsha H on October 17, 2013 at 11:12pm

Just wanted to share with you on a blessing I got today.  As some of us know when our spouses pass away some friends seem disappear for whatever reason and it is a shock (at least to me) and can be lonely.  I have made a couple of new friends, but today was such a beautiful crisp, sunny day and I took my dogs for a walk on the dyke.  Ahead of me was a lady coming towards me and when she got up to me she smiled and told me we'd met during the summer and she had been trying to find me ever since.  She is the nicest lady and my age; still has her spouse, but was sad to hear that her 53 year old son passed away from a sudden heart attack (she has 2 other sons) but she's grieving and finding it difficult.  We hit it right off and I gave her a ride home so we'll be getting together soon.  It made me feel a little more like my life is taking shape in some small way.

Also saw my doctor today about the great weight loss I had and when I weight myself on my scales I'm 94 lbs, but he said I was 98 lbs today. I asked if I could have a radioactive dye thyroid test as the blood work-up for it is not 100%, but he said he didn't want to do that and he didn't answer me when I asked why so off for another blasted blood test.  Is anyone listening?  LOL   He wants me to go on Celexa an antidepressant that will put weight on me, but I find that's just a Band-Aid.  At my age I'm trying to stay away from as many medications as possible, but at the end of my rope so will have to bite the bullet.

Comment by Marsha H on October 17, 2013 at 10:44pm

Hi Mark ...  I knew what you meant about your wife teasing you.  I was a little stinker for purposely getting my husband to look for something difficult in the grocery store.   He would come back and tell me there was no such thing and he was right!  We'd have a good laugh over that one. I use to do all the grocery shopping, but one day he made the mistake of saying I spent too much on groceries (I got the essentials for us and we weren't into junk food) so I made him come with me so he could see how the price of food was going up and he never complained again.  LOL

What a wonderful memory you have of your dear wife.

Comment by Marsha H on October 17, 2013 at 10:41pm

Robin ...  How wonderful that is for you!  I know people grieving want to try and hide it, but sometimes it just doesn't work out that way and why should it!  We loved and missed our spouses and their memories are so clear for us right now.  It does get better with the tears, but when I feel like crying I just let go.  I take a few minutes to catch my breath and then try to say something funny to take away any awkwardness with whomever I'm with.  It's OK to cry and your grief is so raw.  I am also happy to hear you have a good relationship with your in-laws.  They too are grieving. 

When some of us say on this forum 'we are stronger than we think' it's true so when a time comes where we don't cry it surprises us.  You should be proud of yourself, but also, grief in early stages and even a few years down the road can bring a tear or two so don't let it make you feel you are going backwards if it should happen.

You seem to have a good idea of what to expect from grief to a degree (unchartered territory for most of us) and it's difficult to come home and not see our spouses, but you are expecting that.  Eventually most of us get into a routine of being without our spouses which makes it a little easier.  Like you, I try to enjoy the times when the tears don't flow. 

I hope you have a great time on your vacation.  Odd how some people who are grieving can go on a holiday and others prefer to stick it out in familiar territory for the time being and I'm one of those.  My girlfriend and I are hoping to either go to Vegas or Hawaii next year and I sure hope I'm up to it as I could use a change of scenery. 

Good thoughts and prayers coming your way Robin.



Comment by Mark Jackson on October 17, 2013 at 3:04pm

I should I maybe been a little clearer on my wife laughing at me. You see I'm a scatter brain, and I would forget my head if it wasn't attached. She always told me she thought it was cute. Sometimes while we were shopping she would send me off to get her a couple of things just to see if I could remember where they were. I'd do good most of the time, but sometimes I wouldn't. Both of us would just laugh and she would say it was OK, and she would show me were it was for the next time. Some times I think she would come up with different things just to make me run all over the store. She knew that I would try and do anything that she asked of me. Even though she was in a wheelchair we both knew that if you can't laugh at yourself your really in trouble. So it wasn't a bad thing. I can see her now, shaking her head and laughing with a big smile on her face. I don't think anybody took it as a bad thing, I just wanted to make it a little clearer.

Comment by Barbara Sullivan on October 17, 2013 at 7:35am

Mark -- The first time I shopped for food after Chris passed, my daughter went with me.  She dropped me off at the food store and left to run some errands.  After I finished shopping I sat on a bench waiting for her and watching the other shoppers -- it seemed every shopper was one half of a couple.  Oh, how it hurt to watch those other couples! Chris and I always shopped together. I looked forward to it almost like a date.  

I took it for as long as I could, then used my cell phone to call my daughter -- by the time she arrived to pick me up, I could barely hold back the tears -- as a matter of fact, I couldn't.  I just said, "Get me OUT of here!"  Daughter was alarmed and started to fuss over me, but all I could say was, "Get me out of here, please!"  By the time she got me and my groceries to the car I was shaking from the effort of holding back the tears - I cried all the way home.

Now, six months later, I can drive to the store, do my shopping and get myself home.  I still keep my head down (looking at my list, or the items on the shelves) and pay little attention to other shoppers.  I have started to shop at different stores and find I am actually buying different items, trying new products and while it is strange to see these things on my shelves and in my refrigerator -- it feels a little like a victory, as I look back and remember that first shopping trip after losing my Chris.  It never gets easy, but it gets easier. 

Much love and prayers for peace and comfort.



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