How Long Is This Grieving Going to Last?

By Elizabeth Harper Neeld, Ph.D.

I don’t think you ever get over the loss in your heart. I think you have to acknowledge the fact that, when you love someone and that person is gone, you’re going to miss him or her. And that has nothing to do with your spiritual strength or trust or even with whether you’ve been true to your grieving. It’s a perfectly human thing to continue to miss [someone] who has died. When Christmastime comes, Christmas Eve, and there’s no Cliff who’s going to walk in the door with a big sack of presents and say, ”Hi, Mom!” I have a hard time.

But there’s no agonizing over Cliff now. There is peace and a quiet calmness. Dean and I are comfortable with the situation. If something beautiful happens or we’re somewhere Cliff would have been with us, we’ll say, “Hi, Cliff, wish you could see this…how’s it going, ol’ boy?” Something like that, but it’s not heavy.
(Excerpt from Seven Choices by Elizabeth Harper Neeld)

We feel so bad when we are grieving that it is not a surprise when we wonder, “How long will I have this terrible pain? Will this suffering ever end?”

To talk about this, we need to think about two kinds of time.

There is chronos time.

This is the kind of time measured by a calendar. Chronos time is counted in days, weeks, months, years. Chronos time describes a continuum of past, present, and future. It is the kind of time measured by clocks. A simple way to talk about chronos is as physical time.

Then there is kairos time.

Kairos time refers to “the time within which personal life moves forward.” The movement we experience as a result of moments of awakening or realization measures Kairos time. Kairos time refers to a deepening process that results from our paying attention to the present moment, a process through which we are “drawn inside the movement of our own story.” Kairos is an ordered but unmeasured kind of time outside space-time.

We might be tempted to measure the time of our grieving in chronos time. “Oh, it’s been a year—four seasons have passed—I should be ok by now.” Someone may suggest, “Give yourself a few months. You’ll feel like yourself again.” But it is not useful to measure our grieving in chronos time. In fact, chronos time is helpful only in that it gives us a span within which to experience our own kairos time. To think that because a certain amount of time has passed we should be farther along in our grieving is to set up a false measure of how well we are going. The mere passing of days and weeks and months and years does not within itself bring integration of our loss.

What matters is kairos time. What insights have I had? What have I realized? What meaning am I making of this terrible loss? We each have our own “entelechy”—to use a term from anthropology—that means our own “immanent force controlling and directing development.”

The amount of calendar time it takes to reach integration in our grieving is determined by our own kairos time, through our own entelechy. That’s why is no right or wrong amount of time an individual should take to grieve.

All that being said, what else can we note about time and grieving?

From my own experience and from the research I’ve done for decades on the grieving process, I can say this: the amount of time each of us takes to reach integration of our loss is usually longer rather than shorter.

What do I mean by this?

That the amount of kairos time it takes each of us to reach a place where the loss is integrated into our lives but does not dominate our lives is longer than “the person on the street” might suggest. Many folks around us would like for the process to be shorter rather than longer because they are not comfortable with the whole experience of grieving. As a society, we have cultural practices that suggest grieving should be short. (Don’t, for instance, many government workers get three days off when they lose a family member?)

The good news is that healthy grieving does result, at the time right for each of us, in an experience of integration. We take stock and say: I am changed by our loss, and I have changed my live as a result of my loss. And we are not shriveled permanently like a dry stick because of our loss. We can feel alive again…probably wiser, maybe quieter, certainly full of gratitude and a desire to contribute from what we have been through.

And all in good time. All in good kairos time.

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Dr. Elizabeth Harper Neeld offers wisdom and practical insights born of personal experience to people rebuilding their lives after suffering grief and loss. As an internationally recognized and accomplished consultant, advisor, and author of more than twenty books - including Tough Transitions and Seven Choices: Finding Daylight After Loss Shatters Your World - she is committed to work that helps lift the human spirit.


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People grieve differently. No one is the same and it takes patience. What may help is focusing on positive things ( Philippians 4:8,9)
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Sat., Oct. 15, when I called to say I'd be coming in, the nurse advised me to be ready to spend the night. I packed up my air mattress and so on. While there, I leaned on the bed to be as close to her as possible, holding and stroking her.

Then she was in what I think is Cheyne-Stokes respiration, a deep inbreath quickly followed by an outbreath. I was counting those to time them per minute.

Then she was just taking short inbreaths, maybe every 3-5 seconds, with no audible outbreath.

I was leaning over her, counting those, when "From the bed came a labored breath that was not followed by another." (Lois McMaster Bujold, The Hallowed Hunt, Ch. 21.)

I put my hand to her nostrils, back-up to hopefully feel the breath stirring the fine hairs on the back of the hand.

Nothing.

I held her close a minute or two, then pushed the call button. The nurse confirmed. So the official time was about 4 minutes after the actual time.

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But i am oh, so sad.

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my world came crashing down on november 29, 2009 around 11pm I had just gone to bed and there was a knock at the door. I thought it was my son and daughter in law. I opened the door to see a sherrifs deputy his first question to me was how I knew Sylvia Pittman I exclaimed she was my daughter in law then he asked me about Gerald Jr. I knew then something was wrong however, I thought they were at the hospital my mind was racing I had to get dressed and go to the hospital there has been an accident. Then he informed there had been an accident and my family was killed. My 29yr old son, 27yr old daughter in law and my only grandchild 5yrs old. I collapsed in hysteria my family was gone. We were very close I had to call my mom, dad, ex husband and my other son have them all come over so they could all be told at the same time what had happened. I will never forget that night it will haunt me forever. My picture is of me with my two sons, daughter in law and grandson at easter. This easter was hard for me I did not have my little peepie (grandson) to color eggs with or help hunt for eggs. I did spend it with my aunt and her girls and their kids and grandkids. But I miss my family we were toghether everyday Now I have this big empty hole in my life that can never be filled. Sometimes I wish I were dead too just so I could be with them but I know I must go on. I do not know what God has planned for me but I know he has something big. He spared me when I broke my neck in 1992 much to my doctors amazement as my Dr. stated I should have been dead or paralyzed I was neither. Sometimes I think back and wonder why did he just not take me then and save me this pain I feel. Not a day goes by that I don't think of them. I am having trouble in accepting they are really gone in my mind they have just moved back to TN. Until some legal matter comes up then reality hits.
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I lost my husband May 18, 2009..I cry nearly everyday..I have seen a grief counselor one on one and have been reading books on grief and Loss..I am still searching for a grief group but as of yet have not found one..just the mention of my husbands name and going through the first year of special occasions without him is so painful..I set up a Memorial Website and Journal to invite friends and family to enter fond memories. we were married 48 years on March 17 my first year without him. He is so deeply missed by myself and family..I have been taking one day at a time
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At a grief counseling class we were told that crying is a good thing because there was a study done on tears and it revealed that at each stage of grief we put out a different type of tear. They say, it is good to relieve yourself of these tears.
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After we lost my Dad, my mom told me "You never get over it" and I realize how right she was. Both of my folks have been gone since the early 80's and this weekend I put to rest my beautiful wife of only 10 months (August 17, 2008). The fact that we worked in the same place, which is where we met, is going to be a mixed bag. I'll have support, but also those memories. I still cry at times when I think about my folks, I just don't know how I'm going to now have to handle thinking about 3 people, especially at big holidays and special days.
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my son has been gone for two years and four months and the pain is harder than it was before everyday it seems harder to bare. He was my only son and it feels as though my whole world crumbled down I feel nothing and at time I say to myself why? Why did this have to happen and I get no answers. I miss and love my son so much, I cry at night hoping that it will help ease the hurt but it doesn't. He was my only child and the day he passed I feel my life just stopped.
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