Well been almost 22 months and I don't feel like much has changed in my way of grief.  My parents are still crippled and i find it really hard to get near acceptance.  I guess we don't get over death.  With xmas here soon It breaks my heart. I'm not sure i will ever enjoy xmas the same for many years to come. I know that my brother would want me to live life to the max and move on. Im gonna do my…