September 2nd will be 3yrs I lost my son Richard. I know some people say it should be getting easier by this time. For me this is the hardest reality is starting kick in and I can't believe my son is gone I will never see him hear his voice again and I can't accept the fact he is gone and I think its because I had no time to really grieve for my son. Since my son died I went through a lot with my…