I truely want to die. I have nothing to live for. I wish I could just take my own life but could never do that. I have tried so hard to pick up the pieces of my broken heart and put them back together but can't find all the pieces. Today is or should I say was my husbands birthday. He would have been 41 today. I would give anything to be with him right now. It has been 8 months since he passed aw…