My husband passed away 23 months ago of lung cancer. This is a hard time of year for me, for we had our first date on the 4th of july and 1 year later we got married. His birthday is in july and then he passed away in the begging of aug, after a very long illness. Things just don`t seem to get better, infact, they seem worst. The 1st year I was in shock and could not believed all this was real. B…